These quotations came to me at widely varying times, in unusual situations usually precisely timed. They  helped me find the path through life that is hidden but strangely lit by an inner ray of light.

"The philosopher is usually interested in a central idea that evolves over a long period of time, which may never be successfully completed and formulated into words , one that may appear to be mysterious and beyond scientific validation."      Jean Piaget 


"There exists a type of phenomenon even more mysterious than telepathy or precognition which has puzzled man since the dawn of mythology: the seemingly accidental meeting of two unrelated causal chains in a coincidental event which appears both highly improbable and highly significant." Arthur Koestler 

888888888888888888888  My comment on Emanuel Swedenborg's basic idea:

Emanuel Swedenborg wrote that man has two faculties, will and understanding. It is not news to anyone that its hard to do what one 'wills'. Job mourned that he 'did what he willed not to do, and could not do what he willed' so this condition and situation is nothing new. Although it was new to me when my body began to live a life I didn't will myself, I recognize it is an old pattern. I felt detached somehow, as though one step back from my body, and seeing in a new way what it did, similar to being actor and audience combined. It was a new kind of perception that began to 'see my whole self, body and mind and events in the real world' begin to converge, conjoin and make sense to me eventually as a life re-view. But it was much more than that. A complete idea was brought to my attention and the information and experience necessary to understand it was enacted in my life. It was like reading a new kind of book that identified me in the process and told me what I was doing several times, exactly.

 The past if there is such a location in real reality has effects now that may need to be re-interpreted and understood in a new context. The past is in our bodies but so is the future on  the continuum, the constantly moving flow of 'now'.


ISAAC NEWTON WROTE: (from Wikipedia)

Vol. I, Ch. 3 : Of the vision of the Image composed of four Metals

The folly of Interpreters has been, to foretell times and things by this Prophecy, as if God designed to make them Prophets. By this rashness they have not only exposed themselves, but brought the Prophecy also into contempt.The design of God was much otherwise. He gave this and the Prophecies of the Old Testament, not to gratify mens' curiosities by enabling them to foreknow things, but that after they were fulfilled they might be interpreted by the event, and his own Providence, not the Interpreters, be then manifested thereby to the world.

For the event of things predicted many ages before, will then be a convincing argument that the world is governed by providence.

For, as the few and obscure Prophecies concerning Christ’s first coming were for setting up the Christian religion, which all nations have since corrupted; so the many and clear Prophecies concerning the things to be done at Christ’s second coming, are not only for predicting but also for effecting a recovery and re-establishment of the long-lost truth, and setting up a kingdom wherein dwells righteousness.

The event will prove the Apocalypse; and this Prophecy, thus proved and understood, will open the old Prophets, and all together will make known the true religion, and establish it. For he that will understand the old Prophets, must begin with this; but the time is not yet come for understanding them perfectly, because the main revolution predicted in them is not yet come to pass.

 In the days of the voice of the seventh Angel, when he shall begin to sound, the mystery of God shall be finished, as he hath declared to his servants the Prophets: and then the kingdoms of this world shall become the kingdom of our Lord and his Christ, and he shall reign for ever, Apoc. x. 7. xi. 15.

There is already so much of the Prophecy fulfilled, that as many as will take pains in this study, may see sufficient instances of God’s providence: but then the signal revolutions predicted by all the holy Prophets, will at once both turn men’s eyes upon considering the predictions, and plainly interpret them. Till then we must content ourselves with interpreting what hath been already fulfilled.

Amongst the Interpreters of the last age there to scarce one of note who hath not made some discovery worth knowing; and thence I seem to gather that God is about opening these mysteries. The success of others put me upon considering it; and if I have done any thing which may be useful to following writers, I have my design.

My comment:
Not many scientists believe or know about Isaac Newton's ideas about Divine Providence; to ignore them is like thinking half an apple is the whole thing in my opinion.


 An essay on the Internet: Hermeneutics, Semiotics and liminality:                                                                                                      

"By a playful thinking that is more persuasive than the rigor of science," Heidegger tells us, the Greek words for interpreting and interpretation—hermeneuein, hermeneia can be traced back to the god Hermes.1 However questionable the etymological connection between Hermes and hermeneuein may be, hermeneutics, as the art of understanding and of textual exegesis, does stand under the sign of Hermes. Hermes is messenger who brings the word from Zeus (God); thus, the early modern use of the term hermeneutics was in relation to methods of interpreting holy scripture. An interpreter brought to mortals the message from God. Although the usage was broadened in the eighteenth and nineteenth century to take in methods of understanding and explicating both sacred and secular texts from antiquity, the term "hermeneutics" continued to suggest an interpretation which discloses something hidden from ordinary understanding and mysterious. Ancient texts are, for moderns, doubly alien: they are ancient and they are in another language. Their interpreter, poring over a text in Hebrew, Greek, or Latin, cannot fail to convey the impression that he has access to a body of knowledge from elsewhere, is a bridge to somewhere else, he is a mediator between a mysterious other world and the clean, well-lighted intelligible world in which we live and move and 'have our being.

