What is a mindquake?

A mindquake is a mass of personal information that occurs in a very tiny increment of Time.

I can cite a scene in a movie, Mercury Rising that is a good physical and viewable  representation of what happened to me. I could not attempt to  describe a 'mindquake' without having seen examples and this was only one of a few rare events that happened. Seeing that movie gave me a clue as to how I might begin to describe an event that had already  happened to me several years before the movie came out. This event happened in my mind; it  had  unfurled in a fraction of time but could not possibly be described in the same fragment of a second.  

I felt compelled to describe what I  saw  but as time passed and events happened I became aware the 'thing' was describing its self, using the details of my present, my specific past life and the future.

In the film a boy opens a new book of puzzles his mother has given him.  He is autistic. ( I was told I had a mild autism after some neurological tests were done in 1984. When I was  informed of the results of that test, I found out my handedness had changed also. That's  a fact that I believe is very important too, that is where the many changes in my mind began to be noticeable to me.)  

 In a particular scene an autistic boy opens his new puzzle book  and quickly works a puzzle,  then he turns to a page, which is shown on the movie screen. As he looks , the numbers, letters and symbols seem to shift about then he goes to the telephone, dials a number and says: “You are a Stranger.” After he hangs up it becomes obvious that he had somehow seen in the shifting numbers and symbols a decoding process that revealed a hidden message on the page.  It was supposed to be an unbreakable code. The people who got the phone call and the message: "You are a Stranger."  were certain they would never get the message this boy had delivered. The rest of the movie is of course about trying to find and eliminate the boy that 'got the message'  that nobody was supposed to get.  

That would be how a kind of mindquake is experienced, the  mind does something, acts upon what's in front of the individual and creates meaning, sometimes directly, other times by implication: A mindquake is a mass of personal information that occurs in a very tiny increment of Time.

 

This is a detail that surprised me  very much, a few years later: I became aware of a definition of my name which meant 'strange' when its spelled in a slightly different form, Eldritch.  I didn't know about the etymology of my name when this  Chudnovsky event that I will write about  after I set a  context, happened. However when I did re-read this article in theThe NewYorker  and experienced what I read on the last page of an article about pi , I realized this was a 'coincidence' among masses of coincidental details about me. My name was 'inferred in  what the autistic boy said: "You are a stranger."

 

 I have become aware of my ‘strangeness' from having been told often that I am 'different'. "Strange'  is also  the name of a quark.   The most surprising attribute of this kind of so called 'synchronistic event’ is that they identify the one that ‘gets’ them.  If you think about the word 'identification' as  'naming', this attribute is one that ought to make 'synchronicity' an entirely new 'phenomenon' .  

This is an attempt to describe one that I had in 1992. It was an inner event that I could not have generated myself, and it was not the first one related to pi. I'd had what I thought of as a 'pi' quake' in 1989 that almost made me faint because the result of it was to expose a hidden 'band of experience' in my life. The result of it was that I could trust my personal experiences and my interpretations of them.  

 It's an event I think of as a 'closure event', because it was obvious this event had accumulated over a long span of time. I saw immediately that it was on a 'string' of events that had already happened in my past, 'using' my particular habits, as well as what I 'knew' in my particular way. It's the second major event that happened relating to pi the irrational number . Its  purpose as I understand now, is that it was to assure me that I was not 'crazy', not imagining things, nor forming 'delusional associations'. I named such inner events a 'mindquake',  a word that I coined about 5 years after the first one happened 1984 and I'd begun to understand it by 1989.  

This particular incident was possible only at this particular point in Time , and obviously it was not 'self generated' by me.   

In 1992 I was transferred to Everett, Washington. After a few weeks I had to go to medical because I had become affected by a chemical. While I waited I read one of two books I had with me. At that point I always had a book to read, I detested waiting and in Boeing Medical one waits!   The doctor paused as he passed and made a comment about the books: “We read the same books.” The one I was reading was History of Pi by Petr Beckmann. The other was Godel, Escher and Bach, The Eternal Golden Braid by Douglas Hofstadter. He asked me if I’d read the recent article in The New Yorker Magazine about two brothers who had calculated pi to 2 billion places. I had not but that evening I went to the library and checked out the magazine.  

