Here's the book list, which I have not updated after about 2007. .

There's a kind of 'coincidence' in the list:  I recognized over a span of years when I worked for Boeing,  a relationship between the title of the book, and the content of the book to what was happening in my life at the time I read the book. This was not easy to recognize. The content of the book as well as the title is significant and important although that kind  general  relationship is more difficult to recognize than specific individual events like this example: I was in a hurry to get home from work to see a Dr. Phil show and I was stuck in traffic. That was before I had a cable box with a recording unit. Traffic was stuck in place, nobody was moving when I glanced at the clock which said 3:14 just when a car beside me moved ahead a car length. I noticed the license tab was 314 TOO.  That was an easy to recognize relationship but other details, many events that had happened over a span of years were instantly connected to this event. The pi model that stands inside the Boeing Auburn security gates had become a focus in my thought and in my material life events after a mindquake I'd had in 1989. What is a mindquake? Its huge batches of information that is suddenly there in my mind. I'd had several smaller batches after an enormous batch in 1984. The word 'download' was not in my vocabulary even in 1989 but it was a download of information about my specific life contents.

I had to discover the content of this mindquake as though it was in a far away galaxy because it happened in a depth of mind that I didn't suspect exists between my ears. I began to notice the strangest thing: people I knew well, one in particular and sometimes people I didn't know very well seemed to be reading my unspoken, unspeakable inner content.

The first book came to my attention in this way, when my family went to the Auction in Roseville, California at Christmas in 1981.

I wasn't feeling well,  I had lost weight, my body felt lethargic but was also very trembly so that I couldn't rest.  My mind was full of thought about a dream I'd had a few months previously so I had not slept normally.  I heard what was going on all night long and I didn't have the sense of having waked up from sleep. My mind was busy all the night and day, and I was puzzled by how a short vivid dream could produce so much thought. The thought was always about one man who had been in the dream. That didn't change until about 1986 but I didn't notice new content when it began to filter into the non-stop stream of thought. The first mindquake I had in 1989 brought that change into focus. I had two of them in 1989. The second one happened when I read the copyright statement at the  back page in Petr Beckmann's History of Pi. I called him and he answered the phone much to my surprise and he told me he was dying.

The Impersonal Life   ( 1981 )   DeVorss Publishing Company   "To  you who read, I AM come. To you who reads,  I AM speaking.              The words made me close the book and put it in my pocket.  I felt something but didn't use the word 'weird' at that point.

Title                                       Date I read the book        Author                            Comment about the experience

The Weaver Of Dreams              (1982)                 Myrtle Reed  (fiction)      Page 175-176

The Body’s Rapture                        (1982)                 Jules Romain              1911 Mental travel.  It's about a determined woman that visits her lover, out of body.

Reality Therapy                               (1983)                William Glasser           "All behavior aberrations are the result of an evasion or a failure to take responsibility  to satisfy the needs of the organism."

Mental Health Or Mental Illness      (1983)               William Glasser            "Every individual needs relationship with at least one sane person."

Psychology For The Layman            (1983)              Eric Berne             An image of a 'healthy ego' shaped like a donut: then it had bites around the edges and was an image of thin in places ego';  then the bites were filled in with black to show a thin in places ego  with borrowed ego. I wondered how that would feel.

Mr. God, This Is Anna                 (1984)               Fynn                  I was reading this little book in 1984 when I struggled to make a skirt from a remnant of fabric that was a mirror image plaid and I didn't have enough fabric for the pattern I'd owned for years but had never opened. But a thought occurred into my mind when I saw the fabric as I walked through a fabric shop, to make the skirt from that pattern. A thought occurred into my mind while I tried to fit the pattern pieces to the stripes and colors: "You've got to get this right the first time." I remembered that I'd heard those exact words in the past, from the man who was in the dream that was creating so much non-stop thought that I couldn't rest.            

 

Contact                                             1985             Carl Sagan        The entire book was about first contact with aliens. A message was decoded in layers and the idea of a palimpsest was introduced as well as illustrating how to learn a new language taught by an invisible teacher.

The Obsessive Personality               ( 1985)              Saltzmann          I hadn't read  books like this one; it was information that was new to me.                