Hermes is just such a mediator. He is the messenger between Zeus and mortals, also between Zeus and the underworld and between the underworld and mortals. Hermes crosses these ontological thresholds with ease. A notorious thief, according to legend, he crosses the threshold of legality without a qualm. "Marshal of dreams," he mediates between waking and dreaming, day and night. Wearer of a cap of invisibility, he can become invisible or visible at will. Master of night tricks, he can cover himself with night. Master of sleep, he can wake the sleeping or put the waking to sleep. Liminality or marginality is his very essence.


One of the most informative fragments is this from Ernst Cassirer, Mythic Consciousness page 235. Its worth reading.

 "Thus far we have attempted in line with the general task of the philosophy of Symbolic Forms to represent myth as a unitary energy of the human spirit: a self contained form of interpretation which asserts itself amid all the diversity of the objective material it presents. From this standpoint we have attempted to disclose the objective categories of mythical thinking—not as though we were dealing with rigid schemata of the spirit, fixed once and for all, but with a view to finding definite original trends of formation. Behind the vast abundance of mythical forms we have thus sought to lay bare a unitary formative power and the laws according to which this power operates. But myth would be no truly spiritual form if its unity signified merely a simplicity without contradictions. Its basic form does not unfold and imprint itself on new motifs and figures in the manner of a simple natural process; its development is not the tranquil growth of a seed which was present and ready made from the very first, which merely requires certain definite outward conditions in order to unfold and make itself manifest. The separate stages of its development do not simply follow but rather confront one another often in sharp opposition. The progress of myth does not mean merely that certain basic traits, certain spiritual determinations of earlier stages are developed and completed but also that they are negated and totally eradicated. And this dialectic can be shown not only in the transformation of the contents of the mythical consciousness but in its dominant "inner form." It seizes upon the function of mythical formation as such and transforms it from within. This function can operate only by continuously producing new form—objective expressions of the inner and outwards universe as it presents itself to the eye which the law that governs it becomes a problem. This may seem strange at first glance for we do not usually give the naïve mythical consciousness credit for such a change of attitude.

And indeed we have not to do with an act of conscious theoretical reflection, in which myth apprehends itself and in which it turns against its own foundations and presuppositions.
Even in this turn the mythical consciousness remains within itself. It does not move out of its sphere or pass into a totally different "principle" but in completing its own cycle it ends by breaking through it. This fulfillment which is at the same time a transcendence, results from the relation of myth toward its own image world. Myth can manifest itself only in this image world; as the mythical consciousness advances it comes to see this manifestation as something "outside" which is not wholly adequate to its own drive for expression.                      

Here lies the basis of the conflict which becomes gradually sharper which creates a cleavage within the mythical consciousness and yet in this very cleavage discloses the ultimate depths of myth. The positivistic philosophy of history and culture as formulated especially by Comte assumes a hierarchy of cultural development by which mankind gradually rises from the primitive phases of consciousness.

 The goal of myth and religion must here be sought outside themselves in a fundamentally different sphere. But then it becomes impossible to apprehend the true nature and the purely inward dynamic of the mythical religious spirit. This dynamic is truly disclosed only if it can be shown that myth and religion have within them their own source of motion, that from their beginnings down to their supreme productions they are determined by their own motives and fed from their own wellsprings. Even where they pass far beyond these first beginnings they do not abandon their native spiritual soil. Their positions do not suddenly and immediately shift into negations; rather it can be shown that every step they take even in their own sphere, bears as it were a two fold omen. To the continuous building up of the mythical world there corresponds a continuous drive to surpass it but in such a way that both the position and the negation belong to the form of the mythical –religions consciousness itself and in it join to constitutes a single indivisible act. The process of destruction proves on closer scrutiny to be a process of self assertion; conversely the later can only be effected on the basis of the former and it is only in their permanent cooperation that the two together produce the true essence and meaning of mythical religious form.

In In the development of linguistic forms we differentiated three stages which we designated as those of mimetic, analogical and symbolic expression.


The Roots of Bach's' Art

Some artists are subjective, some objective. The art of the former has its source in their personality; their work is almost independent of the epoch in which they live. A law unto themselves, they place themselves in opposition to their epoch and originate new forms for the expression of their ideas. Of this
type was Richard Wagner.

Bach belongs to the order of objective artists. they are wholly of their own time and work only with the forms and the ideas that their time proffers them. They exercise no criticism upon the media of artistic expression that they find lying ready to their hand, and feel no inner compulsion to open out new paths. Their art not coming soley from the stimulus of their outer experience, we need not seek the roots of their work in the fortunes of its creator. In them the artistic personality exists independently of the human, the latter remaining in the background as if it were something almost accidental. Bach's works would have been the same even if this existence had run quite another course. Did we know more of his life
than is now the case and were we in possession of all the letters he had ever written, we should still be not better informed as to the inward sources of his works than we are now.

The art of the objective artist is not impersonal but super-personal. It is as if he felt only one impulse to express again what he already finds in existence but to express it definitively in unique perfections. it is not he who lives, it is the spirit of the time that lives in him.  Note: IT IS NOT HE WHO
LIVES, IT IS THE SPIRIT OF THE TIME THAT LIVES IN HIM.) All the artistic endeavors, desires, creations, aspirations and errors of his own and of previous generations are concentrated and worked out to their conclusions in him.  Note: ALL THE ARTISTIC ENDEAVORS, DESIRES, CREATIONS, ASPIRATIONS AND ERRORS OF HIS OWN AND OF PREVIOUS GENERATIONS ARE CONCENTRATED AND WORKED OUT TO THEIR CONCLUSIONS IN HIM.)

