At about the time this event happened, I  was struggling to learn the 'times tables', by writing them on paper and then reciting them to myself. I had a good reason to be   passionate about learning them..my dad made me recite them every night in front of my family, so you can imagine sisters and brothers' giggling, snickering while             I stumbled through them..

Think of being 9 years old and driven by desperation.   As I looked at the paper with the times tables up to 10, written painstakingly in full detail:

1 x 1 =  1        1 x 2  =  2       1 x  3 =   3       1 x 4 =  4      1 x 5 =   5      1 x 6 =  6      1 x 7 =   7      1 x 8 =   8       1 x 9 =   9        1 x 10  =  10
1 x 2 =  2        2 x 2  =  4       2 x  3 =   6       2 x 4 =  8      2 x 5 = 10      2 x 6 = 12      2 x 7 = 14      2 x 8 = 16       2 x 9 =  18       2 x 10  =  20
1 x 3 =  3        3 x 2  =  6       3  x 3 =   9       3 x 4 = 12     3 x 5 = 15      3 x 6 = 18      3 x 7 = 21      3 x 8 = 24       3 x 9 =  27       3 x 10  =  30
1 x 4 =  4        4 x 2  =  8       4  x 3 = 12       4 x 4 = 16     4 x 5 = 20      4 x 6 = 24      4 x 7 = 28      4 x 8 = 32       4 x 9 =  36       4 x 10  =  40
1 x 5 =  5        5 x 2  = 10      5 x  3 = 15       5 x 4 = 20     5 x 5 = 25      5 x 6 = 30      5 x 7 = 35      5 x 8 = 40       5  x 9 = 45       5 x 10  =   50
1 x 6 =  6        6 x 2  = 12      6 x 3  = 18       6 x 4 = 24     6 x 5 = 30      6 x 6 = 35      6 x 7 = 42      6 x 8 = 48       6 x 9 =  54       6 x 10  =   60
1 x 7 =  7        7 x 2  = 14      7 x 3 =  21       7 x 4 = 28     7 x 5 = 35      7 x 6 = 42      7 x 7 = 49      7 x 8 = 56       7 x 9 =  63       7 x 10  =   70
1 x 8 =  8        8 x 2 =  16      8 x 3 =  24       8 x 4 = 32     8 x 5 = 40      8 x 6 = 48      8 x 7 = 56      8 x 8 = 64       8 x 9 =  72       8 x 10  =   80
1 x 9 =  9        9 x 2 =  18      9 x 3 =  27       9 x 4 = 36     9 x 5 = 45      9 x 6 = 54      9 x 7 = 63      9 x 8 = 72       9 x 9 =  81       9 x 10  =   90
1 x10= 10      10 x 2 =  20    10 x 3 =  30      10 x 4 = 40   10 x 5 = 50    10 x 6 = 60    10 x 7 = 70   10 x 8 =  80      10 x 9 =  90      10 x 10 = 100

At that point I noticed that the table of 9's had a nice feature that made it easier to memorize: between  5 x 9 and 6 x 9 the numbers in the product repeated, but in reverse. 9, 18, 27, 36, 45, 54, 63, 72, 81, 90 ..   It was a welcome discovery, very comforting. Then...

...a thought occurred to me: "Add the  double numbers in the products across." Without any hesitation, and somehow knowing what it meant, I added  each times table across:
The result                         1    was   1   2   3   4   5    6    7   8    9  1...
'2's was    2   4   6   8   1   3    5    7   9   2...
3,s was    3   6   9   3   6   9    3    6   9   3...
4's was     4   8   3   7   2    6   1   5   9   4...
5's was     5   1   6   2   7    3   8   4   9   5...
6's was     6   3   9   6   3    9   6   3   9   6...
7's was     7   5   3   1   8    6   4   2   9   7 ...
8 's was    8   7   6   5   4    3   2   1   9   8...
9's was     9   9   9   9   9    9   9   9   9   9...