Steppenwolfe                                    1986 )            Herman Hesse   This book was so strange, I felt compelled to read it. I didn't understand it.                  The book introduced the idea of a man that felt he was a wolf of the Steppes and also he was a man who had very strange experiences.

Stations Of The Mind                        (1987)           William Glasser    This book introduced a new idea to me, that the mind filters reality to maintain comfort.

Presence of Other Worlds                  (1986?          Wilson  Van Dusen   The first time I read 'double thought' was a quotation from Swedenborg.

Other Worlds                                     1987             Paul Davies              "The importance of an observer..."

Men Who Have Walked With God       1986           Sheldon Cheney         "The god within that tells us about our universe." Socrates  

Psychology of The Unconscious            1986           Robert Ornstein  

God, Man, Communication               1988           Wilson Van Dusen/ George Dole               

The Phenomenon Of Man                  1987         Teilhard de Chardin         

Pathways Through To Space                1986           Franklin Merrill Wolfe      

Consciousness Without An Object       1986           Franklin Merrill  Wolfe       

People Of The Lie                               1985              M. Scott Peck                   

An Imagined World                         1986            June Goodfield             This was a critical book, the jacket contained exact words that I'd         noticed in my thought, before I read them on that jacket. They were specific words about some thing that was 'invisible because it was ever present.

The Abusing Family                            1987/8?            Justice and Justice          

The Bond Of Power                          1986                Joseph Chilton Pearce  

Journeys Out of Body                      1987                 Robert Monroe                  

The Symbolic And The Real                 1986                  Ira Progoff                    

The Will To Create                               1986                  Rollo May

Far Journeys                                        1988                  Robert Monroe      

The End of Our Exploring                      1986                 Monica Furlong           

William Blake And The Tree Of Life      1986                Laura De Witt James    

Wholeness And The Implicate Order      1987                David Bohm                   

The Psychotherapy and Cure Of Satan, J.S.P.S         Jeremy Leven,        Satan feels misunderstood, unloved and he seeks therapy.                      

The Devil                                             1985                 Molnar, ??  (Fiction 1911)    

Jonathan Livingston Seagull                  1985               Richard Bach             

Listening With The Third Ear               1986               Theodore Reik                  

Powers Of Mind                                 1986                  Adam Smith                      

Hidden Communion                            1988                  Joost Meerloo                  

Incredible Coincidence                       1984                  Alan Vaughn                            

Theory Of Eternal Life                         1986                 Rodney Collin                

The Fourth Way                                 1985                   P. D. Ouspensky

The Doors Of Perception; The Art Of Seeing    1986    Aldus Huxley

The Double Helix                               1986                   James Watson

The Search For The Double Helix     1986                     John Gribbon

Super Learning                                   1987                   Ostrander and Ostrander

The Scapegoat Complex                  1987                     Sylvia Perrera Brinton

Narcissism, Character Disorders & Transformation        Nathan Salant Schwartz

Tertium Organun                         1986                          P. D. Ouspensky

The Moebius Seed                     1988                           Steven Rosen

Replay                                        1988                           Ken Grimwood

Heaven And Hell                         1988                           Emanuel Swedenborg

Synchronicity, The Bridge Between Mind and Matter   1988   F. David Peat

In Search Of The Miraculous        1988                         P. D. Ouspensky

Tremulations                                 1988                         Emanuel Swedenborg   

Sympathetic Vibrations                 1987                           K.C. Cole

The Road Less Travelled               1986                          M. Scott Peck

The Edges Of Science                   1987                          Eugene Mallove

Crack In The Cosmic Egg              1988                          Joseph Chilton Pearce

I’m Ok, You’re Ok                       1986                          Eric Berne

The Hidden Dimension                   1987                         Edward T. Hall                   

The Silent Language                        1987                        Edward T. Hall

The Hidden Self                                                              Theodore Reik

Atoms, Matter, Physics      (! ! ! !)       1989                   Alan Nourse  

Ritual, Psychological Studies                                           Theodore Reik

A New Model Of The Universe                                      P. D. Ouspensky

The Arrow Of Time                                                        Roger Highsmith, Peter Coveney

The Future Of Man                                                        Teilhard de Chardin

The Divine Milleu                                                           Teilhard de Chardin

