The order in which I read books would not seem to be important, but it is, so that's why I've listed them as a Timeline based Book list (the order in which I read them) . I read virtually nothing but fiction until about 1983, then a switch occurred beginning in the year just before 1984 and continuing afterwards so that I could not seem to choose anything but non-fiction. .
It's not been updated recently. Please read this introduction:
At a certain point in Time my habit of reading only fictions changed into it's exact opposite: A kind of 'force', it was a real force, (the 'force of a deeply entrenched habit'?) caused me to be unable to choose to read fictions other than a few very specific fictions, usually old ones. I felt a real compulsion, I think of it now as a 'drive', a 'force' to read books that were not fiction. They came to my attention without any effort from me to find them and they were of a kind that I had rarely attempted to read in the past. I had a different relationship to my body also, although I could not name it for several years. I heard and saw everything outside of my body in a different way, when I noticed that my hand reached for books that meant nothing to me. I didn't seem to choose them for any reason, yet I could not NOT choose them. Eventually I felt a great curiosity about why I could not choose NOT to read books that were uninteresting to me. I did not understand what the words were intended to convey, yet I HAD to read them, without understanding what I read. I had noticed this lack of 'understanding' in myself when I was much younger, but in a particular way much earlier in of my life.
At a certain point, it was about 1985 as best I can date it, I became aware of words of thought occurring in my mind: , "Read the words anyway. Pay no attention to whether you understand them or not." I did not have the feeling that I 'thought them' myself. These words were at first quite distant, 'sensed as words', somehow similar to how a fragrance can 'waft' towards you before you see it. Its possible to identify an object before you see it. They became real words slowly over a period of several months. It was 'thought' that evolved from being 'close to words' and moving to a location where they were distinct words of thought. "..read the words anyway. Pay no attention to whether you understand them or not." They were distinct words by the time I began to read Heaven and Hell by an author I'd never heard of, Emanuel Swedenborg.
I would like to clarify why this list of books is more significant than it would seem to be. There's an attribute of timing, that is they came at points when their content had a specific relationship to what was going on in my real life. This was not easy to notice, it required many events to happen over a period of about 7 years (1982-1989) in which 'synchronization' between what I was reading; certain 'thought' that was in my mind; and events that were happening in my physical world was so distinct that finally that attribute HAD to be given full attention.
Read the titles with a special attention because a very strange fact becomes available if you consider the words of the titles, not merely what their inner content is: The words literally describe some particular specific detail or concept of what was happening at the time I read the book!
That's a fact I became aware of quite slowly, it was a complete surprise to me, I had never once in my life noticed that kind of relationship. Years later, I realized it had happened in the past, when I was fascinated with a book. It 'dawned' very slowly, when a few specific incidents (which I've included in this site) caused me to notice this attribute, of 'describing to me what was happening in my life at the time it happened'. Let me emphasize that recognition of that relationship dawned very slowly. It was impossible to detect the precise timing in an ongoing flow until several events accumulated and I noticed them and they occurred over a period of years.
The first incident happened in the fall of 1981, it was an event where timing was so precise but I barely thought of it after it happened! Two very convincing events happened in 1987. Then by 1988 it was obvious that these books had specific information in them that related to a flow of strangely affecting experiences I was having. The books were even describing them for me, or contributing words that helped me to understand what this 'flow' was trying to accomplish: it was building a conversation. The 'conversation' was related to an event that had happened in my mind, in 1984 although I had to discover it as though it had occurred on a different planet! It was a package of information about my life, it contained a message, which I typed one day without any curiosity about it, a year after the event happened, without recognizing it even in 1985!
A most unusual situation, but I was not even curious about what my own hands had typed! I printed it out, saved it and thought nothing more about it until several weeks after I'd read Carl Sagan's book Contact. Then a thought occurred, I 'received it', I believe rather than created it, as though someone else said it to me: "It was a message. I got a message." I heard myself say the words and that was becoming a pattern, hearing my own body and seeing it almost as though I was audience to it, and seeing my self (not as a physical body) in my life.
I had to discover every 'bit of information' in this same form, seeing my body, hearing what it said, seeing what it did, and that had been such a drastic change. Who would make that kind of connection between reading a book, what I was physically doing, finding some relationship to my own unspoken thought, and other content that was going on in my head? The 'package' which I later named a 'mindquake' had occurred into my mind during the 10 days between July 31 and August 10, 1984. The first 'mindquake' had happened in the 10 days that the Los Angeles Olympic Games were being played, the second one happened in 1989 followed by a third one, a few weeks later. The last one in 1989 exposed a hidden stream of events in my life, linked them together and forced me to realize that even my most private experiences, and inner content was stored somewhere and could be accessed the way I access data on my computer and through the Internet. I named it my pi quake.
