"We live a double life whether we know it or not. We live our own life and we live the life of our Time." Laurens van der Post, C. G. Jung and Our Time.
HELLO OUT THERE What happened during July 31 thru August 11, 1984?
In the particular setting in the particular situations in one place on the planet where a particular change was under way, two small groups of square dancers were attempting to leave the mainstream level and learn higher levels, advanced and challenge levels where it was required to learn to do All Position Square dancing. That was a change that removed gender based roles and positions; males and females were required to learn everything the other did. When those 10 days scrolled into Time, the planet seemed to me at times to have developed a voice. During those days an enormous package of information about my life occurred into my mind in a location so deep it might have been the equivalent of a different galaxy within the mind. It's depths had to be discovered slowly and in a strange form that would seem impossible, I had no way to name it for a long time. In fact it seemed impossible every day for so long that it was obviously possible.
I named it a 'mindquake' eventually. This is an account of a somewhat similar event: C.S. Nott described his experience in his book, Journey Through This World.
Richard Tarnas makes a remark in his Cosmos and Psyche: ”Accompanying the more profound occurrences of synchronicity was a dawning intuition …… that the individual was herself or himself not only embedded in a larger ground of meaning and purpose, but also in some sense (is) a focus of it.
The sense of being the 'focus' of the 'larger ground of meaning and purpose' after 1984, was preceded by a period of about 7 years (1982-1989) when I observed my own body in a way that was new to me, as though I was detached from it, was outside of it. It was a peculiar effect, difficult to pinpoint as the beginning of 'self observation'. The effect was a sense of being an audience to what my body was doing in the relationships in my life at that particular point in Time. They were very specific. The word 'coincidence' did not occur to me, when I named the new 'effect' I had noticed in my mind although it took a two year period of experience with this effect and several specific events that made it distinct enough to be certain it was there. It was a mechanism of mind at work, that affected every aspect of my life, especially as it affected new kinds of 'thought'. Eventually it was possible to name the effect as a 'twinning' mechanism, extremely rapid, a kind of 'operator' on everything in front of me after 1984. I described it as a 'reflection' that created 'second underlying contexts' to whatever occurred outside of my body. A Jungian analyst that I had begun to see told me 'second underlying contexts' was an excellent descriptive term. He had experienced it himself. The term 'second sight' is a good one to use also. Emanuel Swedenborg experienced it as 'double thought'.
There's been a period of years, almost 24 at this point in 2008, during which I was carefully led towards becoming aware of having been 'synchronized' in my thought when it emerged from that 'vein of thought' to the events outside of my body, from my first memory on this planet. I'm not unusual, nor am I claiming to be. We all possess mechanisms of mind that can create the same kind of self observations that are not likely to be 'coincidences' of any kind. Plato described one 'sense' more worthy of development than all the other senses.
"There exists a type of phenomenon even more mysterious than telepathy or precognition which has puzzled man since the dawn of mythology: the seemingly accidental meeting of two unrelated causal chains in a coincidental event which appears both highly improbable and highly significant." Arthur Koestler, The Roots of Coincidence
"eternal truth needs a human language that alters with the spirit of the times." C. G. Jung "My aim was to show that delusions and hallucinations were not just specific symptoms of mental disease but also had a human meaning."
The very basis of psychiatry itself is the requirement to 'decode' and 'redefine' every day, mundane world events that seem meaning-less. In 'therapy' there is meaning in the most trivial mental activity as well as in physical activity. In life that is true also, everything that psychiatry is 'about' happens in every day life, to ordinary people. That's a discovery I had to make. It was not easy to recognize how carefully a 'secret about the insane, just around the corner, just out of sight' was being explained to me, and even that idea had been brought to my attention. The 'secret' was illustrated in detail in every day life events, from which a distinct doubleness of context in the most personal relationship to my particular memories and experiences emerged very slowly.
Such a 'human' language exists already. The language of parables and dreams is mentioned many times in the Bible. There are references to 'illustrations'. There are some editions that contain references to 'ambiguous sayings'. "I have spoken these things to you in comparisons. The hour is coming when I will speak to you no more in comparisons, but I will report to you with plainness concerning the Father." Different words for the same kind of 'event' but there is a necessity to learn to get personal meaning, not some collective or commonly understood meaning. It's personal because memories and experiences that are unique to the observer are the 'words'.
Carl G. Jung:: "I cannot define for you what God is, I cannot tell you even that God 'is' but what I can say is that all my work has scientifically proved that the pattern of God exists in every man and that this pattern has at it's disposal the greatest transforming energy of which mankind is capable." (Laurens Van der Post, at the end of Remembering Jung, a video documentary)
I repeat this important quotation: Richard Tarnas wrote in his Cosmos and Psyche, page 51: "Accompanying the more profound occurrences of synchronicity was a dawning intuition...that the individual was herself or himself not only embedded in a larger ground of meaning and purpose but also (is) in some sense a focus of it.
The greatest transforming energy of which mankind is capable.... Of enduring, discerning, translating, understanding, remembering, and converting to language? Alfred Korzybski formulated this idea in this way: "Mankind is a time-binding class of life." (That means our memory carries forwards information from the past.) (The essence of Korzybski's work was the view that human beings are limited in what they know by (1) the structure of their nervous systems, and (2) the structure of their languages. Human beings cannot experience the world directly, but only through their "abstractions" (nonverbal impressions or "gleanings" derived from the nervous system, and verbal indicators expressed and derived from language). Sometimes our perceptions and our languages actually mislead us as to the "facts" with which we must deal. Our understanding of what is going on sometimes lacks similarity of structure with what is actually going on. He stressed training in awareness of abstracting, using techniques that he had derived from his study of mathematics and science. He called this awareness, this goal of his system, "consciousness of abstracting." His system included modifying the way we approach the world, e.g., with an attitude of "I don't know; let's see," to better discover or reflect its realities as shown by modern science. One of these techniques involved becoming inwardly and outwardly quiet, an experience that he called, "silence on the objective levels.")
That means we carry information forwards through our lives, in our bodies probably as what may seem to be but is not always our own memories and activities."
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"The philosopher is usually interested in a central idea that evolves over a long period of time, which may never be successfully completed and formulated into words , one that may appear to be mysterious and beyond scientific validation." Jean Piaget
An idea that I didn't originally know anything about was brought to my attention during the first 5 decades of my life (1932-1982) and then after 1984 I was given experiences that caused me to understand the idea and to recognize it's real source, something that has been named before I knew about it: the zeitgeist which spoke during that 10 day period. It was just part of what I later named a 'mindquake', an enormous batch of information containing a message, a statement of purpose, guidelines and information about my past, my future and the idea itself.
It happened in the only context that it could have happened, seemingly simple, while I struggled to make a skirt that looked simple. Every aspect of my life was the setting, but this skirt provided a special situation. I was urged on, powered really by a thought that occurred to me when I began to fit the pattern to the remnant I'd bought on impulse: "You've got to get this right the first time."
I had heard someone say those words to me recently. I had felt very strange when I heard them, something akin to a shock. The square dance caller in my dream had said them to a class, but I'd heard them in an unusual way, different than anything I'd experienced. Or so I thought at the time.
I remembered that someone had said those words recently, just when the words were 'regenerated' so to speak; just at the point when I also noticed I'd chosen a difficult fabric and the pattern wasn't as simple as the picture on the front indicated. I was ready to abandon the project. The fabric, a warm brown plaid remnant which I had noticed as I passed through the store on my way to my car had caused me to pause to examine it, when an image of the pattern which I'd never opened although I'd owned it for a long time came into my mind. Without hesitation I bought the fabric, went home to get the pattern from the attic and begin immediately to make the skirt. That was not typical for me to do. When I opened the pattern I thought about how many times in the past I'd sorted through my pattern box and noticed this one, but had never used it and had not thrown it away.
The pattern had a history but I had not really looked at it. So I was surprised to find it was not a simple circle with pockets sewn on top. It had an unusual inset curved pocket and waistband design that was not easy to match in ordinary plaid fabric. I had just noticed that I'd chosen a one way mirror image plaid and the stripes were not close together: that remnant was almost impossible to use. I couldn't see how I could use that pattern but the thought re-occurred: "You've got to get this right the first time."
I began the project, anguished already by changes in my life circumstances in all aspects. When I wasn't working on the skirt other activities 'fed' into making the skirt: I read a book, Mr. God, This Is Anna written by Fynn in 1929. It's about a little girl who believed Mr. God was 'in her middle' and that she was a 'viewing point on Earth' for Mr. God. Also I was very much engrossed in going to challenge level square dance classes and dances in which two small groups of individuals were literally 'leaving the mainstream level' of square dancing to enter advanced and challenge levels of life. I believed the changes were effects of a head injury in an automobile accident early in 1981, I thought I'd had brain damage.
