Here's the book list, which I have not updated after about 2007. There's a new kind of 'coincidence' in the list, its an unexpected relationship: I recognized there was a relationship between the title of the book and something that was happening in my life at the time I read the book. The content of the book as well as the title is significant. This list reveals a pattern: A detail in my life is being 'said back'' to me in the book; that pattern has not deviated. Example: "Listening To The Third Ear" by Theodore Reik. The title of the book as well as it's entire contents were 'descriptions' TO ME of what was happening in my life when I read the book.
Synchronicity, The Bridge Between Mind and Matter by F. David Peat was the first book that mentioned 'synchronicity' as a bridge. That related in my mind to the Bridge of San Luis Rey and the 'secret' about the insane. The words in the book seemed to be familiar to me, as though I knew them already. The discovery (or the recognition that they exist) of 'mirror' neurons may explain that feeling of knowing already what I read. A kind of' mimetic' content in the body, meets it's exact match in the exterior world. This fact of reading something that described what I was doing was so obvious I couldn't fail to recognize it. The 'safety secret' incident was the first one. It has happened all my life. Hindsight revealed memories of events that became real coincidences only when specific future events happened.
After this point is a time line arrangement of the dates when I read the books. The dates I read each book is significant.
Below the booklist I've added comments about the timing, and other important information.
The order in which I read books would not seem to be important, but it is, so that's why I've listed them in the order in which I read them. This is a Time line based Book list. I had read virtually nothing but fiction until about 1983, I dislike biographical books and movies and had no interest in topics that were not related to school or a job I had. It was after I had an accident in 1981 that many changes happened in my mind/body/thought and real world life. I believed the accident had caused brain damage and it seemed that the loss of control over my body that I noticed slowly was due to my brain's assuming authority to restore my losses. I couldn't read and remember what I read, which was so noticeable to me I couldn't understand the 'demand' made on me to read books that were non-fiction when it replaced my interests in fiction. I had read that the brain can repair itself, but I also read that it cannot. , then a switch occurred beginning in the year just before 1984 that caused me to notice that a will other than my own was choosing what I read: it directed my attention it seems to me now, strictly towards non-fictions that I 'just happened' to notice somewhere. I had rarely read non-fictions except when it was required, keep that in mind. This was just one facet of a change of my habits that I could easily identify because it reversed the content of my habit of reading. BUT it did not replace the habit of reading! At the same time the 'switch' from fiction to fact began, I was already experiencing a change in perception that I could not explain because I could not see it distinctly for several years: I saw my body in a different way, watching it the way one would an object, yet not actually seeing my body. When I could not seem to choose anything but nonfiction, I wondered what was making me buy, borrow or check out such books when they caught my attention,
The list has not been updated recently. Read the titles with a special attention because a very strange fact becomes available if you consider the words of the titles, not merely what their inner content is: The words literally describe some particular detail of what was happening at the time I read the book! This 'literal sense' was the result of a very simple change in my mind, although it was not easy to notice, it actually was brought to my attention, slowly, and methodically between 1984 and 1989. By 1989 I had learned a completely new language.
Here's the book list, which I have not updated for some time. The pattern has not deviated however.
The Impersonal Life ( 1981 ) DeVorss Publishing Company
The copy I found was the tenth reprint, in 1895 by the Sun Publishing Company. The 'Devorss' Co. has the copyright now. But they had no knowledge of the Sun company when I wrote to inquire about when the booklet was published
. The first words were: "To you who read, I AM come. To you who read, I AM speaking." The words affected me so that I closed the book, feeling strangely that a person had spoken!
The Weaver Of Dreams (1982) Myrtle Reed (fiction)
Three paragraphs on page 175/176, about two kinds of people seemed electrified when I read them. The paragraph is one that I did not relate to myself, my life or anyone's life, at that point. As I learned more and experienced more over the next 2 decades I recognized they were details that were specifically about my life, describing an actual situation that I knew nothing about, the condition that in psychiatric terms has several names, but it's a basic condition folie aux duex was the first one I became aware of.
The Body’s Rapture (1982) Jules Romain 1911 (Fiction) The idea of being out of body' and a depth level of mind between lovers where they communicate over space and Time.