The article was in the March 2, 1992 issue . Although I glance through the cartoons (usually in a doctors' office)  in that magazine it’s not often I read anything else in it.  As I  read this article,  a few details emerged into my mind  but  this happened without any sense of their being personally significant , which has  happened at times.  

 I noticed this sentence in the article   Mountains of Pi , The New Yorker,  March 2, 1992 . It's exactly in this form.  

The last numbers in the first row in this sentence are ‘32’ and the last numbers  in the next row ‘751’.  other than reminding me briefly that I was born in 1932 they were just numbers.  

“Pi goes on forever and can’t be calculated to perfect precision:

3.1415926535897932384626433832

79028841971693993751… 

At the time, the number 32 had  been in the news in various stories, the. O. J.  Simpson trial in particular was constantly in the news so that  put '32'  right in everyone's face. But then  my favorite Sonics player had been  #32 also. By the time this event happened I had become very much aware of certain numbers, 651 and it's reverse, 156, as well as 265 and  256.  Many events that I would have to describe in detail would be required to explain how these numbers 'emerged' into distinct relationships with facts about my experiences with what some have named as 'coincidences of the meaningful' kind.  

To others, psychiatrists in particular, the same kind of 'event' is a symptom of various mental disorders, i.e.,  forming 'delusional associations'.  

 At the end of the article was an arrangement of the last decimals of pi that these two brothers had calculated. I glanced at it, with no more than casual interest. Below is a copy of  the arrangement of the last decimals of pi that  had  been were calculated by the Chudnovsky brothers exactly as it is  at the end of the article.

 

. . . . .  18820 54573 01261 27678 17413 87779

66981 15311 24707 34258 41235 99801 92693

52561 92393 53870 24377 10069 16106 22971

02523 30027 49528 06378 64067 12852 77857

42344 28836 88521 72435 85924 57786 36741

32845 66266 96498 68308 59920 06468 63376

85976 35341 52906 04621 44710 52106 99079

33563 54625 71001 37490 77872 43403 57690

01699 82447 20059 93533 82919 46119 87044

02125 12329 11964 10087 41341 42633 88249

48948 31198 27787 03802 08989 05316 75375

43242 20100 43326 74069 33751 86349 40467

52687 79749 68922 29914 46047 47109 31678

05219 48702 00877 32383 87446 91871 49136

90837 88525 51575 35790 83982 20710 59298

41193 81740 92975 31

 

Notice that the first five spaces are empty. The spaces put certain numbers into 'neighborhood' that would not 'see each other' unless they were arranged in this particular form. 

 The last 2 numbers ‘31’ were mildly surprising. Gregory Chudnovsky notes that the last two numbers are the same as the first two numbers of pi. ‘The last shall be first..” he remarks. 

That’s when the shocking “inner event’ occurred and I am not exaggerating that I felt an electrifying body response of a kind that I’ve experienced in the past. The almost overwhelming confusion I used to feel has become less distinct as more such events have happened but the element of surprise has not changed.  There is never a  sense of expectation on my part, I'm always shocked. The numbers seemed to shift about and be  highlighted.  A lot of  'interaction' with the numbers and memories from my past  was visible in a flash of time.  And I do remember them clearly. 

 The most important result was that it exposed an  attribute of ‘synchronistic experiences’ that had already  become  just somewhat distinct  to me through them: they were 'identifying me', so specifically I could not avoid  becoming aware of that attribute.  In retrospect this and other events seem to me to occur with the intent to convince me, or keep me convinced that I'm not imagining anything in regard to this particular attribute of the 'flowing string of events' that had begun to emerge early in the 1980's. I am being named specifically and identified unmistakably on this planet.  

In an increment of time that has to be a fraction of a second this ‘event’ flashed into existence. It involved ‘highlighting’  certain numbers in a particular way but many memories from my past created what I saw, that was also obvious. A series of ‘shifts’ were involved as various combinations of what I saw in the printout were exposed. It was a 'mini' quake in comparison to the first 'pi' quake that had almost literally 'floored' me when it happened in 1989. But it was in the same form.  