In this respect the greatest German musician has his analogue only in the greatest of German philosophers. Kant's work has the same impersonal character. He is merely the brain in which the philosophical ideas and problems of his day come to fruition. Note: HE IS MERELY THE BRAIN IN WHICH THE PHILOSOPHICAL IDEAS AND  PROBLEMS OF HIS DAY COME TO FRUITION.) Moreover he uses unconcernedly the scholastic forms and
terminology of the time, just as Bach took up the musical forms offered to him by his epoch without examining them.

Bach indeed is clearly not a single but a universal personality. He profited by the musical development of three of four generations. When we pursue the history of this family, which occupies  so unique a position in the art life of Germany, we must have the feeling that everything that is happening there must culminate in something consummate. We feel it to be a matter of course that some day a Bach shall come in
whom all those other Bach's shall find a posthumous existence, one in whom the fragment of German Music that has been embodied in this family shall find its' completion.

 Johann Sebastian Bach to speak the language of Kant, is a historical postulate.

Plato , Education of the Philosopher Kings, Sophia Project 

I quite admit the difficulty of believing that in every man there is an eye of the soul which when by other pursuits (is)  lost and dimmed, is  (however) by these  (the study of arithmetic/geometry) purified and illumined;   and is more precious far than ten thousand bodily eyes, for by it alone is truth seen (....'is more worthy of development than all the bodily senses' is another translation from a different author. ) Now there are two classes of persons: one class of those who will agree with you and will take your words as a revelation; another class to whom they will be utterly unmeaning, and who will naturally deem them to be idle tales, for they see no sort of profit which is to be obtained from them. And therefore you had better decide at once with which of the two you are proposing to argue.


This quotation happened, it was a real world event, it was perfect timing one day when I was at work, reading this book on my break. I worked in a very noisy factory, where airplane parts are made. It was a painfully noisy place until I got used to the noises. When I read certain words the volume was turned up, I suddenly heard the noises in the factory. Its an ugly symphony of whistles, grindings, drills, hisses and more. When I was reading I didn't hear them but suddenly I felt them because the words I was reading affected my body. Suddenly I felt the Earth as a space ship, because the sounds of being on a huge vessel were around me. Other ideas were new to me, and they were introduced for the first time. I had never thought of 'subjective' or 'objective' and I was puzzled by what the author meant.  I had no love for Bach's music, then, Beethoven, Mozart, Chopin, Verdi were my favorites. The content of this quotation was read in the same location and conditions that I mentioned above, I was at work, on break, reading and suddenly the noises around me, were turned up in volume, they blended with the words.

  The Future Of Man de Chardin  A Note on Progress

The conflict dates from the day when one man, flying in the face of appearance, perceived that the forces of nature are no more unalterably fixed in their orbits than the stars themselves, but that their serene arrangement around us depicts the flow of a tremendous tide, the day on which a first voice rang out, crying to Mankind peacefully slumbering on the raft of Earth: "We are moving! We are going forward!"

It is a pleasant and dramatic spectacle that of Mankind divided to its very depths into two irrevocably opposed camps, one looking towards the horizon and proclaiming with all its' newfound faith:  "We are moving", and the other without shifting its positions, obstinately maintaining, "Nothing Changes.
We are not Moving at all."

These latter, the "immobilists", though they lack passion, (immobility has never inspired anyone with enthusiasm!) have commonsense on their side, habit of thought, inertia, pessimism and also to some extent, morality and religion. Nothing, they argue appears to have changed since man began to hand down the memory of the past, not the undulations of the earth, or the  forms of life, or the genius of Man or even his goodness. Thus far practical experimentation has failed to modify the fundamental characteristic of even the most humble plant. Human suffering, vice and war, although they may momentarily abate, recur from age to age with an increasing virulence. even the striving after progress contributes to the sum of evil: to effect change is to undermine the painfully established traditional order whereby the distress of living creature is reduced to a minimum. What innovator has not re-tapped the springs of blood and tears? For the sake of human tranquility, in the name of Fact, and in the defense of the sacred Established Order, the immobilists forbid the earth to  move.  Nothing changes, they say or can change. The raft must drift purposelessly on a shoreless sea.

But the other half of mankind, startled by the lookouts cry has left the huddle where the rest of the crew sit with their heads together telling time honored tales. Gazing out over the dark sea, they study for themselves the lapping of waters long the hull of the craft that bears them, breath the scents born to them on the breeze, gaze at the shadows cast from pole to pole by a changeless eternity. And for these all
things, while remaining separately the same the ripple of water, the scent of the air, the lights in the sky become linked together and acquire a new sense: the fixed and random Universe is seen to move.

No one who has seen this vision can be restrained from guarding and proclaiming it. To testify to my Faith in it, and to show reasons, is my purpose here.