Reality Therapy (1983) William Glasser I 'd begun to see a psychiatrist, Dr. Phillip Rehngren, the book was his.
Mental Health Or Mental Illness (1983) William Glasser
Psychology For The Layman (1983) Eric Berne
Mr. God, This Is Anna (1984) Fynn Mr. God was 'in her middle'. She said: "I am a viewing point for Mr. God."
The Obsessive Personality ( 1984) Saltzmann This book was one in which I began to recognize a 'detail' about my life in it.
Steppenwolfe Herman Hesse A man whose mind was divided, he was a wolf and a man, strange experiences.
The Presence Of Other Worlds Wilson Van Dusen Description of 'strange experiences'!! It 'described' the mind of the 'insane', or psychosis like the mindset of Steppenwolfe, who thought he was both a wild animal and a man
Stations Of The Mind (1987) William Glasser "There is a controller for comfort in the mind." This was a new idea to me.
God, Man, Communication 1988 Wilson Van Dusen/ George Dole The first mention of 'double thought'. It was an incredible, but unidentified coincidence to read it at just that point, when a kind of 'doubleness' was beginning to affect me.
Other Worlds 1987 Paul Davies "The importance of an observer." which had been a 'thought' in my mind since about 1982
Men Who Have Walked With God 1986 Sheldon Cheney "The god within that tells us about our universe." Socrates
Psychology of The Unconscious 1986 Robert Ornstein New ideas and new information to me, all of it.
The Phenomenon Of Man 1987 Teilhard de Chardin Generated a landslide of thought condensed to: "There have been no categories, species, type, order, genus, family in 'man'."
Pathways Through To Space 1986 Franklin Merrill Wolfe This book and the next one were incomprehensible, but I HAD to
Consciousness Without An Object 1986 Franklin Merrill Wolfe read them. What was this man writing about? "high indifference"? What is THAT?
Cosmic Consciousness 1985 Richard M. Bucke A new idea about ...what?
People Of The Lie 1985 M. Scott Peck I had begun to notice a strange relationship between a couple in our
life, a man that I couldn't talk to, and his wife who seemed to have an unusual effect on him AND ON ME and other people in the group. .
An Imagined World 1986 June Goodfield This was a critical book, the jacket contained exact words that I'd noticed in my thought, before I read them on that jacket. The sense of recognition was 'remote', barely there, not articulateable, just barely noticable.
The Abusing Family 1987/8? Justice and Justice I had not read this kind of book, but I realized it was 'about' my family and the problems I was trying to address. It was a real world situation at that point in Time.
The Bond Of Power 1986 Joseph Chilton Pearce A truly new kind of information, as well as a very personal relationship was formed to what he wrote about Arthur C. Clarke's Childhood's End; 'folie aux duex', William Blake and autism and the 'postulate arrived full blown in the mind'.
Journeys Out of Body 1987 New information (to me) about a real man, one who was alive at the time. His 'trips' out of body, prepared a necessary foundation for understanding Swedenborg's writings when I read them, later so that I understood what the mind can do.
The Symbolic And The Real 1986 Ira Progoff Could not understand what the 'symbolic' and the 'real' meant. I'd not known about symbolism, etc.
The Will To Create 1986 Rollo May
Far Journeys 1988 Robert Monroe Further information, a new 'sense' emerged in my thought, when I read about Monroe's dawning awareness of not being alone in his new level of experiences. I read Jonathon Livingston Seagull and felt a 'presence' like he described at one point when he flew away from his 'kin'. .
The End of Our Exploring 1986 Monica Furlong A critical book, remarkable to me who knew nothing about 'paths' that were so distinct to such a young woman as the author of this book. I felt a sense of 'recognizing', a sense of familiarity in the 'Coming Journey', which seemed to be. referencing certain events that had happened in my past: those memories that were the 'remains', the 'recurring memories'.
William Blake And The Tree Of Life 1986 Laura De Witt James A truly monumental book because I recognized the relationship between Albion and Vala; and the Los/Jerusalem relationship that I'd lived in my real life. There were many words I'd heard from my husband, CHAOS for instance. The last page brought up into my mind my grandmother's 'ball of rose colored crochet twine' event. It was related automatically by my mind/brain, not by me, to the poem on the last page of the book.