Unsuspecting at the time, every aspect of my every day life, including my specific past and the past of several very significant people I knew then was drawn into what happened in the ten days between July 31 and August 11, 1984 when the Los Angeles Olympic Games were being played. I heard a thought voice speak once, only once in the beginning of this event. It began with words that were specific: "You are correct. Patterns of the past are to be patterns of the future." A memory of an event that had happened when I was 13 years old was retrieved, and the words were associated immediately with what happened in that event.
A kind of 'scenario' that I could not have foreseen had been created but just about at that point in 1984, there was one participant that seemed to have known what to do to create it! Certain remarks had been made in the past to me, some of them had been repeated often by this person but they had made no sense at all until a few years after 1984. Something that looked and sounded like 'foresight' by that one person began to be evident to me after the first mindquake happened. It revealed a double fault line in my life as a woman. Neither of them had anything to do with the real me; they were Eve with all her burden of guilt and blame and the 'stereotyped female', patterns that I didn't know about. I felt that material, somehow installed in my body. It came as part of a package that contained masses of memories that were retrieved from my past, neatly arranged like a movie that plays in less than a second of time, each scene still visible.
By the fall of 1989 I knew what had happened during those 10 days. I had typed the message one day, not recognizing it or being curious about it at that point, then later typed the guidelines and at a different time typed the statement of purpose. Somehow I understood it right away because when I read certain words in it, memories from my past emerged in which I remembered I had asked those questions, each separate and unique in content: what...? why...? how does....? The situations when I had asked each one were retrieved vividly, complete in every day. .It began with a very strange paragraph:
The Counselor: (Was said To me this) THEE MUST ACT ON THIS, AND PERSEVERE. Procrastinate no longer. Allot thy time to me. Thee has finished with this world of substance and must proceed. Thou asked of me to know: what? and why? and how does???, and thee asked it well. Now thee has thy story, and must tell or it is lost in time. It will take thee time, thou must begin.
And by 1989 I'd learned to relate to content that emerged in my mind spontaneously, and seemingly without any purpose of my own but I'd also been reading books that came to my attention in unusual ways about ideas that in the past I had not known about. I noticed a distinct relationship between my daily activities, the new thought and inner contents that flitted into momentary visibility, and books that seemed to attract the attention of a part of me that was not connected to my 'will', my own purposes and more important my own intentionality. It took that long to learn the first phase of what was told to me that 'day', the 10 days between July 31 and August 11, 1984 to learn the new language. The 5 years between 1984 and 1989 were filled with a strange new kind of event in the physical world, one I didn't think of as 'coincidence' even once. I had no words to name it. It's as though I had to do what Adam was required to do: Name everything brought before me, but what was new to me that demanded a name was only visible as a subtle change in how everything looked and sounded and affected my body. A few perfectly timed incidents happened that caused me to actually see what was going on in my mind and I noticed an extremely rapid 'replay' of my thought that was changed in many ways, creating the sense of being talked to by a 'reflection' i.e. 'echo' i.e. re-viewing' so to speak of my own thought. After 4 years I had become aware of a 'second underlying context' that formed in my mind automatically in my mind, so the name 'second underlying context/second under 'lying' context was what I experienced.
I knew nothing then that I write about on this page. Within 5 years after 1984 I had become aware that every event in my life and the life of several people I knew at that point was strangely aligned towards what happened during those 10 days, in a way Alan Vaughn described in his book on Incredible Coincidence page 195: "A larger view of synchronicity cases indicate that many people are involved in the production of incredible coincidence and suggests that their consciousness units mesh into a communal consciousness." When I read the book, sometime in 1987 as best I can date it, I didn't really see the word 'synchronicity', or remember it until several years later! I remember pausing for some time to read that sometimes a person becomes a bit player in his own life and becomes a star in someone else's life. I wondered how that would feel, and how it could happen.
I did not pay much attention to remembering at that point, a diagram I'd seen in a book authored by Eric Berne, Psychology for the Layman, the first such book I read. I had paused for some time over the diagram, and had actually drew it many times after seeing it, doodling, seemingly without any purpose. And I thought several times about creating a picture of the diagram using donuts. The diagram was of three donut like shapes, the first one labeled "Healthy Ego" was a full donut shaped object. The second one labeled, Thin in Places Ego was the donut like shape with bites taken from it. The third one was labeled, "Thin in Places Ego' borrowing ego from another person" and the bites in the 'thin in places ego' donut were filled in with black which made the shape of a whole, full donut, 'like' that Healthy Ego. I cannot count the times I've been in a bakery and had that idea return to me, to photograph the diagrams in the book with real donuts but I've never done it. I eat the donuts before I get that far.
The point is that the diagram and the statement in Alan Vaughn's book found each other in a level of my mind, and fixed itself firmly in place before the conscious me recognized there must be some reason I was being haunted by the idea.
The birth of my idea and it's development The Convergence Zone
"I saw not with the eye of the body, but the eye of the soul." Goethe describes a 'pre-vision' he had that I read in Theodore Reik's Fragment Of A Great Confession.
The Seed was planted early in life. ("When it came, it did not come as it was expected to come.") (1941)
My Central Idea The Hill (1945) The Dream (1981) The initiation.
This link leads to an article from January 3, 1932 about Arthur C. Compton's work with quantum physics Getting it straight
Printout of news of birth year 1932 Ideas about the 'cracking of the atom' were 'in the air' in 1932. The link to a printout of the news 1-2-32 shows a surprising fact about the discovery of the functions of neurons in the brain and surface chemistries at about the same time ideas of quantum physics. In 1932 both areas of 'discovery' were awarded Nobel Prizes. Impeccable timing of events 'in the flow' cannot be explained by 'randomness' or by any purpose of my own. Too many other people, most of whom lived long ago, were involved directly.
This unexpected event also built up over a period of years: Beethoven, Einstein and Mark Twain The result was unexpected to say the least. It told me my name, in a most unexpected form.
The Message in 1984; The Statement of Purpose; Guidelines, (1984) . The Image in 1988
These quotations came to me, precisely timed, over a period since 1984.
A point of origin Books timeline based.htm An essay about Paranoia by Dr. William Paul Cone
This unusual event happened one day in 1995: June 25 1995
This is a funny cartoon about the difficulty of communication: Pearls before Swine
Everything this site is about happened in my every day real life, with real people, in a real world setting, over a period of 23+ years at this point in Time. A global change that nobody could have foreseen in 1984 has altered every day life, for everyone. This period of almost a quarter of a century at this point in Time, began with a situation that was in my real life, and it's remained a 'local' situation, a family situation but after 1988, when a second phase began, I was led carefully to understand the real origin of the changes in my real world life, which was beyond Time, in some intelligence other than our own.
There were two small groups of people that were literally doing something that served as a model for the change, leaving the mainstream level of square dancing to learn higher levels, where gender based roles were banished. There are relationships in the form of square-dancing that are identical to ideas of the I Ching, chess, quantum physics and in psychiatry. a certain mechanism of mind that was mythologized in the myth of Narcissus. It's a story about a 'god' who could not recognize his own reflection. It's an inner reflection, one that creates 'self observation', potentially at least. It was a very specific setting that could only have had any meaning in 1984. 1984 and 2001 were not ordinary years. Two books about those years made them especially significant.
The inwardsly visible mental 'event', happened to me in the 10 days the Los Angles Olympic Games were being played in 1984 but afterwards my mind went to work in a way that was new to me, and I watched what was going on in my thought, because the stream of 'non-stop thinking' about the dream had replaced attention that had primarily been for 52 years, on what was outside of my body. I named it a 'mindquake' eventually, because two 'fault lines' in my past were simultaneously exposed. I had not suspected they existed when suddenly my world as a specific person on this planet began to be 'told' to me, in a way I had to discover, every detail of it. An inner life I had not known about because I'd not experienced it myself, was initiated, carefully and gradually marked by a beginning point of May 18, 1980 when Mt. St. Helens erupted nearby. Her dusty inner content covered my physical territory, literally when my own 'inner content' began to move towards a visibility that preceded being able to relate to it immediately. Who would suspect a mental event could be visible, but require several years to consciously relate to, and then require decades to understand?
In 1984, in the 10 day span between July 31 and August 11, my mind's content was visible to me, as visible as the monitor that I'm typing on now, but what I saw/heard in my thought world was as remote from the moment it occurred as a galaxy far beyond the Milky Way. I experienced the first of 3 masses of information about my life in those 10 days. That first one was an enormous package of information about my life, specifically my life, that contained within it, deeply embedded, a message, a statement of purpose and guidelines. I typed those three documents a year later, at different times, without knowing what I typed, and without having intended to type it!! I heard and saw everything in the world outside my body in a different way by 1984, although the change had been initiated gradually I realize now, beginning in 1975!! By 1980 I was 'seeing activity in my mind' that prepared for what was going to happen in 1984. I had been almost literally 'empty headed' until 1981, when a constant stream of thought about a dream I'd had began to move relentlessly through my mind. I certainly noticed that, and wondered to myself how a dream could generate so much content, 24/7/365.