My comment:  I hope these abstractions from Bach and Chardin's thought will begin to operate so that a  similar understanding of the 'common denominators' of the two books becomes available to you, to think about. 


The 'literal sense' as I refer to it is quite different than you understand it, I don't know if I could explain it except that it may not be operative in you at this time, then again it may be what causes you to experience 'highlighted moments, events, etc'.

I did not know anything about Oriental philosophies (except what I'd read in Men Who Walked With God, just before  I chanced to read The Spirit of the Valley by Suki Colegrave. The ideas in both books were new to me but The Spirit of the Valley made such an impact on me because as a female I had experienced a literalness in how the qualities of a male in my life, are distinctly separated from the female's.  The history of the world manifests certain points of very great changes, indirectly visible but Chardin knew the greatest change was beginning in his time, when so many great authors wrote about what they were experiencing. The Eastern way of speaking of 'feminine principles' and 'masculine principles' was not literally about males and females, but about attributes, qualities, aspects, etc, I believe. At a point in Time, a crystallization apparently rendered them into categories of 'weak/strong' and 'me/not me'. It was not my experience that any male would want to have feminine qualities or habits. I met some interesting examples at work, of how males spoke about females, openly then, but in 2011, its not possible to speak so openly. 888888888


Viggo Mortensen quote:

What is Wyrd?
By Arlea Æðelwyrd Hunt-Anschütz
Copyright © by A. Æ. Hunt-Anschütz 2000 

One ramification of Wyrd in personal human terms is that our past (both our ancestry and our personal
history) affects us continually. Who we are, where we are, and what we are doing today is dependent on
actions we have taken in the past and actions others have taken in the past which have affected us in some
way. And every choice we make in the present builds upon choices we have previously made. The philosopher Schopenhauer voiced the notion that "our lives are somehow irresistibly shaped into a
coherent whole by forces beyond our conscious will".[5] He believed that neither chance events nor
inborn character were enough to explain the consistency and direction in the life course of an individual, and so he postulated "the intention of Fate" to explain this controlling force in our lives. Many people have equated the notion of Wyrd with this sort of "fate" concept, and the Norns with the Moerae or Parcae, the Greek and Roman Fates. However, to do so is to ignore the constant interplay between personal Wyrd and universal Wyrd and the role we each play in creating our own destiny. 

Transcendent speculation upon an apparent intention in the life of an individual:

Campbell, who observed that the experiences and illuminations of childhood and early youth become in later life the types, standards and patterns of all subsequent knowledge and experience, or as it were, the categories according to which all later things are classified—not always consciously, however. And so it is that in
our childhood years the foundation is laid of our later view of the world, and with that, our perception of
its superficiality or depth: it will be in later years unfolded and fulfilled, not essentially changed. 
We all experience many freakish and unexpected events you have to be open to suffering a little. The
philosopher Schopenhauer talked about how out of the randomness, there is an apparent intention in the fate
of an individual that can be glimpsed later on. When you are an old guy, you can look back, and maybe this
rambling life has some through-line. Others can see it better sometimes. But when you glimpse it yourself,
you see it more clearly than anyone”



Transcendent speculation upon an apparent intention in the life of an individual

MOYERS: So the experience of God is beyond description, but we feel compelled to try to describe
CAMPBELL: That’s right. Schopenhauer, in his splendid essay called "On an Apparent Intention in the Fate of
the Individual," points out that when you reach an advanced age and look back over your lifetime, it can
seem to have had a consistent order and plan, as though composed by some novelist. Events that when
they occurred had seemed accidental and of little moment turn out to have been indispensable factors in
the composition of a consistent plot.

So who composed that plot? Schopenhauer suggests that just as your dreams are composed by an aspect of yourself of which your consciousness is unaware, so, too, your whole life is composed by the will within you. And just as
people whom you will have met apparently by mere chance became leading agents in the structuring of
your life, so, too, will you have served unknowingly as an agent, giving meaning to the lives of others,
The whole thing gears together like one big symphony,with everything unconsciously structuring everything
else. And Schopenhauer concludes that it is as though our lives were the features of the one great dream of
a single dreamer in which all the dream characters dream, too; so that everything links to everything
else, moved by the one will to life which is the universal will in nature.

Below is a paragraph that I noticed in "War In Heaven" by Charles Williams. It's a fictional book by an unusual author, recognized for his ability to create eerily real experiences  of  the supernatural in his stories.  I  selected it to make a point  about a function of mind that  I experienced myself, as an 'abstracting sense' because it functioned as a kind of mental highlighter, selecting this paragraph from the book.   Read the paragraph through. Then read only the highlighted words. 

"When Mr. Batesby had spoken that morning it had seemed as if two streams of things,  actual events and his own meditations had flowed gently together; as if not he but Life were solving the problem in the natural process of the world. He reminded himself now that such a simplicity was unlikely; explanations did not lucidly arise from mere accidents and present themselves as all but an ordered whole.

 This is an accurate description of the process itself, the pattern itself that caused me to begin to experience the abstracted content as though I was being talked to, instructed at times about information related to what I was thinking about, reading and some detail of whatever I was doing at the time. I had to discover that association, it was not an easy task. The awareness that what I was  doing physically and mentally was being  'said' to me was not easy to trust even when it was obvious after years of 'events' in my real life situations. Oddly, it's the interaction of opposites to create a fact, a truth that described to me in  exact words how a personalized life flow can be noticed.