The Psychology Of Man's Possible Evolution                  P. D. Ouspensky

The Cosmic Code                                                          Heinz Pagels

The Strange Life Of Ivan Osokin                                    P. D. Ouspensky

Blake, Jung And The Collective Unconscious                 Elaine Pagels

The New Man                                                               Maurice Nicoll

The Mark                                                                      Maurice Nicoll

Synchronicity And Human Destiny                                 Ira Progoff

Divine Providence    (2)                                                 Emanuel Swedenborg

Arcana Coelestia ( several volumes)                              Emanuel Swedenborg

The Interpretation of Schizophrenia                               Silvano Arieti    

The Parnas                                                                   Silvano Arieti

The Act of Creation                                                      Arthur Koestler

Creativity                                                                      Silvano Arieti

The Greeks And The Irrational                                      E. Dodds

The Republic,                                                               Plato

The Oedipus Trilogy                                                     Sophocles

The Euminedes                                                             Euripedes

Living Time And Integration Of The Life                       Maurice Nicoll

The Commentaries                                                       Maurice Nicoll

(Mathematical History) (about 20 various enlightening books that overturned my understanding of mathematics. Not one real world event can be reversed, the way a formula can be reversed.

Sacred Geometry                                                       Robert  Lawler

Infinity And The Mind                                                 Rudy Rucker

The Bridges Of Infinity                                                Michael Guillen

The End Of Certainty                                                  Ilya Prigogine     See this link: http://cremesti.com/portfolio/technical_writing/Academic_Research_Papers/End_of_Certainty.htm

Flat Land                                                                    E. Abbott

Sphereland                                                                  Dionysys Burgher

A New Era Of Thought                                               Charles Hinton

Scientific Romances       (The Persian King allegory)      Charles Hinton

Mind and Nature                                                         Gregory Bateson

Steps to an Ecology of Mind                                        Gregory Bateson

Angel Fear                                                                   Gregory Bateson

The Reenchantment Of The World                           Morris Berman

Coming To Our Senses                                              Morris Berman

The Creation Of Woman                                              Theodore Reik

The Cassandra Complex                                               Laurie Layton Shapira

Life Against Death (1995)                                         Norman O. Brown     A new phase began, at Boeing when a new airplane entered Final Assembly

The Egyptian Hermes         (A MUST to read)             Garth Fowden

Hesiod, Theogony, Works And Days                          Norman O. Brown

Hermes, The Trickster                                             Norman O. Brown

The Celestine Prophecy                                               James Redfield

Ultimate Journey      (! ! ! !) Incredible book!!      Robert Monroe

Science And Sanity (1999)                                         Alfred Korzybski

Morals & Dogma (1999)                                            Arthur Pike.

The Philosophy Of Symbolic Forms  (II) (2001)          Ernst Cassirer

Theogony, Work and Days                                         Hesiod

The Self And Psychotic Process                                 John Weir Perry

The Lord of Four Quarters                                         John Weir Perry

Essays On Schizophrenia                                            Harold Searles

The Dynamics Of Hope                                              Ira Progoff  

The Family Unconscious                                            E. B. Bynum

Imagination Is Reality (Western Nirvana in Jung, Hillman, Barfield & Cassirer)     Roberts  Avens; Spring Publications

Apocalypse and/or Metamorphosis                                                                    Norman Brown; University of California Press

The Greater Trumps                                                                                          Charles Williams; Noonday Press

The Prince                                                                                                         Niccolo Machiavelli; Bantom Books, New York

God Is My Adventure                                                                                       Rom Landau: Alfred A Knopf

The Discovery of the Unconscious                                                                     Henri F. Ellenberger

The Dynamics of Hope                                                                             Ira Progoff

Francis Bacon and The Rhetoric of Nature                                                        John Briggs

The Plural Psyche, Personality, Morality & The Father                                      Andrew Samuels

Journey Through This World                                                                      C. S. Nott

Hidden Communion, Studies in the Communication Theory of Telepathy**        Joost A. M. Meerloo

The Herald of Coming Good                                                             G. I. Gurdjieff

Serendipity, Accidental Discoveries in Science                                                Royston M. Roberts

Oedipus, Antigione, Electra                                                                             Sophocles

The Creation of Woman                                                                     Theodore Reik