My daughter was in her twenties when I noticed that her birthdate 4-5-63 is a circular number like mine" 1-2-32. (1232123...)   Hers is 4-,5,6,3,4,5,6,3... but why would I not notice it for so long? What brought it to my attention? I read a book! It was The History of Pi by Petr Beckmann, and in it I read about the Fibonacci sequence for the first time. It's a series that has a pattern that repeats forever,

1,1,2,3,5,8,13,21,34...    can you figure out what the next number will be?

When I read this particular part of the book, I had just  noticed the pattern in my daughter's birthdate. At first I thought my mother's might have some relationship, but when I read about the Fibonacci sequence, my 'tricky mind'  saw the first numbers 1 1 2 3 5 .  That is the reverse of my father's birthdate 5-23-11 except the reversal of '32' .  That's a 'twisted pair', to my way of thinking about moebius bands.

It's a  strange kind of fact of life, discovering that certain numbers that re-occur do mean something, but in my situation getting the meaning developed slowly. The numbers  651, 156, 256, 265, then later  751, 157 came to my attention so often that over a period of years I wondered why.  those numbers seemed to come in well timed phases until quite suddenly a kind of coalescent event happened to draw them alltogether and then they meant something, they caused me to feel identified, named because I remembered (or was caused to remember) their history.

My first memory (in about 1934+)  on this planet was the first 'event'. The coalescing event happened in 1989 when quite by chance I glanced at the back of Petr Beckmann's book, The History of Pi. Then I read the copyright statement (ordinarily I wouldn't even notice  it) and read "The first 10,000 decimals of 100, 265 calculated in 1962...) and paused then over the 'odd' fact of "100,265". My mind itself paused, I observed because then I was only somewhat aware that it seemed I  had a mind that had 'busy-ness' of it's own; it had intents and purposes of it's own but that  was not that distinct in 1989. When I turned back to the  first of two pages of decimals and it happened...thousands of memories and events that had happened throughout my life were clearly drawn upon as a moving display. It happened much faster than a movie. It brought out a series of patterns in the first block of decimals, built from familiar numbers but also memories from my earliest years and that page related to the numbers, 1,2,3,2 in my birthdate, in different forms. And other details such as my automobile license tab and how I acquired ETW651.  It was not a vanity plate.

I understood immediately that not only my life, but the life of many people in my life at that time had been working on an endeavor that began long before any of us were physically born.

The long flow of 'strangeness' that I'd been struggling to explain to myself (and other significant people)  had begun almost certainly outside of what we experience as 'Time'. It was instantly obvious that my memories were stored away and could be accessed, selected memories displayed that told a story, instantly.

I intended to give you a bigger picture about 'number significance', but when I start to write it turns into a book. The reason is that no 'fact' about what I'm writing stands alone, like an image in a hall of mirrors reflects to another, than another, every detail arose from another, which arose from yet another.

With hindsight, I think of them as a kind of road marker although that's a simplistic way to put it. A road marker in life can mean more than just a validation you are on a 'road'.  I have a hunch there is a particular part of the mind/brain/body that draws certain 'details' into focus, because that's the way it seems to me now. Being born in '32, rather than 33 or some other number turned out to have potentials I don't believe I would of myself, ever have noticed.

It all culminated in an almost mind blowing event in 1989. When this 'event' happened I almost swooned, literally because all of the individual events  that led up to that event were somehow displayed in my mind, as a kind of 'unit', like having a very long complicated movie flash into view, but each frame somehow was visible. (This sudden burst of 'knowledge' had happened 3 times prior to this one, but they were not about numbers.

The number 'string of events' was quite different, and it was obvious in that 1989 event that even when I struggled to learn the 'times tables' some well pre-planned event had it's beginnings. The impulse to 'add the double numbers across was part of a future event.

I'm trying to work out a way to describe the long period of 'assembly' during which this 'particular point of attention within my mind, behind my eyes  because I have a hunch other people may have somewhat similar experiences in the process of 'individuation', or something akin to that.

I hope this is not boring, or irrelevant, but it is important to keep in mind that I learned from the impulse not from a person. And the impulse was produced as a thought, actual words that influenced me immediately. Later in life I learned that  book keepers  add numbers across to find transpositions  (numbers reversed) because the difference between transposed numbers is always divisible by 9. Still later I learned other names for the same process but I always remembered how I'd learned it.