When those 10 days in 1984 scrolled into Time, I had already noticed a few events and circumstances in the physical world that matched up precisely, as though timed to happen with something I'd said, or thought about. I heard myself in a very different way than normal for me, and I saw what my body did as though it was someone else moving, talking, doing things I would not normally have done and not doing things I ordinarily would have done. A very great change was brought about so slowly that I recognize almost every detail of the change now. I could not when I was 'embedded' in a process that had assumed authority in my life, and I believe in the lives of individuals I knew at the time. I felt stifled literally because of something I wanted to say to someone but couldn't say, because it literally was unspeakable. I felt the most painful pity and grief then, I wept tears in such quantity I could not explain how my body could generate them, every day for about 7 years as best I can date it.
A second stage event happened in 1989 but by then I'd learned a new way to relate to every aspect of my mind and my life in the real world. Certain events that had happened when I was less than 13 years old were 'installed' for use after this inwardsly visible event happened. My experiences in 1984 and afterwards have caused me to believe that a change 'blew in' under the guise of the advent, and then the playing of the Los Angeles Olympic Games . During the advent of the games I experienced an inner change that altered how I heard everything. From this change, which took almost 5 years after 1984 to understand, a 'voice' emerged from the every day situations of my very specific life's events. It's a very unusual voice, an artificially generated kind of speech emerges, but many individuals have experienced it the way I did, and it has been sensed by some as a 'voice'. It's even been named by those whose encounter was successful to some degree. I knew nothing about anything I'm writing about now, so I had to discover even the event that I named a 'mindquake'. Several events happened that caused me to think of a conversation being created in a fragmented way, of 'words' being said to me that were different from the kind of words we use in every day life. A language that taught itself, using my memories and some in particular that had re-occurred in my mind for no reason I could see, formed the words. Those memories in particular clearly were installed early in life for later use, a definite foresight other than my own was evident.
After 23+ years of experiences with this 'voice', and those experiences included several huge masses of 'thought content' that occurred into my mind, I think of it as a pattern based signal moving steadily forwards in Time. A signal moving steadily forwards in Time.
I'm certain this 'change', which is evident now in 2007 globally, was 'in the winds of Time'' when Hesiod wrote that he was 'instructed by the muses, who could say what is true, or say what seems to be true, whichever they chose to do."
The Zeitgeist and the 'Language' of Time If you pay attention to what's going on in your 'head', you may notice as I did eventually, there are small seemingly insignificant details about 'thought' and inner imagery that ought to make the individual curious. At some point, when some different 'stuff' drops in, I had to ask: "Where does this content come from?' The new thought, was distinctly different from normal for me. Then several different kinds of thought 'dropped in', not replacing the one continuous stream of thought that had begun after a dream unlike any that I'd ever had, but causing me to wonder about the 'new thought content'. It didn't seem to me 'me' thinking it, and it changed at times. . I don't dream very often, but I had one dream late in 1981 that I realize now was an 'initiatory dream'. When I understood it, (1989) I had learned to understand a new language, that taught itself to me. I knew nothing about psychiatry, history, had never read any of the great philosophers. I certainly knew nothing about the history of religious ideas. That was a requirement it seems to me now, that I have had not one prior conception, no knowledge from education or family about much of anything. I was empty headed, literally until late in 1981 after the dream but after that I was 'thought' full, really full of thought.
Having been 'empty headed' the change was certainly noticeable. After the dream a few events of a 'new kind' wafted into my every day life. Within a year my mind/body relationship was radically changed. Often I felt like the floor I was standing on had become Jello, I was literally 'off balance' when that happened.
Then certain thought content that was in my mind for some time met it's exact match in the exterior world one day on the jacket of a book I noticed when I passed through the Renton Library. Although this had never happened in the past even once, I was only slightly curious when it happened the first time. An Imagined World, June Goodfield
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"eternal truth needs a human language that alters with the spirit of the times." C. G. Jung "My aim was to show that delusions and hallucinations were not just specific symptoms of mental disease but also had a human meaning."
It was a few weeks before the 1984 Los Angeles Olympic Games were to be played when this happened: I was sewing, deep in thought unawares of the television show going on until the words plucked my attention: "The second world is just beyond your reach." I stopped to watch the commercial, which was for a new automobile that was going to be introduced. A few weeks later the same situation, but the words that snatched my attention were slightly changed: "The second world is here and in the second world all the rules are changed." I thought to myself that the people who wrote advertisements didn't have to make sense and went back to my sewing. But the words began to lurk around in my mind, and I remembered a few incidents that had happened in the past 2 years, which seemed to be occurring more frequently. The words in the advertisement seemed vaguely to be linked to those 'strange events', but was the 'link' formed by me, or given to me? The direction of the words were towards me, and this was a very great change, one I had to discover caused 'self reference' so that whatever content was selected, seemed to be spoken the way a person would speak to me.
The mechanisms of mind that produce this 'effect' altered every thing, everything.
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I have been led to ask a question: Can a pattern moving through Time be a signal-like band carrying a message (information) from the past, and in my opinion, information from another 'world'? That would be literally, the 'kingdom of heaven' that is 'within you', probably biologically but... in what language does it speak, and how does it teach its self?? Because over a period of 5 years it did generate understanding as it went to work on content in my visible life!!, using certain memories from my past that had re-occurred periodically throughout my life for no reason I could see. I noticed them and wondered about them, eventually, but why ?? The outer manifestations of the pattern are very well known in 'psychiatry'. "The 'medium' IS the message." The pattern has extension in Time, just like a mathematical line has, in fact I noticed it when I was a very young girl when some man, it was always a man became convinced the end of the world was near, but he knew how to be saved. I thought it would be terrible to be gripped by such a pattern! We had only one radio and I'm not sure how such a pattern could become so distinct to me when I was so young but it did. The outer manifestation is not always the same, many individuals don't go to the extremes that some do.
However it's a pattern identified by its duration and extension through Time, through generations and alterations of 'eras of thought', and it can be a signal, just not the kind of signal we're searching for or expecting.
A picture of pi with a twist, white at the center. Two twists appear in the sky in the movie Baghdad Cafe
David Blatner, author of The Joy of Pi
An amazing foxglove plant that had three levels of bloom on one stalk.
The Medium is the Message The Message as an image A graphic linking pi and the moebius twist ..
An event that is similar is described in this link. The new kind of event
"What is to happen in the future determines what happened in the past." Paul Davies, Other Worlds
"I saw not with the eye of the body, but the eye of the soul." Goethe describes a 'pre-vision' he had that I read in Theodore Reik's Fragment Of A Great Confession.
If Goethe had an 'eye of the soul' how does it differ from 'normal' perception? How does it connect to the 'other world', a presumably 'invisible world' that's embedded in events of any person's every day reality?
The main theme of this site is my personal encounter with a real reality that has a voice, a language and it's own mode of communicating, forming a connection through my own mental content, to what I named the Larger Domain when I was certain it really was 'speaking' to me. It's 'voice' was created 'artificially', using every day events and memories from my past as its language to teach me about an idea it had brought to my attention in the 9 years prior to 1984. If this reads as 'unlikely' consider how the bibliography of any complex non-fiction book, (Norman O. Brown, Morris Berman, Silvano Arieti, C. G. Jung, Harold Searles, etc) is acquired by the author: fragments are abstracted from other books and used in the authors new framework.
One attribute of this encounter was to identify me specifically and my location on the planet, a fact that I didn't notice until it was so obvious I couldn't ignore it. The hidden gold There was one very specific event that happened in 2000 that convinced me beyond doubt there was a remote 'other' intelligence at work. The word 'coincidence' or 'synchronicity' is not a word I would choose to describe the 'doubleness' of every day contexts that emerged in relationship to this event. I formed my own terms, one of which was 'second underlying contexts', because that's exactly what created the 'voice' and it's content after the 1984 event.
"Is there some way that nature communicates with us if we could but decode the hieroglyphs?" Rollo May The Courage To Create. The answer is: " Yes. " The every day life is full of events that can be 'decoded', in the context of that person's particular life. This is basically what psychiatry is all about.
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"The philosopher is usually interested in a central idea that evolves over a long period of time, which may never be successfully completed and formulated into words , one that may appear to be mysterious and beyond scientific validation." Jean Piaget
"There exists a type of phenomenon even more mysterious than telepathy or precognition which has puzzled man since the dawn of mythology: the seemingly accidental meeting of two unrelated causal chains in a coincidental event which appears both highly improbable and highly significant." Arthur Koestler, The Roots of Coincidence
My own name for the 'seemingly accidental' meeting of 'two unrelated causal chains' was formed after more than 5 years (1984-1989)of experiencing 'double meaning' experiences that had created a second underlying context for every event: 'second under 'lying' contexts'. Example: "Know thyself" switches into 'Know, thyself".
The following paragraph is abstracted from a book that I read recently (2006): "War In Heaven" by Charles Williams. Read the paragraph through. Then read only the underlined words that have been abstracted out, separated but they present a valid idea too, the opposite.
