"The philosopher is usually interested in a central idea that evolves over a long period of time, which may never be successfully completed and formulated into words , one that may appear to be mysterious and beyond scientific validation." Jean Piaget
My idea was probably born in my body, as some kind of information that required only the initiation of the living pattern; a distinct point in Time: 1984; and a situation where two small groups of individuals were actually leaving the 'mainstream level', trying to learn advanced and challenge levels of square dancing! It was a living model where the idea could begin to become real, and real living people whose life situations at that time were quite specific, brought it into existence.
No individual could have created that circumstance or the events that began when Mt. St. Helens 'blew her top' in 1980 May 18, at 8:32. a. m. Functions of mind that I barely noticed at first, (between 1975 and 1984) had by 1984 created a subtle, but noticeable interaction between my own unsuspected inner content, self generated thought and non-self generated thought productions. This subtle interaction had occurred a few times throughout my life but of course I did not suspect that all 'inner content' was not 'me/mine/self generated'. There was no way to suspect that kind of division in my inner content. By the time Mt. St. Helens erupted, I was curious about a sentence that had formed in my thought, in a visible way, which I had not 'created/thought' myself. The 'non-self generated thought' content was nearly impossible to isolate and identify, because who would suspect the mind itself has a purpose, a will of it's own as well as a story to develop?
The idea was contained in the following abstractions from two different book:
"..and the insane? How do they treat them now? I watch them sometimes and it seems to me there is a secret about them, just out of sight, just around the corner...." An old abbess asks a visitor from Spain a question in The Bridge of San Luis Rey, by Thornton Wilder .
"...it is an abyss across which few....unaided have ever found their way." Childhood's End by Arthur C. Clarke The title of the chapter is The Last Generation.
The title of the chapter in which the 'secret about the insane' is contained is: Perhaps An Intention (!!??) I had read the book several times without noticing the title as being significant, and a real 'describing co-incidental event'. When I did notice it, I was astonished because there had been a distinct intentionality other than my own at work, under my observation, so the title seemed to have been pre-destined to point towards the 'secret about the insane'.
There is a secret about the 'insane', just out of sight, just around the corner. It is an abyss across which few....unaided have ever found their way. These two fragments from two different books were selected out of the embeddedness in which they were contained, but not by any will of mine or for any purpose I understood when the two fragments emerged into my thought, spontaneously at some time prior to 1980. The 'mind generated' sentence occurred into my thought somewhat frequently after I noticed it once. That caused me to notice it and then eventually to wonder about it because I remembered where the fragments had their origin. "..and the insane? How do they treat them now? I watch them sometimes and it seems to me there is a secret about them, just out of sight, just around the corner...."...it is an abyss across which few....unaided have ever found their way." There's more to this that I will write about in more detail later.
C. G. Jung was not the only or the first individual that 'found' his way across that abyss. He did identify a pattern: Carl G. Jung:: "I cannot define for you what God is, I cannot tell you even that God 'is' but what I can say is that all my work has scientifically proved that the pattern of God exists in every man and that this pattern has at it's disposal the greatest transforming energy of which mankind is capable." (Laurens Van der Post quotes Jung, at the end of Remembering Jung, a video documentary)
From a state of ignorance, my central idea was brought to my attention and then the information to understand it happened in every day life events, 'acted out' and told to me, by people and situations in my every day life who at that point seemed to know what was in my thought. It was almost overwhelmingly confusing when that kind of event began to happen, just occasionally between 1981 and 1983. Then after 1984 a new (to me) kind of hearing, understanding and perception overlaid every moment of every day life. But more difficult to describe, and to understand when it happened continuously, was that books that I just happened to notice in a wide variety of places, seemed to capture my interest and attention at just the right point in Time when their content made me feel a sense of familiarity as I read them. As though the words were somehow already in my thought, and in a few rare incidents this was actually what happened! The 'thought words' had preceded reading them in a book; they were word for word identical to thought, prior to reading them! (Reading certain words on the jacket of An Imagined World by June Goodfield was the first incident. It happened in about 1985 as best I can date it.) But who would suspect that content emerged from an extremely remote location, unable to be spoken or even related to 'now'? The word 'resonation' is probably a good word to use to describe the sense of familiarity I felt before I realized that what I could not explain myself, was being explained TO me!!! The 'idea' that I learned from a state of ignorance, by experiences that involved other people and books written long before I was born, or read them really described itself but it generated a different kind of language; a self generating language had to be learned!
And as well I was given my name, pi moebius one day. The name just came into my thought, but I'd had many experiences with 'pi' and with the 'moebius twist' concept by then.
I had two 'mind-quakes' as I thought of them by 1989 in 1989. One happened in a location I believed I could never tell anyone about. The second one was a 'pi' quake', it was also a mass of memories from my past, but it extended back to my earliest years on this planet, revealing a 'thread' that had been hidden until then. That event almost literally caused me to faint when the implications that memories from my past could be retrieved that way, so selectively, had to be recognized.