 (My first real encounter with the process happened when I read a few paragraphs in The Weaver of Dreams by Myrtle Reed, a book authored in 1909 which are on this page further down. The shock I felt when I read the words that described two kinds of people was real and puzzling to me, but it worked like a highlighter to abstract them from embeddedness in the book. They described a detail about my actual situation at the time I read the words but I did not suspect that then. Years of events had to happen to reveal that attribute of so called 'synchronicities'.)


Myrtle Reed: The Weaver of Dreams 1909   

From The Weaver of Dreams on page 175 by Myrtle Reed,. It's  a fictional book that  I read in the early 1980's. It was written when C. G. Jung, Sigmund Freud, P. D. Ouspensky, G. I. Gurdjieff, quantum physicists were 'discovering' what was implied by the discoveries of non-Euclidean geometries, i.e. that the physical world is maintained by and derived by 'another level' of energy. In this paragraph she formulates an idea about 'man' that exceeds anything authored by any of the preceding masculine 'discovers'!

 `"I don't believe you can live with other people and not absorb something from their ways of thinking and manner of expressing themselves. Moreover Aunt Cynthia has a very penetrating personality."

"All strong natures have." Chandler answered. "Some people are shaped wholly by their environment, as plastic material conforms to the receptacle in which it is placed. Others mould their environment to meet the demands of individuality."

"Can it be done?" asked Judith, thoughtfully.

"Always, if one is strong enough. From mysterious sources we draw to ourselves that which we require or expect. If a tree may lift into it's trunk the materials for sap and fibre, and if the moon may control the tides why should not thought which is the most wonderful and powerful of forces bring that which we require or expect into one's daily life, if not the absolute control of circumstances."  

" From mysterious sources we draw to ourselves that which we require or expect. If a tree may lift into it's trunk the materials for sap and fibre, and if the moon may control the tides why should not thought which is the most wonderful and powerful of forces bring that which we require or expect into one's daily life, if not the absolute control of circumstances?."

The words 'require' and 'expect' are of very great significance, because the 'expectations' of the 'observer' have recently been identified as important, in regards to scientific experiments. Theodore Reik's statement that "No studies have been done about the effects of one person's unconsciousness on another." may be understood to be a description of what happens now in normal life. Self observation and self knowledge is almost impossible to achieve, but in life a process and a pattern attempts to create that information, its a real 'life re-view'.

This was the first experience I had in which reading words in a book caused a body response that I could not name, nor see a reason for happening when  I read them for the first time in a book.  Fifteen years later I realized they described a situation I was just beginning to experience, a 'bond' with another person, and that person already had a 'bond' of sorts with his family and the European contents of written history. History as I had to discover and live through myself is his story. There is no female content in history but I didn't suspect that when I read the book. The first sentence was really a statement to me, being 'said' to me but I could not have recognized it. What happened for years in my daily life was somewhat similar, and it seemed the planet itself  explained much that I didn't understand because I knew so little about 'psychiatry', or much of  anything else from 'books' and education.




Its 2017, the 3rd day of January and I'm 85 as of yesterday. I re-read John C Woodcock's essay, Sewing His Own Garments. Near the end of the story I re-read this few paragraphs, which in my opinion described what is happening now in the psychic reality that creates the mysterious contact between the human race,individually and collectively: I believe the comic book heros, the science fictions that I read when I was a young girl, the movies that depict Ancient and medieval times and myths is all the evidence any one requires as proof:

"So far I have shown that a certain telos of Being is taking place in which fictional reality is beginning to penetrate our ordinary empirical reality, gaining equal ontological status as empirical reality but remaining as fictional reality. This is an autonomous process, not human-driven. We could call it the autonomous process of the objective psyche. While we remain unconscious of our personal tendencies towards passivity, identification, and possession, these autonomous processes of the objective psyche emerge into the world in grotesque forms, as Charles Williams writes so beautifully and graphically.17 A stark example of this lies in well-established governmental foreign policy strategies. Action on the international stage is based on “worse-case scenarios”, images of the future, that, when acted out unconsciously,
lead to disaster after disaster. Our identification with unconscious terrors coupled with our desire for power and control brings about “grotesque forms in the world” as Barfield says. The way of the "artist" demands that the artist is relatively free of such unconsciousness before she can participate with the autonomous processes of the objective psyche. Love can then be the basis of action, as fresh connections (an erotic power) are made between the spontaneous gifts of the psyche that can be received in their own terms, uncontaminated by the unconscious desires of the ego and history." 