Understanding Mysticism                                                                                Richard Woods

The Biology of Transcendence                                                                   Joseph Chilton Pearce

The Twilight of American Culture                                                                    Morris Berman

A Life Of Carl G. Jung                                                                                   Ronald Hayman

Cosmos and Psyche                                                                                        Richard Tarnas

Decoding the Universe                                                                                    Charles Siefe                                   

Reality:, A New Correlation of Science and Religion                                        Burnett Hillman Streeter 1926

Psychiatry and Mysticism                                                                               Stanley R. Dean, M. D.  1975

Facing Evil                                                                                                     Edited by Paul Woodruff/Harry A. Wilmer 1988

Patients and Agents, Transference-Counter-transference in Therapy                Maria Carmen Gear/Ernesto Cesar Liendo/Lila Lee  Scott 1983

Fish's Schizophrenia                                                                                        Max Hamilton  1962

The Shining Stranger  an unorthodox Interpretation of Jesus and his mission      Preston Harold  1967

The Gnostic Jung and the  Seven Sermons to the Dead                                    Stephan A. Hoeller  1982

The Wisdom of the Masters An Esoteric History of the Spiritual Unfolding

of Life on this Planet                                                                                        John G. Bennett  1977

Psychotherapy East and West, A Unifying Paradigm                                        Swami Ajaya, Ph. D. 1983

Freud's Contribution to Psychiatry                                                                   A. A. Brill  1944

A Skeleton Key to Finnegans' Wake                                                               Joseph Campbell/Henry Morton Robinson 1944

Ayesha , She                                                                                                  H. Rider Haggard

This list reveals a pattern: a special kind of coincidence that is nearly impossible to describe. A detail in my life is being 'said back'' to me in the book and that pattern has not deviated.   Example: "Listening To The Third Ear" by Theodore Reik. The title of the book as well as it's entire contents were 'descriptions TO ME of what was happening in my life when I read the book. Synchronicity, The Bridge Between Mind and Matter by F. David Peat was the first book mentioned 'synchronicity'. The words in the book seemed to be familiar to me, as though I knew them already. The discovery (or the recognition that they exist) of 'mirror' neurons may explain that, a kind of' mimetic' content in the body, meets it's exact match in the exterior world. This fact was not easy to detect and then be certain about until it happened over a span of years. Some events happened that made this relationship to what I was doing so obvious I couldn't fail to recognize it. The 'safety secret' incident was the first one.  It has happened all my life.

The Oedipus Cycle                                                        Dudley Fitts and Robert Fitzgerald          This edition has an accurate critique of the trilogy

Classics, Greek and Roman                                            Meyer Reinhhold           

The Fugger Newsletters: News and Rumor in Renaissance Europe           George T. Matthews, Editor

Early Greek Philosophy                                                                            Penguin Classics    

Herodotus, The Persian Wars                                                                   George Rawlinson            

The most recent books I've read:  Red print means:  Everyone should have a copy of this book to read, re-read until you understand the ideas in it from your own experience.

Imagination Is Reality (Western Nirvana in Jung, Hillman, Barfield & Cassirer)     Roberts  Avens; Spring Publications

Apocalypse and/or Metamorphosis                                                                      Norman Brown; University of California Press

The Greater Trumps                                                                                          Charles Williams; Noonday Press

The Family Unconscious                                                                                     E. B. Bynum

The Prince                                                                                                         Niccolo Machiavelli; Bantom Books, New York

God Is My Adventure                                                                                        Rom Landau: Alfred A Knopf

The Discovery of the Unconscious                                                                     Henri F. Ellenberger

The Dynamics of Hope**                                                                                  Ira Progoff

Francis Bacon and The Rhetoric of Nature                                                        John Briggs

The Plural Psyche, Personality, Morality & The Father                                   Andrew Samuels

Journey Through This World***                                                                      C. S. Nott

Hidden Communion, Studies in the Communication Theory of Telepath**        Joost A. M. Meerloo

The Herald of Coming Good****                                                                      G. I. Gurdjieff

Serendipity, Accidental Discoveries in Science                                                Royston M. Roberts

Oedipus, Antigione, Electra                                                                             Sophocles

The Creation of Woman****                                                                        Theodore Reik

Understanding Mysticism                                                                               Richard Woods