Wholeness And The Implicate Order 1987 David Bohm An amazingly 'familiar idea' seemed to be what he was attempting to convey: "what you see is what you get'. It was a remark I'd made many times to someone, the Albion/Los in my life. I had said that many, many times.
The Psychotherapy and Cure Of Satan, J.S.P.S ???? (Fiction) A strange new idea that the 'satan' might not be real evil. J.S. P. S means Just Some Poor Schluck.
The Devil 1985 Molnar, ?? (Fiction 1911)
Jonathan Livingston Seagull 1985 Richard Bach The book I'd avoided reading when it was popular contained a reference to a 'presence' that Jonathan encountered, to help him in his isolation and despair. It morphed into my life, I felt a bit of a presence begin to 'dawn'.
Listening With The Third Ear 1986 Theodore Reik The first book in which a sense of recognition occurred, "He writes like I think." I had been 'tangential, digressive' when I tried to set a context for what I said. The way he described mental processes was extremely new information to me.
Powers Of Mind 1986 Adam Smith New information about different 'states of mind', experiences with drugs.
Hidden Communion 1988 Joost Meerloo About non verbal communication!
Incredible Coincidence 1984 Alan Vaughn There was a mention about playing a starring role in someone else's life and becoming a bit player in your own life. I wondered how such a situation could happen, It was already the situation in my life.
Theory Of Eternal Life 1986 Rodney Collin It's really about the 'worlds of cells, electrons, molecules'. There was a mention in the book: "You have in-adverently discovered a very great secret..." Reading the words was the first incident in which I recognized words on a page that had already 'grown' from a sense of words to real words.
The Fourth Way 1985 P. D. Ouspensky
The Doors Of Perception; The Art Of Seeing 1986 Aldus Huxley
The Double Helix 1986 James Watson
The Search For The Double Helix 1986 John Gribbon
Super Learning 1987 Ostrander and Ostrander
The Scapegoat Complex 1987 Sylvia Perrera Brinton
Narcissism, Character Disorders & Transformation Nathan Salant Schwartz
Tertium Organun 1986 P. D. Ouspensky
The Moebius Seed 1988 Steven Rosen
Replay 1988 Ken Grimwood
Heaven And Hell 1988 Emanuel Swedenborg
Synchronicity, The Bridge Between Mind and Matter 1988 F. David Peat
In Search Of The Miraculous 1988 P. D. Ouspensky
Tremulations 1988 Emanuel Swedenborg "Fire is little mathematical points."
Sympathetic Vibrations 1987 K.C. Cole
The Road Less Travelled 1986 M. Scott Peck
The Edges Of Science 1987 Eugene Mallowe
Crack In The Cosmic Egg 1988 Joseph Chilton Pearce
I’m Ok, You’re Ok 1986 Eric Berne
The Hidden Dimension 1987 Edward T. Hall The effect that added 'literal sense', a sense of being talked to, became more distinct when I read this book and the next one by Edward T. Hall, and Reik's The Hidden Self
The Silent Language 1987 Edward T. Hall
The Hidden Self Theodore Reik
Atoms, Matter, Physics (! ! ! !) 1989 Alan Nourse This was an amazing experience, because it contained the answer to what I'd wondered to myself about e = mc2, and the exact words of 'thought' that had occurred to me one day when I paused over e = m c 2 2 wondering "Does that mean what it looks like it means?" Other books were not explicit enough about man, his thought, his material world being enclosed in the equation. The exact words and other memories from my past had come into my thought that day, but I was seeing backwards then, so seeing e=mc2 turn into and anagram: equals 2 see me was a result of that phase. Everything 're-peated', a 'reflection' or 'echo' is the best way I can think of it. There was a 'second sight', a re-play, literally and this phase was very, very, very confusing. Headlights and lights at night seemed like eyes, until I recognized a 'paired-ness' was being generated by the 'reflection' of content that was in front of me at the moment AND was where my attention was placed.