John Woodcock wrote this few paragraphs in his booklet, Sewing His Own Garment it resonated in my thoughts and experiences:  So far I have shown that a certain telos of Being is taking place in which fictional reality is beginning to penetrate our ordinary empirical reality, gaining equal ontological status as empirical reality but remaining as fictional reality.16 This is an autonomous process, not human-driven. We could call it the autonomous process of the objective psyche. While we remain unconscious of our personal tendencies towards passivity, identification, and possession, these autonomous processes of the objective psyche emerge into the world in grotesque forms, as Charles Williams writes so beautifully and graphically.17 A stark example of this lies in well-established governmental foreign policy strategies. Action on the international stage is based on “worse-case scenarios”, images of the future, that, when acted out unconsciously, Page 21 of 22 lead to disaster after disaster. Our identification with unconscious terrors coupled with our desire for power and control brings about “grotesque forms in the world” as Barfield says. The way of the "artist" demands that the artist is relatively free of such unconsciousness before she can participate with the autonomous processes of the objective psyche. Love can then be the basis of action, as fresh connections (an erotic power) are made between the spontaneous gifts of the psyche that can be received in their own terms, uncontaminated by the unconscious desires of the ego.


"It seemed to her that he was ready to live and die for emotional errors as women did, but that like most men he did not call them emotional errors; he called them history, philosophy, metaphysics, science." Anaïs Nin, The Four Chambered Heart


 The example from Charles Williams became:

"It seemed as if two streams of things, actual events and his/her own meditations, had flowed gently together. As if Life were solving the problem in the natural process of the world. Explanations did lucidly arise from mere accidents and present themselves as all but an ordered whole."

A process of 'abstraction' is what I hope to explain.  The word 'abstraction' describes the process of finding and lifting out of embeddedness the information relevant to the idea, which was itself abstracted from embeddedness in two books I read when I was a young woman.  

My life theme was a 'central idea' that  I had to discover in the years after 1984, when I was 52 years old. The idea is contained in that quotation, but I read it only about a  decade ago, that was in the late 1990s. I knew nothing about philosophy and history although I was named the class philosopher in 1950 when I  graduated! In 2000 I went to the 50th year of the class of 1950, the alumna gathering of my class. But  even then I was not fully aware of how 'my central idea' related to a 'secret about the insane, just around the corner, just out of sight'. The secret as I had to discover is about the 'kingdom of heaven, which is within you' and a language that can create its own meaning from an individual's life content. It's a process that identifies an individual specifically and synchronizes events, 'interfaces' with that individual specifically.

 I was in my fifties when my 'central idea' was made known to me, the idea  had been formed  independent from my  own will, in a subtle but visible(barely)process from two books I'd read, The Bridge of San Luis Rey by ThorntonWilder and Childhood's End by Arthur C. Clarke.

I  had  without knowing it, already been living the 'life' of characters  described in Greek myths and stories that I didn't realize had psychological interpretations after Freud created the modern psychiatric realm of information. That 'history' as I had to discover is his story, and had nothing to do with me as a real person. Stereotypes and patterns have changed radically since 1984 when I began to experience the empty nest syndrome, and newer patterns associated with advances in technology, such as 'real men don't ask directions'.

 After 1984 I lived the life of Echo literally. 'Echo' who repeated the last words Narcissus said to his reflection in a pool  was the first  Greek goddess's personality  that I recognized I was living. But one of my grandparents had actually called me Juno, because June is my middle name.  The literalness of a myth, a fictional man that could not recognize his own reflection (thought) as his own, and about himself (at times, this is not a constant) was and is a real part of my actual life drama and is my central idea.

 Projection is a mechanism of mind that the Greeks knew about: "If a bull created a picture of God it would look like a bull." E. R. Dodds, Greeks and the Irrational.

Thought is a reflection and there are in the mind mechanisms that alter the direction of material world impressions that produce thought. One mechanism creates for a time, self reference, self observation and overall a real life re-view, literally if a person can learn to get the 'messages'. That is a temporary phase on a continuum, at least that's been my experience, its a continuum that is probably like a moebius band.

 It was real world circumstances in my life that caused me (I don't believe I'm unusual) to live the fact of Pandora, Cassandra, and finally Athena, who was born fully grown from a man's head. The condition of participation mystique  created a new mind in 'me', a kind of immaculate conception that may have been described in Greek stories, in myths, epics and dramas.

The following  quotation is from Aeschylus drama,  The Eumenides. The 'child of Olympian Zeus' refers to Athena, who sprang fully grown from Zeus,  her fathers' 'head'. This quotation refers to a fact that I became aware of in my life, about the process of individuation. There are other names for the same process, regeneration was Emanuel Swedenborg's name and it is accurate literally. This selection of quotations is one aspect of how it occurred in this life, mine.  I had to discover every fact and concept but basically the thing described its self and what I was actually doing, many times exactly and precisely but always in some detail or concept. Immaculate conception may be explained: 

[Lines 657-666] I will explain this, too, and see how correctly I will speak. The mother of what is called her child is not the parent, but the nurse of the newly-sown embryo.   The one who mounts is the parent, whereas she, as a stranger for a stranger,  preserves the young plant, if the god does not harm it. And I will show you proof of what I say: a father might exist without a mother. A witness is here at hand, the child of Olympian Zeus, who was not nursed in the darkness of a womb,  and she is such a child as no goddess could give birth to.

Recently I read some articles about how the gender of an embryo is determined, and develops. I'd read that all embryos are female in the beginning but that's a major digression to write about at this point. These quotations came to me over a span of  almost 30 years, today is June 26, 2012.