Here's the book list, which I have not updated for some time. The pattern has not deviated however.
The Impersonal Life ( 1981 ) DeVorss Publishing Company The first words were: "To you who read, I AM come.
To you who read, I AM speaking."
The Weaver Of Dreams (1982) Myrtle Reed (fiction) Three paragraphs on page 175/176, about two kinds of people.
The Bodyís Rapture (1982) Jules Romain 1911 (Fiction) The idea of being out of body'; having a passionate love for another person, and a depth level of mind.
Reality Therapy (1983) William Glasser I'd begun to see a psychiatrist, Dr. Phillip Rehngren, the book was his.
Mental Health Or Mental Illness (1983) William Glasser Same source, Dr. Rehngren
Psychology For The Layman (1983) Eric Berne A drawing of a healthy ego, a thin in places ego, and a thin in places ego, borrowing ego.
Mr. God, This Is Anna (1984) Fynn Mr. God was 'in her middle. She said: "I am a viewing point for Mr. God."
The Obsessive Personality ( 1984) Saltzmann This book was one in which I began to recognize a 'detail' about my life in it.
Steppenwolfe Herman Hesse A man whose mind was divided, he was a wolf and a man and had very strange experiences.
The Presence Of Other Worlds Wilson Van Dusen Description of 'strange experiences'!! It 'described' the mind of the 'insane'.
Stations Of The Mind (1987) William Glasser "There is a controller for comfort in the mind." That was a new idea to me.
God, Man, Communication 1988 Wilson Van Dusen, George Dole The literal sense and another sense were introduced,
Other Worlds 1987 Paul Davies "The importance of an observer." which had been a 'thought' that emerged in 1984, and an idea was attached to it.
Men Who Have Walked With God 1986 Sheldon Cheney
Psychology of The Unconscious 1986 Robert Ornstein
The Phenomenon Of Man 1987 Teilhard de Chardin
Pathways Through To Space 1986 Franklin Merrill Wolfe This book and the next one were incomprehensible, but I felt that I HAD to read them.
Consciousness Without An Object 1986 Franklin Merrill Wolfe He doesn't articulate his experiences in normal words. What was this man writing about?
Cosmic Consciousness 1985 Richard M. Bucke A new idea about a kind of mental event that changed the life, but ...what?
People Of The Lie 1985 M. Scott Peck I had begun to notice a strange relationship between a couple in our
life, a man that I couldn't talk to, and his wife who seemed to have an
unusual effect on him AND ON ME. In 1989 I realized they were at that point, living models of my marital life.
An Imagined World 1986 June Goodfield This was a critical book, the jacket contained exact words that I'd noticed in my thought, before I read them on that jacket. The sense of recognition word on the jacket and thought that had emerged into my mind was 'remote', barely there, not articulatable, just barely noticeable.
The Abusing Family 1987/8? Justice and Justice I had not read this kind of book, but I realized it was 'about' my family situation.
The Bond Of Power 1986 Joseph Chilton Pearce A truly new kind of information, as well as a very personal
relationship was formed to themes in the book: 'folie aux duex', William Blake, autism,
and Arthur C. Clarke's book, Childhood's End, topics that were relevant to my history .
Journeys Out Of Body 1987 Robert Monroe New information about a real man, one alive at the time I read it. His experiences were unusual.
The Symbolic And The Real 1986 Ira Progoff Could not understand what the 'symbolic' and the 'real' meant.
The Will To Create 1986 Rollo May I read about 'gestalts', a moment of 'round sound', an entire composition heard as a unit in a second of time.
Far Journeys 1988 Robert Monroe Further information., as I read this book a new 'sense' emerged in my thought, when I read
about Monroe's dawning awareness of not being alone in his new level of
experiences. I had begun to feel a presence, a kind of guide, a counselor in my mind.
The End of Our Exploring 1986 Monica Furlong A critical book, remarkable to me who knew nothing about 'paths' that
were so distinct to such a young woman. I felt a sense of 'recognizing',
a sense of familiarity in the 'Coming Journey'. referencing certain events
that had happened in my past, those memories that were the 'remains'.