"When Mr. Batesby had spoken that morning it had seemed as if two streams of things, actual events and his own meditations had flowed gently together; as if not he but Life were solving the problem in the natural process of the world. He reminded himself now that such a simplicity was unlikely; explanations did not lucidly arise from mere accidents and present themselves as all but an ordered whole."
The underlined text describes precisely a process that creates the 'voice' and an artificially generated conversation, although I've had 3 major 'mindquakes' (enormous packages of information about my life) and many smaller ones. They were essential.
Only the first one occurred in 1984, July 31 thru August 11 as a purely mental package that occurred in the deepest regions of mind and required 5 years to reach a point where I could relate to the content in addition to the many changes in my thought/mind/body, and the new (to me) relationship to everything in the exterior world. .
I would not have chosen to read this book by Charles Williams ordinarily. A man I worked with gave it to me. He was fascinated with H. Rider Haggard, Charles Williams, and J. R. R. Tolkien, authors I'd not heard about or read. He told me often I was a unique, strange woman. He was a unique, strange man (to me) who made a remark to me one day that caused him to bring a copy of She by H. Rider Haggard to give to me. I read the strange book reluctantly, (grimly determined to get through it) just to humor him. 'She who must be obeyed." was his way of describing me at times. Having read that book, led to his telling me about his interest in Charles Williams eventually. His stories produce strange feelings, and an 'uncanny sense' of really being 'in the story'.
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I'm 75 years old and now, I notice how my mind/brain works on the material supplied by the exterior world. But I've not always had that relationship to my thought/mind/brain', it has 'evolved' slowly after 1984. There's a function that C. G. Jung named the 'transcendental function', but I didn't know about that until I had already become aware of a mechanism of mind that 'operates' to create a 're-hearing/re-seeing' of content, inner and/or outer, and then a completely different context emerges in the 're-viewed' content. That function 'selected' this segment out, so that I noticed it after having read the book through, without noticing it. I don't know how to explain the impulse that caused me to pick up the book and browse through it, and notice this particular paragraph to make a point about a function of mind that can be thought about as the 'abstract sense'. It does abstract out, by a process that can be visible to anyone that notices what is going on in the mind and notices certain specific content such as in this example. It's purpose is to make certain words, events, circumstances and situations 'significant' as a 'body felt' experience. It's a kind of mental highlighter.
"There is another world, but it is in this one." Paul Eluard, quoted by Morris Berman in The Re-enchantment of the World. "The heart of earthling man may think out his way, but Jehovah himself, does the directing of his steps." Proverbs 16:9
The idea of two 'worlds apart' mindsets... on this planet began when I recognized common denominators about two mindsets in books that I chanced to find. The idea of two worlds apart mindsets... I was unawares that the 'two worlds apart mindset' had already been introduced much earlier in my life, when I was beginning to date the man I married. I'd seen The Collector by John Fowles, and then read the book. One of the characters, the butterfly collector had a non-human mindset. The story is presented from his non-human reasoning as well as the thought of the female he kidnapped, believing she would come to love him is she knew him. It was a kind of coincidence that I recognized 45 years later. The humanity of some individuals does not develop due to situations beyond anyone's control, I'm not denigrating anyone or inflating my self.
My Central Idea (1953-1979) That span of time is a long period of time for one important event to be created. This link is about how one idea was brought to my attention, in a very complex way
I'm very repetitious in this material, to emphasize certain ideas. Everything this site is about happened in real life, with real people, in a real world setting, over a period of 23+ years at this point in Time. The inwardsly visible 'event' happened to me in the 10 days the Los Angles Olympic Games were being played in 1984 It was a package of information that contained within it, deeply embedded, a message, a statement of purpose and guidelines, that I typed later without knowing what I typed, or having intended to type it. When Los Angeles hosted the 1984 Olympic games, two small groups of individuals were leaving the mainstream level, learning to square dance at advanced and challenge levels where gender based roles were banished. That was the real world setting, and it was a perfect model for a change that has become globally recognizable. I believe that when1984 scrolled overhead in Time a perfect model of a change that was going to extend to a global encounter was already in motion.
While I'm not likely to be challenged to prove what happened and the extremely unique way it happened, this event can be proved to have not been contrived or created by any one person, certainly not by me. Too many people who lived at widely different times participated in helping to decode that package of information contained in that event. . C.S. Nott's experience. C. S. Nott experienced the kind of package that I named a 'mindquake' after the second one in 1989, although he's condensed it to the maximum, and it's possible he didn't go through the long period of having to discover the package, or to be more accurate realize it was being unpacked through daily experiences that felt very uncomfortable, from which a completely new context for everything emerged spontaneously
Doubleness of everything was not easy to establish, but I can give examples of how this happened, one of which I found in Fragment of A Great Confession by Theodore Reik. He recognized that his mind became 'stuck' on certain words that occur naturally when he was thinking about a bridge game. The words developed a 'double bottom', a 'secret meaning' but he didn't fully grasp that those details were brought to his attention when he mind became 'stuck' on them, and that those words actually described something to him, a detail about his real life. He was a psychiatrist so this was 'magical thinking' to him.
I suspect that all of the 'doubleness' one reads about in George Orwell's book, 1984, the subtitle of which is Big Brother Is Watching You was the result of the way a mechanism of mind causes and inner 'reflection' of content, which can most accurately be named an 'echo'. The content in the 'reflection' however, is quite different than the original event, and a new context is 'generated', in this 'regeneration' of content.
The word 'coincidence' did not occur to me to describe the unexpected perfectly timed synchronization of 'thought', events in my personal world, words from any source, and events in the larger physical world.
Who would suspect that within the mind/brain such an event could happen, could be visible to me, but that the content would have to be discovered as though there was a great distance involved in being able to relate to that event and understand all of it's contents? It began with a retrieval of events from my past, one in particular that had happened when I was 13 years old. The Hill. Other 'strings of memories' from my past were abstractions (memories of real events that had happened) from my marriage. That was a visible part of the event, much more was embedded and came out later, as a kind of automatic activity of my body, which I that write at this point, observed from a detached perspective. I typed automatically, acted automatically, listened and watched almost without curiosity for a period of several years. When I read the Message as though someone else had typed it and given it to me I printed a copy of it. I read it without interest or curiosity Then several months later after I'd read Contact by Carl Sagan, a thought occurred to me: "It was a message. I got a message." During the 5 years after 1984, my mind was a busy place into which I had begun to 'look' and from which I had begun to 'listen' already. By 1989. when the second stage event happened I had learned to 'read events in my life' and understand what was happening in my mind, in a new way and had learned the information to understand an idea that prior to 1984 had been brought to my attention. I was given information about my self in the 1984 event, and more was given in the 1989 event, which showed me with evidence to prove it, that I had learned a new language. I'd learned much that I had not previously known. The most difficult thing I have to do, is to name people, to be specific and not generalize anything. It happened in a specific setting that I don't believe could ever be repeated or 'enacted' by real people. The timing of every event was perfectly timed and precisely related to two years that have been highlighted by books written about them: 1984 and 2001. It's about a kind of 'new-to-me-event' that arose from an every day situation, as an 'abstraction of content' so to speak that created a conversation and also served as a kind of visual presentation of explanatory information. This was not easy to notice and then be certain about! One factor that was difficult to establish for certain until it became distinct was that these 'new-to-me-kind's of event', in addition to creating a conversation, identified me as an individual on this planet and described to me what I was doing many times. It's a kind of situation many people experience, it's nothing unique except that I learned to understand that this is a process that generates a new language, one that actually taught itself to me between 1984 and 1989.
A process of individualization of every day experience created this very personalized encounter that has not ended at this point in Time, although I believe it's a global encounter now. It included a terrible sense of depersonalization and isolation also! There's only one book that I've ever come across that has a mention in it of a 'secret about the insane, just out of sight, just around the corner' and it's a fictional book: The Bridge Of San Luis Rey by Thornton Wilder. The manner from which I became aware of this particular sentence that was embedded in a book, among billions of other books was not purposed or intended by my conscious mind, the process that brought it to my attention was carefully made visible...eventually. Another will than my own, different thought producing levels, completely isolated memory 'banks' and much more activity within the mind, became evident to me in a way I could not have contrived myself. The "I" that can write and relate to my thought easily, 'now' as it emerges, had lived almost 52 years in 1984, but had been literally speechless. After a long period of the visibility of the package of information that initiated the communication, it's 'unspeakable-ness' was made distinct to me. There is a 'secret about the insane, just out of sight, just around the corner'! This understanding evolved over a period of 23 years, a span of time in physical life that may be quite different in mental realms.
An Encounter with the Zeitgeist in 1984
Imagine me at my new word processor, intending to write a letter and I proceed to type but what comes out of my fingers is not what I intended to write. In fact my fingers take on a life of their own. They fly from key to key, no errors of spelling occur for 10 minutes or so, then I hit 'Save', then 'Print' without any sense of curiosity. When the document is printed, my hand reaches for it, I read the material not in depth but merely glancing at the words my hand just typed:
The Counselor: THEE MUST ACT ON THIS, AND PERSEVERE. Procrastinate no longer. Allot thy time to me. Thee has finished with this world of substance and must proceed. Thou asked of me to know: what? and why? and how does???, and thee asked it well. Now thee has thy story, and must tell or it is lost in time. It will take thee time, thou must begin.