Ritual, Psychological Studies Theodore Reik
A New Model Of The Universe P. D. Ouspensky
The Arrow Of Time Roger Highsmith, Peter Coveney
The Future Of Man Teilhard de Chardin
The Divine Milleu Teilhard de Chardin
The Psychology Of Man's Possible Evolution P. D. Ouspensky
The Cosmic Code Heinz Pagels
The Strange Life Of Ivan Osokin P. D. Ouspensky
Blake, Jung And The Collective Unconscious Elaine Pagels
The New Man Maurice Nicoll
The Mark Maurice Nicoll
Synchronicity And Human Destiny Ira Progoff
Divine Providence (2) Emanuel Swedenborg
Arcana Coelestia ( several volumes) Emanuel Swedenborg
The Interpretation of Schizophrenia Silvano Arieti
The Parnas Silvano Arieti
The Act of Creation Arthur Koestler
Creativity Silvano Arieti
The Greeks And The Irrational E. Dodds
The Republic, Plato
The Oedipus Trilogy Sophocles
The Euminedes Euripedes
Living Time And Integration Of The Life Maurice Nicoll
The Commentaries Maurice Nicoll
(Mathematical History) (about 20 various enlightening books that overturned my understanding of mathematics. Not one real world event can be reversed, the way a formula can be reversed.
Sacred Geometry Robert Lawler
Infinity And The Mind Rudy Rucker
The Bridges Of Infinity Michael Guillen
The End Of Certainty Ilya Prigogine See this link: http://cremesti.com/portfolio/technical_writing/Academic_Research_Papers/End_of_Certainty.htm
Flat Land E. Abbott
Sphereland Dionysys Burgher
A New Era Of Thought Charles Hinton
Scientific Romances (The Persian King allegory) Charles Hinton
Mind and Nature Gregory Bateson
Steps to an Ecology of Mind Gregory Bateson
Angel Fear Gregory Bateson
The Reenchantment Of The World Morris Berman
Coming To Our Senses Morris Berman
The Creation Of Woman Theodore Reik
The Cassandra Complex Laurie Layton Shapira
(The advent of the 737X paperwork YA001) 1995 (this coincided with Life Against Death, repetition of a pattern, the entire phase repeated at work, when the 'new generation' airplane arrived.)
Life Against Death (1995) Norman O. Brown
The Egyptian Hermes (A MUST to read) Garth Fowden
Hesiod, Theogony, Works And Days Normon O. Brown
Hermes, The Trickster Norman O. Brown
The Celestine Prophecy James Redfield
Ultimate Journey (! ! ! !) Incredible book!! Robert Monroe (He died soon after authoring this book.) After reading this book, I read the first Swedenborg book, Heaven and Hell. The inner world of Robert Monroe and the way his 3 books described it, prepared me to understand much of Swedenborg's writings, about 'correspondences, the literal sense and symbolically presented information', all of which were new, completely new ideas to me. I had read the booklet God, Man, and Communication by George Dole and Wilson Van Dusen in which I experienced without awareness at the time, one of the most amazingly timed 'coincidences', in the paragraph that contained the term, 'double thought' in a quotation from Swedenborg! It's not a term one can understand without experiencing it, consciously and in many 'events'.
Science And Sanity (1999) Alfred Korzybski
Morals & Dogma (1999) Arthur Pike (I went to the local theosophical library to find a copy of this book. In it's place was Science and Sanity by Korzybski. The title somehow 'clicked' immediately and I read much of the book, finding in it a direct validation of many ideas I'd had about Aristotlean logic, and logic in general, unframed in my thought, but distinctly there in my mind. This was a kind of coincidence, an amazing one, because I'd had a sense of 'disdain' for logic as a complete form of reasoning. Mr. Korzybski wrote what I felt.
The Philosophy Of Symbolic Forms (II) (2001) Ernst Cassirer
Theogony, Work and Days Hesiod
The Self And Psychotic Process John Weir Perry
The Lord of Four Quarters John Weir Perry
Essays On Schizophrenia Harold Searles
The Dynamics Of
Hope Ira Progoff
The most recent books I've read: Red print means: Everyone should have a copy of this book to read, re-read until you understand what it's about, from your own experience.