C. G. Jung, 1934: The great events of world history are at bottom profoundly unimportant. In the last analysis, the essential thing is the life of the individual. This alone makes history. Here alone do the great transformations first take place and the whole future, the whole history of the world ultimately springs as a gigantic summation from these hidden sources: in individuals.  In our most private and subjective lives we are not only the passive witness of our age and its suffers but also it’s makers. We make our epoch.


Following an introduction to what happened in my mind in 1984 are some quotations  that came to me over a span of 4 decades, between 1970 and 2011. They help me to remember how a 'whole idea' as well as how it was 'discovered'  was revealed to me, in fragments after 1984 when I had my first 'mindquake'. That was a package of memories from my past that told a story to me about my life, in a flash of time. But there was much information that was not visible to me immediately. The experiences in my life during the next 5 years provided situations and circumstances that caused me to see a relationship to certain thought content that I couldn't articulate, then to the events in my daily life and the content of the first mindquake. What I was doing physically was described to me, several times! 

In 1989 I had 2 smaller mindquakes that linked to the first one as well as to my family history, to experiences other than my own, that family members had in their past. I could relate to those mindquakes when they happened, because I'd travelled a distance in the mind that I didn't suspect existed. I saw how  the contents of depths of mind are embedded. It was obvious a pattern in Time was at work in  our lives. The irony is that I recognized what was at work myself but I didn't have the kind of language I needed to describe it when I went into 'therapy'. What happened in my first session is almost beyond description now because so much has changed since 1984. Psychiatric terms and a degree of information of what they mean is everywhere now, in news, movies, television shows. Few people read the history and origin of modern psychology and know about its connection to the past.

The words and information I needed came to me but  I had to recognize that was happening in a form that was at times literally a real shock to me. It began when a sprinkling of events affected my body, then after 1984 a flood of the same kind of events nearly overwhelmed me. Then the planet or some 'other' seemed to speak through what others in my life and objects that use words were doing and saying. I noticed slowly that  ".....two streams of things, actual events and my own meditations, .... flowed gently together........ as if ....... Life were solving the problem in the natural process of the world........explanations did .....lucidly arise from mere accidents and present themselves as all but an ordered whole."

 The  1984 package included information  about my life as well as how information was created in fragments, abstracted from every day life situations using my memory and understanding of my past, and certain people who acted as though we were all working on the same idea after 1980!  But a fragment was sometimes an entire book or several books; an example is Theodore Reik especially because several of his books had critical information in them. William Glasser is another example. His 'Stations of the Mind' introduced me to an idea I'd not thought about ever, even once in my life: that there is a part of the mind that seems to  pre-'view' information then select what to admit to consciousness, to maintain comfort and avoid anxiety.

The 'whole idea' was planted in my mind when I was very young, it developed in a visible activity of my mind that selected a few moments in my  life, then retrieving those memories so that I noticed them, then became curious about them, individually, not linking them together. The re-occurring memories were a foundation laid down in advance of when I could understand them.

 It is evidence  to me that there is a way to communicate with 'man' from another 'world'  outside of 'normal' experience. These quotations help but do not explain the processes of mind, how attention is guided, held almost captive and how information grows, how understanding changes. Some of these quotations point to but do not explain mental processes that operate mechanically but efficiently in a visible way on material world content that is unique to every individual.   

The quotation from Charles William's War in Heaven  is a precise description of the process of life hidden behind the shadow of ordinary 'rational' experience that 'abstracts out' certain unique content, particular to the life of that individual. Any author of a non-fictional book has read many books but only certain content 'registered' or fitted into the authors' needs. Almost every one has had someone quote from the bible to prove some point, the  form is very old.

 I became aware of observing what was going on in my mind, since it was a visible process also, and distinctly separate from what was outside of my eyes and body. That was a fact for several years anyway.  Arthur Koestler uses different words in his nonfictional book, The Roots of Coincidence but he writes about the same idea:


  The following paragraph seems to me to be the same  idea, written by another person 1600 years later in Time: Emanuel Swedenborg.

From Arcana Coelestia 9407 "But a person who is unable to think on a higher level of understanding, that is, on a level altogether above material things, cannot grasp any of this, not even the idea that it is possible for a sense to exist in the Word other than the one perceived in the letter. If that person is told that the letter holds within itself a spiritual sense which has to do with truth, and that this in turn holds within itself a celestial sense which has to do with good, and also that these senses shine through the literal sense, he will be taken aback at first, then dismiss the idea as nonsense, and finally ridicule it. Actual experience has shown me that this is what people are like in the Christian world at the present day, especially the learned, and that those who reason against that truth boast of being wiser than those who uphold it. Yet the learning in earliest times, which were called golden and silver ages, had consisted in speaking and in writing in ways in which no attention was be paid to the literal meaning other than to enable hidden wisdom to shine through it, as becomes perfectly clear from the oldest books, including those by gentile authors, as well as from fragments in their languages. For their knowledge was primarily the knowledge of correspondences and the knowledge of representations, which forms of knowledge at the present day are some of those which have been lost."