Only some of the words I've typed take on a meaning to me, who read them, because they related to three specific but different moments in my past. They were incidents when a thought occurred into my mind after I'd read something; nothing profound or scholarly: "What does that mean?"; "Why would someone do a thing like that?";"How does a person do a thing like that?"
At the time I didn't recognize that I'd typed my Statement of Purpose, which had two parts: The Counselor addressing me and a response from a part of me that I watched read and 'get' that portion of what I read; merely watched at that point. I read The counselor's words, then read the words that seemed to be an answer to them, which I'd typed without any reason to type them. I read what I'd typed, saved and printed without curiosity but I also watched some part of me that latched onto certain parts of what I'd written. That part knew exactly what was meant, because the three separate moments were retrieved, and I, the watcher at that point did remember them. I put the paper away and gave no thought to this strange situation: "Thou asked of me to know: what? and why? and how does???, and thee asked it well. Now thee has thy story, and must tell or it is lost in time. It will take thee time, thou must begin."
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"In her mind she thought she could hear one joyous shout amidst a clamor of other voices." Ellen Arroway in Carl Sagan's Contact, has just received confirmation that the signal that has been picked up, is not 'local'. It's the first contact with extra terrestrials. It's a palimpsest. In 1984 I received a package of information that was also a palimpsest that had to be 'unpacked' over the next 5 years. A kind of 'voice' emerged during that 5 years span of time, but I also had 3 more packages of information after the one I thought was the first one. How this 'voice' made it's self distinct is not impossible to describe, it just requires complete freedom of speech and a listening mind that is free from prior conceptions. Everyone has the mechanisms of mind that alter 'thought'; suppress it (which can be a visible action); or 're-direct' it (which happens in jokes as well as paranoia and can also be a visible action), in their inner landscape. But until I was nearing my 50th year, I was basically 'thought' less. So when a new kind of 'thought' began, I was curious about it because it was a 'new kind of thought'; only one kind at first but then gradually a variety of different kinds of thought occurred and I was not able to discern whether 'I' was 'thinking' it myself.
I grew up hearing people say: "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me." Nobody says that anymore, do they?
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Carl G. Jung:: "I cannot define for you what God is, I cannot tell you even that God 'is' but what I can say is that all my work has scientifically proved that the pattern of God exists in every man and that this pattern has at it's disposal the greatest transforming energy of which mankind is capable." (Laurens Van der Post quotes Jung, at the end of Remembering Jung, a video documentary)
Religion is all about whether we are alone in the universe. We are not, although I don't mean to imply 'extra terrestrial' means the kinds of 'visitors' from other planets that I read about in the science fiction magazines I read when I was a very young girl. In my most private moments, I was not alone, I've had proof I can never doubt of that fact as well as having my location on the planet 'said back' to me, this by implication, more than once. I'm not unusual either. One 'thought voice' amidst a clamor of other 'thought voices' is nearly impossible to detect except by some factor that marks it distinctly, i.e. inner content that cannot be even related to when it emerges in the mind; and thought, that cannot be articulated for YEARS! Subtle differences in 'thought' are only one facet of the pattern of God that exists in every man. One impulse amidst a clamor of other impulses can be isolated, but that's not easy to do either. After reading further, a few pages at least, please read this link; it's an example of what I mean when I write that every fact I understand now, had to be discovered but it was laid right in front of me. That had to be discovered also. The Safety Secret
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In the 10 days between July 31 and August 11, 1984 an event, a purely mental event happened in my mind, although it was 'visible' as thought is 'visible/audible'. It opened up a new level of life, a level I'd not suspected or expected, at least not consciously. I had never been able to make plans for my life, even in small details because of a dimly grasped sense, only the barest sense, of knowing that my life was already planned. The really strange fact about my life plans was that so many other people throughout my life knew the details of the script!
"Visible/audible/plural" thought, had been initiated late in 1981, and many changes had already taken place then. As 1984 approached I was puzzled by the 'new thought' that was being produced in my mind and a certain new kind of event that happened occasionally and then more frequently.
A specific situation in my very ordinary, mundane every day life drove me to be extremely curious about a new 'effect' that altered every aspect of my external world. and to also prove that I had not gone 'off the deep end', as someone very close to me was convinced had finally happened. The most difficult thing to do, and the most essential thing that has to be done, is to be specific in every detail in explaining this event, how it happened, where it happened and identify all those people who were involved. A kind of 'movie within life' drama emerged that included several other 'mental events' or mindquakes, which was a name I gave the first one after I understood it, and a second stage event in 1989 occurred. This 'drama' within life finally conveyed to me one distinct fact: that when I thought I was alone and experienced a few 'singular events', I was not alone. When I 'thought' that I thought certain thought content, it was not self generated thought, it came from an Other. And that many other people in my life gave evidence that he/she/they knew my future. The drama was created by those other people whose real life interfaced with mine, in the two small groups of people who were 'leaving the mainstream level', literally, in a real world circumstance that was a perfect model..
Then the Los Angeles Olympic approached, and I began to hear certain content in advertising that I'd never really heard or paid attention to, in all my life. That was confusing needless to say, because objects that use words don't seem to address me specifically the way I began to experience. Then the Games opened, and a gigantic lightening storm was photographed over Seattle, which I didn't notice myself, until I saw a picture of it, 5 years later. By 1989 I had recognized that the new 'effect' that had altered every aspect of my external world, and the new (to me) inner content was not the result of anything magical, mysterious or impossible to explain, except to a scientist. Because of the specificity, nothing can be generalized, every detail has to be actually as it was, put into words. There was a very unique content in the situation in 1984 in the specific location where two small groups of challenge level square dancers were struggling to 'leave the mainstream level', literally, and enter into 'advanced and challenge levels' of square dancing. The event happened over a period of 10 days, I cannot be specific about the time, date or hour, but I can be very specific about that 10 day slot in Time.
This event interfaced with real world events as though precisely timed to be perfectly aligned, moment by moment, long before 1984 scrolled into 'now', a factor that was revealed in 1989 when a second level, second stage event happened, while I tried to rest in a location I thought I could never tell anyone about. "The process of self discovery is never finished, can never be brought to an end." Theodore Reik, Listening With The Third Ear. The initiation of that new level exposed another world, and an 'OTHER' that was not physically present on this planet. Religion as a whole is about whether we are alone in the universe, and I've had good evidence to support my belief that we are not alone in the universe.
There was a Message that was embedded in an enormous package of information about my specific life that I experienced purely mentally in 1984. This mental content related clearly to what I was physically doing when it 'bloomed' in my mind, although that was not an easy link to establish. Within 5 years after 1984 I was made aware it came from the 'kingdom within you'/the 'world within', although I had named it myself as the Larger Domain by that time. It's been an experience in which the mind/brain and body and what's outside of the body unite, forming one unit that is learning, and as I understand it now, hopefully working in harmony with the 'voice' of the 'ongoing endeavor of Time'. It, an unexpected kind of 'voice' has been experienced by this one amazed observer, a 'viewing point' on planet Earth: me, at least, me. This encounter was one that identified me, so specifically in such a complicated interface with my mental content, with actual real world events, and with people who seemed to actively create a specific setting, and of course 1984, a point in Time about which a certain book was authored, that I have to trust it as valid, but it was not self generated experience. It was received, or perhaps transmitted is a good word to use. There are few 'points in Time' that have been selected out and made significant the way 1984 and 2001 have been.
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Here are some significant quotations from others who have contributed to what I understand now, 23 years after 1984. Each of these quotations came to me at a time when there was a significant meaning, just when it was appropriate.
I begin it with a 'joke' about 'thought'. Jim Unger's 'comic' truth
"What is to happen in the future determines what happened in the past." Paul Davies, Other Worlds (Certain events that happened when I was less than 13 years old were installed in a depth memory, for future use in 'individuation/regeneration'. Emanuel Swedenborg probably named them, appropriately, as 'remains'. P. D. Ouspensky probably also named them appropriately as 'reoccurrences')
"Is there some way that nature communicates with us directly if we could but decode the hieroglyphs?" Rollo May, The Courage to Create
"After my experiments......I began to understand that many philosophical and metaphysical speculations, entirely different in theme, form and terminology might in actual fact have been attempts to express precisely that which I came to know, which I have tried to describe. I understood that behind many of the systems of the study of the world and man, there might lie experiences and sensations very similar to my own, perhaps identical. I understood that for centuries and thousands of years human thought has been circling and circling round something that it has never succeeded in expressing." P.D. Ouspensky, A New Model Of the Universe, page 304 in the Alfred A. Knopf, Inc edition In my opinion this is one of the most remarkable ideas that Ouspensky committed to words, and it's not been written by any other author that I've come across.