Imagination Is Reality (Western Nirvana in Jung, Hillman, Barfield & Cassirer) Roberts Avens; Spring Publications
Apocalypse and/or Metamorphosis Norman Brown; University of California Press
The Greater Trumps Charles Williams; Noonday PressThe Prince Niccolo Machiavelli; Bantom Books, New York
God Is My Adventure Rom Landau: Alfred A Knopf
The Discovery of the Unconscious Henri F. Ellenberger
The Dynamics of Hope** Ira Progoff
Francis Bacon and The Rhetoric of Nature John Briggs
The Plural Psyche, Personality, Morality & The Father Andrew Samuels
Journey Through This World*** C. S. Nott
Hidden Communion, Studies in the Communication Theory of Telepathy** Joost A. M. Meerloo
The Herald of Coming Good*** G. I. Gurdjieff
Serendipity, Accidental Discoveries in Science Royston M. Roberts
Oedipus, Antigione, Electra Sophocles
The Creation of Woman**** Theodore Reik
Understanding Mysticism Richard Woods
The Biology of Transcendence Joseph Chilton Pearce
The Twilight of American Culture Morris Berman
A Life Of Carl G. Jung Ronald Hayman
Cosmos and Psyche Richard Tarnas
Decoding the Universe Charles Siefe
Oedipus, Myth and Complex, a review of Psychoanalytic Theory Patrick Mullahy Hermitage Press 1948
The Hidden Levels of The Mind, Swedenborg's Theory of Consciousness Douglas Taylor Swedenborg Foundation Press 2011
A Dark Muse, The History of the Occult Gary Lachman Thunders' Mouth Press 2005
Dark Hearts, The Unconscious forces that Shape Men's Lives Loren Pedersen Shambala Publications, Inc 1991
The Future Of the Body, Explorations into Further Evolution of Human Nature Michael Murphy Jeremy P. Tarcher/Perigee Books 1992
The Maiden King, The Reunion of Masculine and Feminine Robert Bly, Marion Woodman Henry Holt and C. 1998
Paul Allen, Idea Man a Memoir by the Cofounder of Microsoft Paul Allen Portfolio/Penguin 2011
The Secret History of Science Fiction James Patrick Kelly/John Kessel,Ed. Tachyon Press 2009
The Human Face of God, William Blake and the Book of Job Kathleen Raine Thames and Hudson 1982
The Manga Guide to Calculus Hiroyuki Kokima, Shin Togami No Starch Press 2009
Mathematicians in Love Rudy Rucker Tom Doherty Assoc 2006
Scientist of the Invisible, Spiritual Science, The Life and work of Rudolph Steiner A. P. Shephard Inner Traditions International 1983
Freud's Contribution to Psychiatry A. A. Brill W. W. Norton & Co. 1944P
Patterns of Prophecy Alan Vaughn Hawthorn Books, Inc 1973
My Work With Borderline Patients Harold Searles Jason Aronson, 1986
Eros and the Shattering Gaze, Transcending Narcissism Kenneth A. Kimmel Fisher King Press 2011
Cosmos and Psyche, Intimations of a New World View Richard Tarnas Plume, Penguin Co. 2006
The Psychological Birth of the Human Infant, Symbiosis and Individuation Margaret S. Mahler Basic Books, Inc 1975
The Last Hours of Ancient Sunshine Thom Hartmann Three Rivers Press 1998Synchronicity, Matter & Psyche In an Interconnected Universe Joseph Cambray Texas A & M University Press 2009
Information and the Nature of Reality, from Physics to Metaphysics Paul Davies & Niels Henrick Gregersen Cambridge University Press 2010
Oedipus, Myth and Complex, a review of Psychoanalytic Theory Patrick Mullahy Hermitage Press 1948
The Hidden Levels of The Mind, Swedenborg's Theory of Consciousness Douglas Taylor Swedenborg Foundation Press 2011
A Dark Muse, The History of the Occult Gary Lachman Thunders' Mouth Press 2005
Dark Hearts, The Unconscious forces that Shape Men's Lives Loren Pedersen Shambala Publications, Inc 1991
The Future Of the Body, Explorations into Further Evolution of Human Nature Michael Murphy Jeremy P. Tarcher/Perigee Books 1992
The Maiden King, The Reunion of Masculine and Feminine Robert Bly, Marion Woodman Henry Holt and C. 1998
Paul Allen, Idea Man a Memoir by the Cofounder of Microsoft Paul Allen Portfolio/Penguin 2011
The Secret History of Science Fiction James Patrick Kelly/John Kessel,Ed. Tachyon Press 2009
The Human Face of God, William Blake and the Book of Job Kathleen Raine Thames and Hudson 1982