William Blake And The Tree Of Life 1986 Laura De Witt James A truly monumental book because I recognized the relationship between
Albion and Vala; and between Los and Jerusalem and some words I'd heard from my husband; and my
grandmother's 'ball of rose colored crochet twine' event, which was retrieved
automatically by my mind/brain, not by me when I read the poem on the last page of
Wholeness And The Implicate Order 1987 David Bohm An amazingly 'familiar idea' seemed to be what he was attempting to
convey: "what you see is what you get'. It was a remark I'd made to Jan many times in a certain situation between us..
The Psychotherapy and Cure Of Satan, J.S.P.S ???? (Fiction) A strange new idea that the 'satan' might not be real evil and he might not like being thought of as evil. .
The Devil 1985 Molnar, ?? (Fiction 1911) About an event that was misunderstood, a lie was told that changed many lives.
Jonathan Livingston Seagull 1985 Richard Bach The book I'd avoided reading when it was popular contained a
reference to a 'presence' that Jonathan encountered, to help him in his
isolation and despair.
Listening With The Third Ear 1986 Theodore Reik The first book in which a sense of recognition occurred, "He writes like I
think." I had been told I was 'tangential, digressive' couldn't stick to a topic, when I tried to set a context for
what I said. The way he described mental processes was extremely new
information to me.
Powers Of Mind 1986 Adam Smith New information about different 'states of mind', experiences with drugs.
Hidden Communion 1988 Joost Meerloo About non-verbal communication
Incredible Coincidence 1984 Alan Vaughn He mentioned that there's a kind of blueprint, a foreknowledge of one's life plot, I read about how a person could become a bit player in their own life and become a star in someone else's life.
Theory Of Eternal Life 1986 Rodney Collin This was very strange but I read words that I'd thought before I read them in this book. "You have inadvertently guessed a very great secret." in a conversation between a man and a magician.
The Fourth Way 1985 P. D. Ouspensky
The Doors Of Perception; The Art Of Seeing 1986 Aldus Huxley
SuperLearning 1987 Ostrander and Ostrander
The Scapegoat Complex 1987 Sylvia Perrera Brinton
Narcissism, Character Disorders & Transformation Nathan Salant Schwartz
Tertium Organun 1986 P. D. Ouspensky
The Moebius Seed 1988 Steven Rosen
Replay 1988 Ken Grimwood
Heaven And Hell 1988 Emanuel Swedenborg
Synchronicity, The Bridge Between Mind and Matter 1988 F. David Peat
In Search Of The Miraculous 1988 P. D. Ouspensky
Tremulations 1988 Emanuel Swedenborg
Sympathetic Vibrations 1987 K.C. Cole
The Road Less Travelled 1986 M. Scott Peck
The Edges Of Science 1987 Eugene Mallowe
Crack In The Cosmic Egg 1988 Joseph Chilton Pearce
Iím Ok, Youíre Ok 1986 Eric Berne
The Hidden Dimension 1987 Edward T. Hall
The Silent Language 1987 Edward T. Hall
The Hidden Self Theodore Reik
The Double Helix James Watson
The Search For The Double Helix 1986 John Gribbon
Atoms, Matter, Physics (! ! ! !) 1989 Alan Nourse He's a Seattle physician, author. This was an amazing experience, because it contained the answer to e = mc2
Ritual, Psychological Studies Theodore Reik
A New Model Of The Universe P. D. Ouspensky
The Arrow Of Time Roger Highsmith, Peter Coveney
The Future Of Man Teilhard de Chardin
The Divine Milleu Teilhard de Chardin
The Psychology Of Man's Possible Evolution P. D. Ouspensky
The Cosmic Code Heinz Pagels
The Strange Life Of Ivan Osokin P. D. Ouspensky
Blake, Jung And The Collective Unconscious Elaine Pagels
The New Man Maurice Nicoll
The Mark Maurice Nicoll
Synchronicity And Human Destiny Ira Progoff
Divine Providence (2) Emanuel Swedenborg
Arcana Coelestia ( several volumes) Emanuel Swedenborg
The Interpretation of Schizophrenia Silvano Arieti
The Parnas Silvano Arieti
The Act of Creation Arthur Koestler
Creativity Silvano Arieti
The Greeks And The Irrational E. Dodds
The Republic, Plato
The Oedipus Trilogy Sophocles
The Euminedes Euripedes
Living Time And Integration Of The Life Maurice Nicoll
The Commentaries Maurice Nicoll
(Mathematical History) several books.
Sacred Geometry Robert Lawler
Infinity And The Mind Rudy Rucker
The Bridges Of Infinity Michael Guillen
The End Of Certainty ??