John Barrow, Pi In the Sky
"A mystery lurks beneath the magic carpet of science, something that scientists have not been telling, something too shocking to mention except in rather esoterically refined circles; that at the root of the success of twentieth century science there lies a deeply 'religious belief'--a belief in an unseen and perfect transcendental world that controls us in an unexplained way, yet upon which we seem to exert no influence whatsoever. What this world is, where it is and what it is to us is what this book is about....."
Codes and Implicate Meanings Douglas Hofstadter, Godel, Escher, Bach, An Eternal Golden Braid
Carl G. Jung:: "I cannot define for you what God is, I cannot tell you even that God 'is' but what I can say is that all my work has scientifically proved that the pattern of God exists in every man and that this pattern has at it's disposal the greatest transforming energy of which mankind is capable." (Laurens Van der Post quotes Jung, at the end of Remembering Jung, a video documentary)
If there are mixed signals, there are signals.
From Out of the Blue...... Ideas of quantum physics as a foundation for Learning the Language of the Zeitgeist after an event that happened in 1984. 1984 was not just any year, everything has changed on this planet since 1984. Learning the language of the Zeitgeist began with a 'mindquake' that happened to me, (and everyone on the planet in my opinion) between July 31 and August 11, 1984. It is a language that is complete in itself, it can teach itself but that has to be understood in a very broad context that includes a process of 'individuation/regeneration'. F. David Peat's book about Synchronicity was the first book I read that seemed to me to be 'about' the language of the Zeitgeist. although he described an 'interactive force'. I believe it is an information generating 'force' which C. G. Jung named 'meaningful coincidence' but in Emanuel Swedenborg's time had different names....'double thought'.....being only one attribute of one of them..'....'symbolic correspondences' being yet another attribute. In our time (1984-2004) the voice of the Zeitgeist is everywhere but a special mechanism of mind has to be initiated to begin to hear it, and hopefully 'get the messages' its transmitting. .
This link leads to an article from January 3, 1932 about Arthur C. Compton's work with quantum physics Getting it straight
Printout of news of birth year 1932 Ideas about the 'cracking of the atom' were 'in the air' in 1932. The link to a printout of the news 1-2-32 shows a surprising fact about the discovery of the functions of neurons in the brain and surface chemistries at about the same time ideas of quantum physics. In 1932 both areas of 'discovery' were awarded Nobel Prizes. Impeccable timing of events 'in the flow' cannot be explained by 'randomness' or by any purpose of my own. Too many other people, most of whom lived long ago, were involved directly.
The Zeitgeist and the 'Language' of Time
"eternal truth needs a human language that alters with the spirit of the times." C. G. Jung "My aim was to show that delusions and hallucinations were not just specific symptoms of mental disease but also had a human meaning."
"The mind can know more in an instant than can be spoken in months." Emanuel Swedenborg
The goal of myth and religion must here be sought outside of themselves in a fundamentally different sphere. Ernst Cassirer, Mythic Consciousness (Religion is about one idea: whether we are alone in the universe. pimoebius) C.S. Nott described his experience in his book, Journey Through This World.
"We live a double life whether we know it or not. We live our own life and we live the life of our time." Laurens van der Post, C. G. Jung and Our Time
"Each cell leads a double life, one independent, pertaining to it's development; the other intermediary, since it has become an integrated part of a plant." The same holds true for animals, the organism is a "cellular state' in which 'each cell is a citizen'. John Gribbon, In Search Of The Double Helix, quoting Schleiden and Schwann
"With the discovery of the cell, biology had found it's atom." John Gribbon, In Search Of The Double Helix
"Men certainly exist today who ... have never heard, deep within themselves, the muffled but persistent voice which blames or encourages." Lecomte du Nouy, Human Destiny
"In her mind she thought she could hear one joyous shout amidst a clamor of other voices." Carl Sagan, Contact, a supposedly fictional account of the first contact with extraterrestrials.
"The essence of neuroses as distinguished from culture is, according to Freud, "that the neuroses are asocial structures; they endeavor to achieve by private means what is effected in society by collective effort." Norman O. Brown, Life Against Death page 156
Arthur C. Clarke said: "The greatest tragedy to befall mankind was the hi-jacking of morality by religion." It has been my experience to find out that an equally great tragedy has been the hi-jacking or appropriation of 'reason' by science. There is a different kind of 'fact' than man's ordinary 'reasoning faculty' can discern although it's content is conveyed through material world objects and events, circumstances and memories. This kind of fact can be discerned only when it's related to the specific observer's life; this is specificity to the highest degree possible. This unexpected detail becomes or ought to become distinct eventually. It's One pattern, and it's been my experience that science is a process that basically outlaws the kind of individual experiences I've had that result in what this site is about: something that happened in1984, July 31 thru August 11. It unfolded at first against the approach of the Games, then the background of the Los Angeles Olympic Games themselves but it had already begun in the 9 years prior to 1984 to form a specific, real world setting for it's advent. Within 5 years I realized it was not limited to personal experiences, it was the advent of a much greater change in mindsets.
I received an enormous packet of information about my specific life while I struggled to make a skirt out of a warm brown one way plaid remnant; read at times a book, Mr. God This Is Anna and lived through almost agonizingly confusing turmoil in my actual life. Every detail enfolded strangely, sporadically at first when a random 'drip' event happened , embedded in normal events. But this 'drip' just happened to be perfectly timed., that was unmistakable but not significant for any reason I knew about then. The 'drip' increased, so that after 1984 it was a deluge of that new kind of event, flooding every day life's events into a single thread of experience. The first package began with thought words: "You are correct. Patterns of the past are to be the patterns of the future." and then my life as it was at that point, as man has defined it, was made very explicit to me. The Hill This was done using memories of events from my past arranged neatly in a movie like 'show'. I had not suspected such a mindset existed. Much information that I didn't know about at that point was required to understand it but I recognized this detail (or was caused to understand by the process itself) fairly quickly as a form of logic that is based on 'Aristotle an linearity' as well as a particular 'if...then..' an 'common pattern' kind of reasoning. (What I mean is: "if" that is the situation..."then" this is the cause, result, answer, etc. Stereotypes such as: '' 'if' you are a woman, 'then' this is what you do"; 'if' you are a man, 'then' this is what you do' would be the foremost example I can provide. That stereotype has somewhat toppled since 1984. It was beginning to be addressed in a local way, in my real life at that point in Time after 1980. Gender based roles and positions in advanced and challenge level square dancing were banished in two small clubs that were 'leaving the mainstream level', literally, learning All Position Dancing.
That is a simplistic way to write about a very complex mindset. I've a hunch George I. Gurdjieff's idea that man is a 'machine' evolved form his experiences with some form of this mindset.)
The information to understand that 'viewpoint' was part of the package. The second stage happened, much to my amazement, in 1989, when two 'mindquakes' occurred. The first one removed all doubt about the source of that flow of events, the second one I named a 'pi' quake because it exposed a hidden foundation that began when I was very young; events had been embedded in every day life, and they were retrieved in a methodical display that proved my most private memories are available as though stored on a hard drive somewhere. Moments when no other person was present, were particularly exposed, so that I realized I was never alone, really.
During the 5 years between the first stage and the second stage events the package was 'unpacked' so to speak through every day life events and the apparent participation of every one in my life, at that point in Time. I've only one example of exactly how this occurred and the individual that experienced it did not 'get' that fact, because he was a Freudian psychiatrist, Theodore Reik. His education had taught him it was 'magical thinking'. Because he was not Jungian based, he did not recognize what was really significant: that a detail about his life was being spoken to him in a very difficult to describe form of 'voice' and it's language. Currently it's understood to be 'synchronicity', the 'interactive force'. In my opinion from my own experiences with 'symptoms' of certain so called mental disorder, it is a process that creates 'gnosis', knowledge of the heart. Theodore Reik shared one 'fact in his life' with Carl G. Jung in that by the time he was 18 years old he had a secret: he'd been driven by an obsession that had compelled him to read everything Goethe had written as well as all that he could find that had been written about Goethe. A Fragment of A Great Confession has a chapter titled, In Small Packages in which he ruminates about a bridge game. His thought becomes 'stuck' when certain words used to talk about bridge games occurred to him. Those words were specific details about his real life, being 'spoken' to him, when a mechanism generated 'self reference'. This mechanism 'reflects back' whatever content is 'in' it's field, in a packet that has no space between the words!!!
I can point to the parables in the bible as one 'mode' of conveying generalized information, but it's a pattern in which only individual experiences permit getting the meaning and understanding of such events.
Bertrand Russell's remark in a 1918 letter is significant to me as an introduction to my blog-like (before blogs emerged) site: "I must, before I die, find some way to say the essential thing that is in me, that I have never said, yet a thing that is not love or hate or pity or scorn, but the very breath of life, fierce and coming from far away, bringing into human life the vastness and the fearful passionless force of non-human beings. Personally, I don't believe he meant 'aliens', so much as an 'impersonal other' that is intelligent, purposeful, and knowledgeable about the individual life.