The Manga Guide to Calculus Hiroyuki Kokima, Shin Togami No Starch Press 2009
Mathematicians in Love Rudy Rucker Tom Doherty Assoc 2006
Scientist of the Invisible, Spiritual Science, The Life and work of Rudolph Steiner A. P. Shephard Inner Traditions International 1983
Freud's Contribution to Psychiatry A. A. Brill W. W. Norton & Co. 1944P
Patterns of Prophecy Alan Vaughn Hawthorn Books, Inc 1973
My Work With Borderline Patients Harold Searles Jason Aronson, 1986
Eros and the Shatterin Gaze, Transcending Narcissism Kenneth A. Kimmel Fisher King Press 2011
Cosmos and Psyche, Intimations of a New World View Richard Tarnas Plume, Penguin Co. 2006
The Psychological Birth of the Human Infant, Symbiosis and Individuation Margaret S. Mahler Basic Books, Inc 1975
The Last Hours of Ancient Sunshine Thom Hartmann Three Rivers Press 1998At a certain point in Time, my habit of reading only fictions changed into it's exact opposite: A kind of 'force', it was a real force, (the 'force of a deeply entrenched habit'?) caused me to be unable to choose to read fictions, other than a few very specific fictions, usually old ones. I felt a real compulsion, I think of it now as a 'drive', a 'force' to read books that were not fiction. They came to my attention without any effort from me to find them and they were of a kind that I had rarely attempted to read in the past. I had a different relationship to my body also, although I could not name it for several years. I heard and saw in a different way when I noticed that my hand reached for books that meant nothing to me. I didn't seem to choose them for any reason, yet I could not NOT choose them. Eventually I felt a great curiosity about why I could not choose NOT to read books that were uninteresting to me. I did not understand what the words were intended to convey, yet I HAD to read them, without understanding what I read. I had noticed this lack of 'understanding' in myself when I was much younger, but in a particular way much earlier in of my life.
At a certain point, it was about 1985 as best I can date it, I became aware of words of thought occurring faintly, barely sensed as words in my mind: , "read the words anyway. Pay no attention to whether you understand them or not." I did not have the feeling that I 'thought them' myself. These words were at first quite distant, 'sensed as words', somehow similar to how a fragrance can 'waft' towards you before you see it, so its possible to identify an object before you see it. They became real words slowly, over a period of several months. It was 'thought' that evolved from being 'close to words' and moving to a location where they were distinct words of thought. "..read the words anyway. Pay no attention to whether you understand them or not." They were distinct words by the time I began to read Heaven and Hell by an author I'd never heard of, Emanuel Swedenborg.
I would like to clarify why this list of books is more significant than it would seem to be. There's an attribute of timing, Every book was linked to an 'event' in my life eventually. That is they came at points when their content had a specific relationship to what was going on in my real life. This was not easy to notice, it required many events to happen, over a period of about 7 years (1982-1989) in which 'synchronization' between what I was reading, certain 'thought' that was in my mind, and events that were happening in my physical world was so distinct that finally that attribute HAD to be given full attention. It would seem impossible that such a synchronization that happened in some of these events could happen even once in a lifetime. The Majesti Watch incident that happened in 2000 is probably the most nearly impossible to happen, but it happened.
I repeat myself: Read the titles with a special attention because a very strange fact becomes available if you consider the words of the titles, not merely what their inner content is: . The words literally describe some particular detail of what was happening at the time I read the book!