 From The Book of the Soul: The Bible, Rev. Goldsack, 1911

"So that we may conclude that history in its widest sense would be employed as the vehicle of Revelation. 'Terms, words, things already known to prophet or scribe would be wisely, deliberately selected by God
and put by God into the preachers' mouth and onto the paper through the scribes' pen and thus a Divine
parable would be produced. The outward form and language drawn from the human mind: the inward thought
and meaning from the  mind of God. I say even so do we teach and educate our children and each other. From
the known to the unknown: by the concrete to the abstract: through the natural to the spiritual. And
therefore in  making a Revelation to man, God would use and could use only the language already available.
But God would use it, not to tell us about any historical person or event or subject; but to inform
us concerning  Himself, His nature, the human soul and concerning the connection and the relationship between
Himself and humanity the prime and constant fact of our existence."


C. G. Jung: writing about 'patterns' although he named them 'archetypes', energized and 'affective' patterns that arose in Time. . I believe a pattern has to be named a pattern, and it's mechanical operation consciously understood. .

"There are as many archetypes as there are typical situations in life. Endless repetition has engraved these experiences into our psychic constitution, not in the form of images filled with content, but at first only as forms without content, representing merely the possibility of a certain type of perception and action. When a situation occurs which corresponds to a given archetype that archetype becomes activated and a compulsiveness appears, which, like an instinctual drive, gains its way against all reason and will, or else produces a conflict of pathological dimensions, that is to say, a neurosis."


Emerson,  from his essay The Oversoul: I wish I could describe what happened to me as I read these words for the first time, probably in 1985 or thereabouts. The problems in my life were explained to me when I first read this essay. But the literal words seemed to speak directly to me also.

The things that are really for thee gravitate to thee. You are running to seek your friend. Let your feet run, but your mind need not. ………O, believe, as thou livest, that every sound that is spoken over the round world, which thou oughtest to hear, will vibrate on thine ear! Every proverb, every book, every byword that belongs to thee for aid or comfort, shall surely come home through open or winding passages. Every friend whom not thy fantastic will, but the great and tender heart in thee craveth, shall lock thee in his embrace. And this, because the heart in thee is the heart of all; not a valve, not a wall, not an intersection is there anywhere in nature, but one blood rolls uninterruptedly an endless circulation through all men, as the water of the globe is all one sea, and, truly seen, its tide is one. 

….So come I to live in thoughts, and act with energies, which are immortal. Thus revering the soul, and learning, as the ancient said, that "its beauty is immense," man will come to see that the world is the perennial miracle which the soul worketh, and be less astonished at particular wonders; he will learn that there is no profane history; that all history is sacred; that the universe is represented in an atom, in a moment of time. He will weave no longer a spotted life of shreds and patches, but he will live with a divine unity. He will cease from what is base and frivolous in his life, and be content with all places and with any service he can render. He will calmly front the morrow in the negligency of that trust which carries God with it, and so hath already the whole future in the bottom of the heart….Emerson, The Oversoul


excerpt from: "The Politics of Experience" by R.D. Laing, chapter 3

The Mystification of Experience

It is not enough to destroy one's own and other people's experience. One must overlay this devastation by a false consciousness inured, as Marcuse puts it, to its own falsity. Exploitation must not be seen as such. It must be seen as benevolence. Persecution preferably should not need to be invalidated as the figment of a paranoid imagination; it should be experienced as kindness. Marx described mystification and showed its function in his day. Orwell's time is already with us. The colonists not only mystify the natives, in the way that Fanon so clearly shows, they have to mystify themselves. We in Europe and North America are the colonists, and in order to sustain our amazing images of ourselves as God's gift to the vast majority of the starving human species, we have to interiorize our violence upon ourselves and our children and to employ the rhetoric of morality to describe this process.

In order to rationalize our industrial military complex, we have to destroy our capacity to see clearly any more what is in front of, and to imagine what is beyond, our noses. Long before a thermonuclear war can come about, we have had to lay waste to our own sanity. We begin with the children. It is imperative to catch them in time. Without the most thorough and rapid brainwashing their dirty minds would see through our dirty tricks. Children are not yet fools, but we shall turn them into imbeciles like ourselves, with high I.Q.'s, if possible.

From the moment of birth, when the Stone Age baby confronts the twentieth century mother, the baby is subjected to those forces of violence, called love, as its mother and father, and their parents and their parents before them, have been. These forces are mainly concerned with destroying most of its potentialities, and on the whole this enterprise is successful. By the time the new human being is fifteen or so, we are left with a being like ourselves, a half crazed creature more or less adjusted to a mad world. This is normality in our present age.

Love and violence, properly speaking, are polar opposites. Love lets the other be, but with affection and concern. Violence attempts to constrain the other's freedom, to force him to act in the way we desire, but with ultimate lack of concern, with indifference to the other's own existence or destiny.

We are effectively destroying ourselves by violence masquerading as love.


 ~John Nash  (Russell Crowe), A Beautiful Mind.

" I've always believed in numbers. In the equations and logics that lead to reason. But after a lifetime of such pursuits, I ask, what truly is logic? Who decides reason? My quest has taken me through physical, the metaphysical, the delusional, and back.  And I have made the most important discovery of my career. The most important discovery of my life. It is only in the mysterious equations of love, that any logical reasons can be found."