The most important detail was that not another person would ever have the background that generated instant recognition of what was exposed. At first glance  I saw only this part of the block of decimals:    I 'saw' a division between the seven columns of numerals, between column 3 and 4 .

 

 

. . . . .  18820 54573     01261 27678 17413 87779

66981 15311 24707     34258 41235 99801 92693

52561 92393 53870     24377 10069 16106 22971

02523 30027 49528     06378 64067 12852 77857

42344 28836 88521     72435 85924 57786 36741

32845 66266 96498     68308 59920 06468 63376

85976 35341 52906     04621 44710 52106 99079

33563 54625 71001     37490 77872 43403 57690

01699 82447 20059     93533 82919 46119 87044

02125 12329 11964     10087 41341 42633 88249

48948 31198 27787     03802 08989 05316 75375

43242 20100 43326    74069 33751 86349 40467 

52687 79749 68922    29914 46047 47109 31678

05219 48702 00877    32383 87446 91871 49136

90837 88525 51575    35790 83982 20710 59298

41193 81740 92975    31

 

Then the last numbers were 'acted on':

 

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx      

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   7xxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx        7 is literally there.

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   7xxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx       This '7' was the result of 2 minus 9,

xxxxx xxxxx xxxx7  323xx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx        I saw '3' and '2' as 5 on this line, 3 is same as 1

xxxxx xxxxx x1575 357xx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx        I saw '3' on this line as '1' , counting by '3's,

xxxxx xxxxx xxx75 31…                                      I saw '3' on this line as  '1' because in counting by '3's, this is '1' on a 3rd level in my pattern.   

                             

The result was 751 literally on the left side and 751 coded on the right side. This is a pattern from 1989 when I had the pi quake. Then I realized 751 had been everywhere but I'd not noticed it, I belonged to IAM 751, the local Machinists union.

 

Then my mind wondered if the number 751 was somewhere else in the decimals. This was automatic not a decision of mine. I saw 751 on one line.

 

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx      

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   7xxxx xx751xxxxx xxxxx        7 is literally there.

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   7xxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx       This '7' was the result of 2 minus 9,

xxxxx xxxxx xxxx7  323xx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx        I saw '3' and '2' as 5 on this line, 3 is same as 1

xxxxx xxxxx x1575 357xx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx        I saw '3' on this line as '1' , counting by '3's,

xxxxx xxxxx xxx75 31…                               

 

 The next development was a real shock, it also was automatic, not willed by me: See below:

 

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx      

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   xxxxx xxx89 xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   7xxxx xx751xxxxx xxxxx        7 is literally there.

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx   7xxxx xxx47 xxxxx xxxxx       This '7' was the result of 2 minus 9,

xxxxx xxxxx xxxx7  323xx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx        I saw '3' and '2' as 5 on this line, 3 is same as 1

xxxxx xxxxx x1575 357xx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx        I saw '3' on this line as '1' , counting by '3's,

xxxxx xxxxx xxx75 31…                               

 

The numbers 89 above 751 and 47 below 751 were used. 8, down to 5, down to  4, then to 7 on the same line, up to 1, up to 9, 8 to the left and suddenly I 'saw' my phone number, 854 - 7198. It had been our phone number for more than a decade.

 

My phone number was selected out of embeddednss that I would normally have not found.  

 

How the 'event' developed in a sequence  from this particular section of isolated numbers has to be traced. The process is difficult to briefly describe, its probably as difficult for someone else to trace because almost 50 years of personal experience cannot be written, concisely. There is more than I write. I 'saw' 751 literally on one side, coded on the other side;  forwards and backwards, up and down and I 'saw' this basically in the first glance.  The difference between adjacent numbers was '7' but that formed 7,      3+2 formed 5, 3 on the right side counts as 1.

 

Some habits I’ve had most of my life exposed the coded side of the division between 75 and 31 on the bottom row and the numbers above them.