That's a fact I became aware of quite slowly, it was a complete surprise to me, I had never once in my life noticed that kind of relationship. (Now I can recognize it was happening even when I was a teenager, and later in life.) It 'dawned' very slowly, when a few specific incidents (which I've included in this site) caused me to notice this attribute, of 'describing what was happening in my life at the time it happened'. Let me emphasize that recognition of that relationship dawned very slowly. It was impossible to detect the precise timing in an ongoing flow until several events accumulated and I noticed them and they occurred over a period of years. The first incident happened in the fall of 1981, it was an event where timing was so precise a but I barely thought of it after it happened! Two very convincing events happened in 1987. Then by 1988 it was obvious that these books had specific information in them that related to a flow of experiences I was having. The books were even describing them for me, or contributing words that helped me to understand what this 'flow' was trying to accomplish: it was building a conversation.
The 'conversation' was related to an event that had happened in my mind, although I had to discover it as though it had occurred on a different planet! It was a package of information about my life, it contained a message, which I typed one day without any curiosity about it, a year after the event happened, without recognizing it even in 1985!
A most unusual situation, but I was not even curious about what my own hands had typed! I printed it out, saved it and thought nothing more about it until several weeks after I'd read Carl Sagan's book Contact. Then a thought occurred, I 'read it', I believe rather than created it, as though someone else said it to me: "It was a message. I got a message."
I had to discover every 'bit of information' in this same form, which was such a drastic change in relating to what was going on in my head. The 'package' which I later named a 'mindquake' had come into my mind during the 10 days between July 31August 1984. The first 'mindquake' happened in the 10 days that the Los Angeles Olympic Games were being played, the second one happened in 1989 followed by a third one.
It, the 'flow' and it's content, was purposeful, intending to get my attention in a new form of 'addressing' me and was in fact talking to me. I repeat this because it's essential to keep in mind: I became aware over a period of several years that often the title of the book 'described to me' a detail about what was happening in my actual real world life at the time I read the book! The timing could not have been chosen by me, nor arranged by me, it was always a real 'shock' when this precision became evident. It was not a simple thing to grasp this attribute, in fact it would have been impossible to establish this as a fact except that incidents happened in which the timing was so impeccable that attribute could not be ignored. I began to realize long strings of situations in my past were aimed towards future events. And it was obvious there was nothing random or purposeless generating this 'flow' within my life although other people seemed to know more about it than I did!
This list is not meant to be a bibliography; it’s an example of the attribute of the literal sense. In this 'sense' words, varying from a single word to an entire book, are highlighted in the mind, by some special kind of attention, the words are understood with an added effect, sense of self reference turns the 'direction' of thought around, so that it seems to be a person speaking, within! This attribute is applicable to words irregardless of their original context and source, a new context is generated. This is really a process of 'regeneration' in that an original context is replaced, i.e a new context is generated. A sense of familiarity may be the experienced, or a sense of 'resonation', which is a currently popular word that one hears frequently. The word 'echo' is a good word to use although what is in the 'reflection', or what is 'reheard' is a completely different context. I named this 'effect' a 'second underlying/under lying context'. A Jungian analyst that I went to for a time told me this was an accurate term to use to describe what Carl G. Jung named, meaningful coincidence. Emanuel Swedenborg named the same kind of event, as 'double thought', and that is also perfectly accurate, literally. It's as though one knew already and that some 'inner content' is being matched up with something 'out there, outside of the body' but this is not obvious nor easily distinct. The term deja vu, very likely arose from this kind of 'event'.
What this means is that there was an attribute of literalness, but that I mean the title of the book meant exactly what it says as a 'description of a detail about my life at the moment'. That's an idea that is difficult to keep in mind. I experienced a variety of feelings in my body when I read certain material that seemed 'familiar' to me when I read it, and that probably explains many aspects of 'meaningful coincidence'. The sense of familiarity was because the information whatever it was, was already in my body in some form. A kind of 'chemistry' probably is at work.
There was a
specific part in the book that seemed 'electric' although I could not have used
that word to describe it that affected me strongly. In some circumstances, the
entire book seemed 'familiar' as though the words had been already known to me.