Likewise, whatever it is, this 'fearful, passionless force of non-human beings', I have reason to believe that H. G. Wells had confronted 'it' when he wrote his last book: Mind At The End Of It's Tether, in which he described a frightful 'queerness' come into life.
What ever 'it' is, I've met it myself. I wasn't looking for it, there wasn't anything missing in my life, but then I wasn't curious until a rather interesting 'new kind of event' began to filter into my every day life events. This 'new kind of event' was marked by how it made me feel; 'queerness' is a good word to use to describe it but 'dizzy' works too. It became a 'voice', speaking a most unusual kind of 'word', in a language no body had to teach me; it had begun to lay down a foundation for 1984 long before I was physically born. There is nothing more difficult to do, than be as specific as I have be, to describe how the attribute of 'it' being a 'signal' moving through Time emerged. That attribute became unmistakable and distinct.
Book list, recently read Timeline based book list The precise timing of synchronistic events.
The next two links are examples of how the past seems to 'know' something about the future:
An example of the past seeming to know the future Daughter of Time
This site is about my personal encounter with the 'voice' of the Zeitgeist in 1984 and afterwards. Every day life took on an 'extra dimension', gradually after Mt. St. Helens eruption May 18, 8:32.a.m. in 1980. That's when a gentle nudge that I experienced as something else began to prod me to 'wake up'. It's a 'voice' that is generated through what is visible. I have experienced it's peculiar language although it was necessary to recognize how information is being conveyed through every day 'normal' situations. As a result I know that there is more to religion than a belief in a higher intelligence that guides our lives; there is intelligent operation at work in the most apparently insignificant individual life. It's an 'ongoing endeavor in Time', a kind of 'signal' moving steadily forwards...The International Space Station did not 'just happen'; it was achieved through systematic 'revelations' in a form that was probably old even in the beginning of written records when Hesiod wrote that he was instructed by the Muses, who could either say what is true, or what seems to be true, whatever they chose.
"There exists a type of phenomenon even more mysterious than telepathy or precognition which has puzzled man since the dawn of mythology: the seemingly accidental meeting of two unrelated causal chains in a coincidental event which appears both highly improbable and highly significant." Arthur Koestler, The Roots of Coincidence My own name for the 'seemingly accidental' meeting of 'two unrelated causal chains' was formed after more than 5 years (1984-1989)of experiencing 'double meaning' experiences that had created a second underlying context for every event: 'second under 'lying' contexts'. Example: "Know thyself" switches into 'Know, thyself".
"What is to happen in the future determines what happened in the past." Paul Davies, Other Worlds
"The past is prologue." Norman O. Brown, Apocalypse and/or Metamorphosis
"There was the First Organun of Aristotle; the Second Organun of Bacon, and this is the Third Organun, but the Third was prior to the First." P. D. Ouspensky, Tertium Organun.
1. I would attend a service in which the pastor talked about three periods in Time, which had been labeled the Most Ancient Church; the Ancient Church and the Church of Adam with the explanation that the word 'church' means a 'period of time, an 'era', when a certain kind of relationship of 'man on Earth' to the Divine prevailed. As I listened to this pastor describe the 'three Churches' a thought occurred into my mind that the Most Ancient Church and the Ancient Church were actually stages/phases of revealing the third church, 'Church of Adam' so the 'third was the first as well as the second 'church'.. There was only the beginning of an understanding that written records are man's records, viewpoints/ history itself without female content, literally not metaphorically or symbolically. This meeting was held by a small group of Swedenborgians that I'd begun to visit and I'd begun to read Heaven and Hell, which I'd owned for several months before I opened it. As I read the strange kind of writing, I noticed within my mind a distinct kind of 'translation' take place, as the author wrote about an 'internal sense' and a 'literal sense' to certain chapters in the Bible. The 'translation' was so subtle, so barely there at that point that I had no way of understanding it as a 'translation' until much time had passed. But the 'literal sense', which was a distinctly new kind of 'sense' to me, had already begun to affect a change in my every day life, even in the early 1980's, while two small groups of people literally worked very hard, to 'leave the mainstream level' and enter 'advanced and challenge levels' in square dance. There were points when it seemed to me that someone (and at times groups of people as well as objects that use words) was addressing 'thought' in my mind, which I had not said anything about, aloud to anyone. It made me 'dizzy', literally when that happened. This 'change of experience' began very occasionally, then it built up a new understanding that as it built up, existed parallel to my 'normal' way of hearing after 1984, the point when the Los Angeles Olympic Games advanced and then were played. A 'double chain of context', each seemingly valid arose mechanically, not from any intent or purpose of mine for a period of years.
2. I would start to mow our meadow-like yard in the early spring and pause after noticing a foxglove seedling in the path of my mower. I can date this, it was spring 1989. As I paused, quite a lot of thought occurred. We'd had lots of wild foxgloves when we bought the 'farm', but I'd not seen any for years. Then a thought occurred: "Dig it up and plant it in your flower box." and I did exactly that. Then forgot about the plant until one day I noticed it was in full bloom. This was very unusual, that I'd not even thought about or looked at that foxglove seedling after planting it! It was not like any wild foxglove plant I'd ever seen, it was more bushy, had many stalks rather than the single stalk, and each foxglove stalk was topped by some kind of different shaped bloom quite unlike the typical foxglove flowerlets! Each stalk had three distinct levels of bloom: The stalk with the normal flowerlets, a topper flower, some of which were round, a few with another stalk growing from it's center and there were 7 different shapes of topper flowers on that one plant. (The next year I had a flower box full of naturally seeded blooms, each plant having a topper flower that had been on the one plant in 1989(??!!) 1989 foxglove 1990 foxglove Flowerbox in 1990 The bottom flowerlets and the topper flowers had developed simultaneously, but there were undeveloped flowerlets growing normally beneath them. Many thoughts came into my mind while I looked at that plant. But without thinking I broke off the stalks that had the round topper, thinking it would cause more flowers to bloom. Many ideas wafted into a barely sensed process of thought, that related to ideas I'd read in Tertium Organun. I began to do more than just look at the plant, and became gradually focused on it's many different qualities, characteristics, attributes, etc, etc,. I was thinking for the first time in my life about non-tangible 'things'. The word 'mandala' came to mind, and afterwards I thought of it as the mandala foxglove.
3. I would read 2001 Space Odyssey,, a book that I'd not felt any impulse to read after seeing the film when it came out. That was unusual. I'd not understood the film which usually caused me to read the book. There was a description in the book of what happened to the starving ape creatures after the monolith appeared that explained very much that was not conveyed in the film. The starving ape creatures were probed at night while they slept. One was selected and its body was patterned as it slept. The next scene in the film was the result of this patterning: the ape creature crouches before a pile of bones. As he looks at them an image comes into its mind, He picks up one bone and seems to examine it, then he finally raises it, smashing it down onto the heap of bones. This takes place as the music of Thus Spak Zarathustra reaches a crescendo after building from barely audibly to barely tolerable and I understood after reading the book, that was how the first 'idea' emerged. The creature had been patterned, taught while it slept about using a weapon to get food. The next scenes illustrate how effectively the creature had learned and taught what it had learned. The scene had affected me very much when I saw the film the first time, but I'd not understood why.
After reading about a creature being patterned while it slept in the book, there was a sense that 'while I slept' during the first 50 years of my life, I had been patterned myself. The idea of being 'patterned' in that phase when 'new experiences' were happening frequently, somehow generated a particular understanding, that I was to trust this 'thing' at work, even when it changed and altered drastically, and somehow the parable of the good seed came to mind. It's about points of change, and a gradual loss of faith in what one was 'told' in the beginning. It was in some way that I can't define, conveyed that I was to remember how it was in the beginning, even when there was cause to distrust what I had been 'told in the beginning'. But that is an idea that's connected to an event that had happened in 1984, when the first words of my 'life script' were spoken to me by a 'thought' voice that I heard only once: "You are correct. Patterns of the past are to be the patterns of the future...." and another event that had happened in about 1945. The Hill
"Is there some way the past communicates with us if we could but decode the hieroglyphs?" Rollo May, The Courage To Create. " Yes. "
"The philosopher is usually interested in a central idea that evolves over a long period of time, which may never be successfully completed and formulated into words , one that may appear to be mysterious and beyond scientific validation." Jean Piaget
This event came at the end of a string of events that happened over a span of decades. The Glimmer of Gold in 2000
There is such a language, a self generating language, one that requires no knowledge of the past, except to verify and validate it's extension through Time from recorded history. The most unique content in an individual's life is obviously 'known' to the level of life from which this signal originates.
Carl G. Jung:: "I cannot define for you what God is, I cannot tell you even that God 'is' but what I can say is that all my work has scientifically proved that the pattern of God exists in every man and that this pattern has at it's disposal the greatest transforming energy of which mankind is capable." (Laurens Van der Post quotes Jung, at the end of Remembering Jung, a video documentary)
"The greatest transforming energy of which mankind is capable..." implies that 'man' is capable of enduring, discerning, understanding, remembering, and converting to language information received mentally through 'dreams', 'visions', 'influx', 'revelation', 'moments of heightened perception/numinous', 'magical thinking', or more simply as 'knowledge of the heart/gnosis'. Alfred Korzybski formulated his idea that mankind is a time-binding class of life."