 

The number 751 seemed to emerge on the  bottom line, literally these 3 numbers were the only numbers I saw because  a 'rule' of counting by '3s'  makes that  number the same as '1'.  (The 7511 that is the result of seeing '3' as 1 in 7531 suddenly reversed and this was my daughters'  house number., 1157.)

 

The doubleness of a literal #1 and 3 'as' 1, would require relating an event that happened when I was 9 years old when an impulse caused me to 'add the double numbers across' in each of the times tables. I noticed repeating patterns in each of them, but it was the impulse itself and the fact that no person was involved that I could not have understood when I was 9 years old.

  I saw the division created an 'uncoded'  and literal  751 set of numbers on one side of the space between the columns,  then immediately noticed that they  were  'coded' on the other side in a pattern so familiar to me it happened instantly, just as Douglas Hofstadter described how a   method of coding vanishes when the code becomes familiar. The meaning appears instantly. In this  case  they were the 'difference' or the 'sum' of numbers in the same neighborhood. 

 

 This is a pattern I had become familiar with already in the big event that happened when I glanced in a similar way at the back of Petr Beckmann's book, The History of Pi. This had been the 'rule' that governed what I 'saw' in this form in the first glance at  the first 11 decimals and the literal number '3': , 3.1415926535  8... ( It is tedious to  interrupt, to explain that I had just read about the Fibonacci numbers, 1,1,2,3, 5, 8 in Petr Beckmann's book  and then several details came to my mind,  such as that 11,2,3,5 was the reverse of  my fathers' birthdate except the 32 was reversed. I thought of the '32' as a 'twisted pair'.  Somehow the term 'twisted pair' came into my mind in connection to how  5-23-11 emerged in a glance at 1,1,2,3,5,8... )  Then I saw in a flash of time an 'event' that transformed the numerals on the first line  in the first block into 3 5 6  2  6 5 3.  Much more followed!

 

 Just to explain this pattern of  'literal' numerals and 'coded' numerals  somewhat, 3  5  6  2  6 5 3 can be uncovered in the first 10 numerals, by cross summing 14, 15, 92. With amazement I noticed (or it was brought to my attention) that the numbers 3 5 6  2  653  mirror from the center number 2, (which is the result of adding  9 + 2 = 11, the 1 + 1 = 2, on a second level) and that also the 'first' is the 'last' also. The numbers 'reflect' from beginning to end, as well as from the center out.  Much more followed this, but I'm trying to make some account of how this particular magazine article generated this 'mini' mindquake.

 

 This rule formed itself, relating  primarily to an experience I’d had with an impulse when I was about 9 years old, when the ‘thought’ occurred to me to add the double numbers ‘across’ in each of the times tables,. 

 

When this  Chudnovsky event happened, there had been another experience, two years prior that involved Martin Gardener. A vignette he described about a 'curious reflection in the'  pi caused it to  unfold.  This vignette  was contained in a book he authored, The Magic Numbers of Dr. Matrix.  I believed Dr. Matrix was a real person when I wrote to Mr. Gardener  and I'd never heard of Martin Gardner then!!! 

 

The numbers 751 on both sides in literal or ‘coded’ form stood out as though lit up. I was reminded at that point (I had not noticed this until exactly at this point) that my union lodge number is 751.  And that I had first seen the pi symbol at Boeing, the day I became an employee and drove through the security gates. I'd driven my 210 Datsun licensed ETW 651 (not a vanity plate) that day and had to join IAM 751, but those were just numbers to me until this day in 1992, 7+ years later!) Then I remembered or was reminded that the numerals 751 had been 'encased' in the numerals 651 in the first rectangle of decimals in pi. I had noticed that but not thought about it until this day the  detail had been brought to my attention in the first 'pi' quake.

 

The thought formed itself in my mind, I don't believe I formed it myself, to  see if the numbers 751 was anywhere else in that particular arrangment.