Flat Land E. Abbott
Sphereland Dionysys Burgher
A New Era Of Thought Charles Hinton
Scientific Romances Charles Hinton
Science of the Sacred and (3 books) Gregory Bateson
The Reenchantment Of The World Morris Berman
Coming To Our Senses Morris Berman
The Creation Of Woman Theodore Reik
The Cassandra Complex Laurie Layton Shapira
(The advent of the 737X paperwork YA001) 1995 (this coincided with Life Against Death, repetition of a pattern; the entire phase repeated at work, when the 'new generation' airplane arrived.)
Life Against Death (1995) Norman O. Brown
The Egyptian Hermes (A MUST to read) Garth Fowden
Hesiod, Theogony, Works And Days Norman O. Brown
Hermes, The Trickster Norman O. Brown
The Celestine Prophecy James Redfield
Ultimate Journey (! ! ! !) Incredible book!! Robert Monroe (He died soon after authoring this book.)
Science And Sanity (1999) Alfred Korzybski
Morals & Dogma (1999) Arthur Pike
The Philosophy Of Symbolic Forms (II) (2001) Ernst Cassirer
Theogony, Work and Days Hesiod
The Self And Psychotic Process John Weir Perry
The Lord of Four Quarters John Weir Perry
Essays On Schizophrenia Harold Searles
The Dynamics Of
Hope Ira Progoff
I will make a list of books I've read in the past 4 years. I'm adding them
separately because I've had a drastic change occur in my mind, unexpected and
almost impossible to describe but I have to try.
This change began when two sisters and I were in California after the death of
one of our sisters, we cleared the house and got it ready for sale. These two
sisters of mine were born when I was 11 years old, when I had been basically
assigned the role of a mother because our mother worked and she, as well as our
father was not the kind of parent the text books we read in school
depicted. They were not the stereotype either, I don't mean to imply they were,
they were not educated themselves. They worked hard and were not alcoholics, nor
I will make a list of books I've read in the past 4 years. I'm adding them separately because I've had a drastic change occur in my mind, unexpected and almost impossible to describe but I have to try.
This change began when two sisters and I were in California after the death of one of our sisters, we cleared the house and got it ready for sale. These two sisters of mine were born when I was 11 years old, when I had been basically assigned the role of a mother because our mother worked and she, as well as our father was not the kind of parent the text books we read in school depicted. They were not the stereotype either, I don't mean to imply they were, they were not educated themselves. They worked hard and were not alcoholics, nor into drugs.
It, by that I mean the 'flow' and it's content, was purposeful, intending to get my attention in a new form of 'addressing' me and was in fact talking to me. I became aware over a period of several years that often the title of the book 'described to me' a detail about what was happening in my actual real world life at the time I read the book! The timing could not have been chosen by me, nor arranged by me, it was always a real 'shock' when this precision became evident. It was not a simple thing to grasp this attribute, in fact it would have been impossible to establish this as a fact except that incidents happened in which the timing was so impeccable that attribute could not be ignored. I began to realize long strings of situations in my past were aimed towards future events. And it was obvious there was nothing random or purposeless generating this 'flow' within my life although other people seemed to know more about it than I did!
This list is not meant to be a bibliography; itís an example of the attribute of the literal sense. In this 'sense' words, varying from a single word to an entire book, are highlighted and are understood with an added effect, sense of self reference. This attribute is applicable to words irregardless of their original context and source, a new context is generated. This is really a process of 'regeneration' in that an original context is replaced, i.e a new context is generated. A sense of familiarity may be the experienced, or a sense of 'resonation', which is a currently popular word that one hears frequently. The word 'echo' is a good word to use although what is in the 'reflection', or what is 'reheard' is a completely different context. I named this 'effect' a 'second underlying/under lying context'. A Jungian analyst that I went to for a time told me this was an accurate term to use to describe what Carl G. Jung named, meaningful coincidence. Emanuel Swedenborg named the same kind of event, as 'double thought', and that is also perfectly accurate, literally. It's as though one knew already and that some 'inner content' is being matched up with something 'out there, outside of the body' but this is not obvious nor easily distinct. The term deja vu, very likely arose from this kind of 'event'.
What this means is that
there was an attribute in which the title of the book meant exactly what it says
as a 'description of a detail about my life at the moment'. There was a
specific part in the book that seemed 'electric' although I could not have used
that word to describe it that affected me strongly. In some circumstances, the
entire book seemed 'familiar' as though the words had been already known to me.
It's a partial list. I feel like I must have been reading all the time
but I wasn't really!
It's a partial list. I feel like I must have been reading all the time but I wasn't really!