Many individuals have experienced the kind of 'hieroglyphs' that carry communication from the past, it may be an aspect of every day life that's difficult to discern because thought and inner content of a very great variety seem to be 'self generated', rather than revealed, partially or entirely by an other thought, image generating intelligence. Psychiatry itself began when the psychological 'sense' that governed even the ancient Greeks was introduced as a science of the mind. Psychiatry requires doing a kind of detective-like investigation into the individual's past to uncover and release childhood trauma, but there is a pattern that Freud experienced, that 'forces' such an analysis of one's own life, privately. Theodore Reik wrote that Freud's ideas were the result of his own necessity: "Doctor, cure thyself."
William Blake on Vision and Allegory This is a form of language, personalized in 'corporeal accidents', i.e. real world events from which meaning is generated that have a connection to one's private memories when that connection is experienced... and that may happen eventually, or never.
There have been moments in my past when I was alone but I've had convincing evidence during the past 23 years after 1984, that I was not really alone in those moments . There have been moments when I was a young girl and an impulse caused me to do something, or a thought occurred to me when no person was there, but the content of that moment was preserved for later use. I've experienced that this does happen. In 1984 one of those moments when I was alone that had happened in 1941 was retrieved and replayed, complete in every detail as it had happened when I was 9 years old. It did not come as it was expected to come. That incident was just an opening of an event that I named a 'mindquake' eventually. It opened in a depth of mind that opened a hidden double 'fault' line in the life I'd lived as a female: the stereotyped ideas about a female and Eve. Those moments when I believed I was alone were retrieved, systematically and used in such an almost unbelievable way that I had to understand I was not alone in those events and they were 'photographed' for later use. Other events that really happened were also retrieved and displayed in movie like 'strings' that conveyed information, but it was those moments when I knew I was alone that were the most difficult to realize had that attribute: I was alone but somehow that moment was 'known' and accessible to some intelligence other than my own, that obviously knew what was going to happen in 1984 and the years afterwards.
Personal experience is unique. Another event happened when I was about 13 years old, that was to be aligned with the story our Sunday school teacher told us. The Hill My most unique content was obviously known in the most intimate details, my location on this planet, my name and what I was doing were at times 'said' to me in a way that required learning a new language built from every day events and memories from my past. The process really explained its method of 'generation' also.
My first initiatory 'event' that used memories from my past, happened in 1984. It was an enormous package of information that was displayed in long movie-like strings by the retrieval of memories that told a movie-like story immediately about my specific life. There was unmistakable evidence that every moment in my past was as accessible as though it was stored away in a memory that is beyond my control but obviously there was some controlling agency at work. It happened during the 10 days the Los Angeles Olympic Games were being played, but by then my life had already changed very much. I believed at the time, the changes were due to physical world causes. Five years after 1984 I knew the origin of the change was not an automobile accident, not a complete hysterectomy, but had been initiated through a real world cause only apparently: it had been initiated by a sudden decision made by my husband to initiate freeing himself from the bonds of matrimony., but beyond that apparent causality, lay another source. In 1984 the flight from marriage had not begun to the extent that it reached 15 years later, so I began after 1984 to understand a 'cosmic level change' had been initiated in the lives of people in this very, very specific setting. It was a very specific situation, requiring exactly that situation and no other for the event that happened in 1984, to be what it was, perfectly timed, precise in every detail, just perfect itself. Every event happened as though an oversoul-like mechanism/pattern/process that had no respect for personal happiness or comfort had assumed authority over those individuals who was involved. 1984 is a point in Time that was associated with a book published in 1948 by George Orwell/Eric Blair, the subtitle of which is "Big Brother Is Watching You. The book created a sense of expectancy. The subtitle of the book, Big Brother Is Watching You has a different, literal meaning now in 2007 than it had in 1948 when Eric Blair wrote it. Or in 1984 when that year scrolled through Time. We are inundated with the kind of statistics the 'proletarians' endured. .
John Barrow, Pi In The Sky Pi In the Sky
"A mystery lurks beneath the magic carpet of science, something that scientists have not been telling, something too shocking to mention except in rather esoterically refined circles; that at he root of the success of twentieth century science there lies a deeply 'religious belief'--a belief in an unseen and perfect transcendental world that controls us in an unexplained way, yet upon which we seem to exert no influence whatsoever. What this world is, where it is and what it is to us is what this book is about....."
"After my experiments......I understood that for centuries and thousands of years human thought has been circling and circling round something that it has never succeeded in expressing." P.D. Ouspensky, A New Model Of the Universe, page 304 in the Alfred A. Knopf, Inc editon
"Eternal truth needs a human language that alters with the spirit of the times." C. G. Jung There is a language that does alter with the 'spirit' of the times, one that teaches itself; it generates it's own 'words, contexts and meanings'. it's almost certainly a biologically based pattern that as Jung wrote, exists in every man.
C. G. Jung wrote: "My aim was to show that delusions and hallucinations were not just specific symptoms of mental disease but also had a human meaning."
"To make the imperceptible, perceptible." (A remark that was made in National Treasure, a 2004 film)
Message in 1984, The Statement of Purpose and the Guidelines The message was embedded within the package of information that was only partially visible as 'thought', retrieved memories and new (to me) information about history as the male mind has written about 'her'.
I BELIEVE THERE WAS A PLANET-WIDE ENCOUNTER WITH WHAT SOME HAVE NAMED THE ZEITGEIST IN 1984, July 31-August 11, 1984. Jonas Salk described the 'zeitgeist' as the 'voice of the age'. It is a different kind of voice, it's language is a self teaching language, which I believe has been named 'synchronicity' by F. David Peat, who did not link 'meaningful coincidence' to a process of individuation and that's is essential to do. In the Bible, I believe the word 'instruction' is a reference to this process, as well as such strange statements as: "Let him that hath an ear listen..": "Let him who readeth, who can understand..", The 'voice' is carried forwards in Time by a pattern that C. G. Jung recognized in his time : (I'll repeat this quotation several times:) Carl G. Jung:: "I cannot define for you what God is, I cannot tell you even that God 'is' but what I can say is that all my work has scientifically proved that the pattern of God exists in every man and that this pattern has at it's disposal the greatest transforming energy of which mankind is capable." (Laurens Van der Post quotes Jung, at the end of Remembering Jung, a video documentary)
What if every 'fact' we understand about ourselves in 2007 is similar to how an infant of about a year old experiences the world?
The impeccable timing....the utterly perfect timing of events in which many other people were actively, apparently knowingly participating in an 'inwardsly' emerging drama, affected my body and mind for reasons I could not understand until a 'body of experience' had accumulated. The 'doubleness' which was not easy to distinguish even when it was being 'described TO me', a detail I had to become aware of over a period of about 3 years, was confusing, nearly overwhelming for more than 10 years after 1984. I've become familiar now, with getting information from the 'scenes', 'circumstances' and words in my life, whether they are in books, spoken by people or by objects that use words. There's a kind of 'morphing mechanism of mind' that's familiar to me now, as I suspect it became familiar to C. G. Jung, G. I. Gurdjieff and probably many other 'philosophers' in the past. "What you get used to, gets to be normal, and it also gets to be invisible, because it's so familiar." so I'm not affected now in the same way. However that may not be a blessing! The 'change' has altered my life on this planet since 1984. and I believe it's a collective change now that's affecting individual lives other than mine. The new 'sense' of meaning and context to those events that puzzled me, and at times 'shocked' me, arose automatically, I did not generate them my self. I 'listened' to them (without realizing it although I was curious, very curious about what was going on in my mind). At about the time I noticed a thought occur into my mind, "I am better now than I was 3 months ago." I read in a book, something that P. D. Ouspensky had written: "I got that which I had not had, and I got this which I had not had." Somehow that 'fit' with the sense of improvement I felt had been given to me, not generated by me, but received by me.
Slowly I began to understand that a kind of conversation was being built up. Then in 1989 a second stage event expanded my understanding of the 1984 event and brought forth an 'initiatory event' that I had not recognized when it had happened in 1982. It was retrieved vividly and many implications that I'd not noticed were made distinct to me in it. Then another 1989 event happened, that brought forth memories from my past that linked back to my first thought and what I was looking at when it occurred into my mind, on this planet. It linked to a hidden vein of memories, linking them clearly together. I named it the 'pi quake' because it happened when I glanced at the last two pages of a book authored by Petr Beckmann. Quite suddenly an astonishing re-arrangement occurred as I looked at the first rectangle of pi's decimals on those two pages. There was a link to other memories, my first thought: I was 2 and a half years old when the thought "I am in a cold place." occurred. This memory was 'regenerated' throughout my life. I saw a bare light bulb hang