 

So I glanced upwards and noticed the numbers 751 were in a different place in the arrangement. The numerals might have  ‘gleamed’ on the right side in the next batch of 5 decimals:

 

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xx751xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx 7xxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxx7 32xxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx x1575 357xx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxx75 31…

 

 

Then an almost unbelievable situation unfurled:

 

. . . . .  18820 54573 01261 27678 17413 87779

66981 15311 24707 34258 41235 99801 92693

52561 92393 53870 24377 10069 16106 22971

02523 30027 49528 06378 64067 12852 77857

42344 28836 88521 72435 85924 57786 36741

32845 66266 96498 68308 59920 06168 63376

85976 35341 52906 04621 44710 52106 99079

33563 54625 71001 37490 77872 43403 57690

01699 82447 20059 93533 82919 46119 87044

02125 12329 11964 10087 41341 42633 88249

48948 31198 27787 03802 08989 05316 75375

43242 20100 43326 74069 33751 86349 40467

52687 79749 68922 29914 46047 47109 31678

05219 48702 00877 32383 87446 91871 49136

90837 88525 51575 35790 83982 20710 59298

41193 81740 92975 31


                                                                         8

Immediately the number 8 which is above the 5 in  the '751'  batch , which must have gleamed or ‘stood out’ in some form.

 

                                                                                               8

Then downwards number  4 below the  5 in '751'  =    751

                                                                                               4

 

                                                                                              8

then across, the number 7 at the right of 4                  751

                                                                                              47

 

                                                                                             8

then above the number 1 above the 7                          751

                                                                                             47

 

 

                                                                                             89

then the number 9 above the 1                                     751

                                                                                             47

 

 

then back to the number 8 where the ‘gleam’  had begun.    I recognized that our phone number had been revealed. We' had that number for almost a decade. However odd it may read, my phone number was being 'said' to me and I understood this immediately because this event was a repetition of another completely different event in which my phone number had been brought out in a somewhat shocking event.

 

See the result  below:

 

...... xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xxx89 xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx     xxxxx xx751xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx    7xxxx xxx47 xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxxx7    32xxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx x1575   357xx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx

xxxxx xxxxx xxx75   31…

 

When  the numbers 854 7198 clearly presented themselves,  I recognized the telephone number we’d had for more than a decade by that time. I had not paid attention to the fact that the ‘first number’ 8 is the same as the ‘last number’ 8, but my history of tracing  the ‘infinity symbol 8’ when I doodled was clearly brought forth.

 

 As well as the long, extremely mundane strings of every day experience that reminded me of the long march behind this ‘suddenly there’ exposure of a very personal and intimate detail that named me, pointed directly towards me.

 

This ‘event’ was preceded by another event that was much more explicit and there’s not a lot of chance it was ‘chance’ that generated the event.

 

IAM 751 is the union lodge name and number that I belonged to. My thinking now is that IAM 751 is the 'other' speaking to me in this strange form and I, the me that writes now and was the observing point of view on the planet is ETW 651.

 

 My telephone number is different now, but 854  7198 has another 'strange fact' about it, relating to the Martin Gardener event.

 

The ‘event’ that I experienced had the effect of exposing something hidden from  me but it was  'said' to me in this form. Although I understood my 'phone number' when it was 'said' immediately this time, that was because  the process of ‘exposing’ what was hidden was familiar to me by the time this one  event happened and it had happened once before when I  had read the Dr. Matrix book.

 

 I felt a real shock, not a symbolic shock when this event  happened. It was unexpected but there was an implication behind this event that linked back through my past,  meandering  from the present moment to the first memory I remember. "I am in a cold place". was my first thought and the memory was complete with what I was looking at when it was 'thought': A bare light bulb hung from the ceiling, I was cold, the wind was coming through cracks in my 'home' which was a garage that had been converted into an apartment in 1931. I knew my new baby sister was laying in the bed but my memory was of what was in front of me, the bare light bulb. I felt the cold, perhaps I heard the wind, but "I am in a cold place". was my first thought and impression. 

 

There was a 'string' on which this event linked back through a few distinct other memories that were connected to an impulse. A specific impulse.

 

The impulse itself was one that had caused me to  do something and learn something as a result of it, that I later learned from a more traditional source. The impulse itself was made distinct in this 'linking back' to my past. I can at this point in time, 11-18-2006 write about many singular events that happened only as a result of this one impulse, when it directed my attention in a direction where I noticed something I would not have noticed otherwise.