The Biology of Transcendence                                                                       Joseph Chilton Pearce

The Twilight of American Culture        Check out his home page.                    Morris Berman    www.mastermediaspeakers.com/morrisberman

A Life Of Carl G. Jung                                                                                  Ronald Hayman

The Psychotic Core                                                                                       Michael Eigen

C. G. Jung, Letters 1919-1950                                                                     Gerhard Adler

The Mind Parasites **                                                                                  Colin Wilson

Dark Ages America                                                                                      Morris Berman

He Came Down From Heaven                                                                    Charles Williams

Cracking Up                                                                                               Christopher Bollas

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The most recent books I've read:  Red print means:  Everyone should have a copy of this book to read, re-read until you understand from your own experience.

Imagination Is Reality (Western Nirvana in Jung, Hillman, Barfield & Cassirer)     Roberts  Avens; Spring Publications

Apocalypse and/or Metamorphosis                                                                      Norman Brown; University of California Press

The Greater Trumps                                                                                          Charles Williams; Noonday Press

The Prince                                                                                                         Niccolo Machiavelli; Bantom Books, New York

God Is My Adventure                                                                                        Rom Landau: Alfred A Knopf

The Discovery of the Unconscious                                                                     Henri F. Ellenberger

The Dynamics of Hope**                                                                                  Ira Progoff

Francis Bacon and The Rhetoric of Nature                                                        John Briggs

The Plural Psyche, Personality, Morality & The Father                                      Andrew Samuels

Journey Through This World***                                                                      C. S. Nott

Hidden Communion, Studies in the Communication Theory of Telepath**        Joost A. M. Meerloo

The Herald of Coming Good***                                                                      G. I. Gurdjieff

Serendipity, Accidental Discoveries in Science                                                Royston M. Roberts

Oedipus, Antigione, Electra                                                                             Sophocles

The Creation of Woman****                                                                        Theodore Reik

Understanding Mysticism                                                                               Richard Woods

The Biology of Transcendence                                                                       Joseph Chilton Pearce

The Twilight of American Culture                                                                   Morris Berman

A Life Of Carl G. Jung                                                                                  Ronald Hayman

After this point is a time line arrangement. dates when I read the  list of books I've read. , dates I read each book is significant.  

 Below the booklist I've added comments about the timing, and other important information.

The order in which I read books would not seem to be important, but it is, so that's why I've listed them in the order in which I read them. This is a Time line based Book list.  I had read virtually nothing but fiction until about 1983, I dislike biographical books and movies and had no interest in topics that were not related to school or a job I had. It was after I had an accident in 1981 that many changes happened in my mind/body/thought and real world life. I believed the accident had caused brain damage and it seemed that the loss of control over my body that I noticed slowly was due to my brain's assuming authority to restore my losses. I couldn't read and remember what I read, which was so noticeable to me I couldn't understand the 'demand' made on me to read books that were non-fiction when it replaced my interests in fiction. I had read that the brain can repair itself, but I also read that it cannot. , then a switch  occurred beginning in the year just before 1984  that caused me to notice that a will other than my own was choosing what I read: it directed my attention it seems to me now, strictly towards non-fictions that I 'just happened' to notice somewhere. I had rarely read non-fictions except when it was required, keep that in mind.  This was just one facet of a change of my habits that I could easily identify because it reversed the content of my habit of reading. BUT it did not replace the habit of reading!  At the same time  the 'switch' from fiction to fact began,  I  was already experiencing a change in perception that I could not explain because I could not see it distinctly for several years: I saw my body in a different way, watching it the way one would an object, yet not actually seeing my body. When I could not seem to choose anything but nonfiction, I wondered what was making me buy, borrow or check out such books when they caught my attention,

The list has not been updated recently.  Read the titles with a special attention because a very strange fact becomes available if you consider the words of the titles,  not merely what their inner content is:  The words literally describe some particular detail of what was happening at the time I read the book! This 'literal sense' was the result of a very simple change in my mind, although it was not easy to  notice, it actually was brought to my attention, slowly, and methodically between 1984 and 1989. By 1989 I had learned a completely new language.

Here's the book list, which I have not updated for some time. The pattern has not deviated however.

The Impersonal Life                  ( 1981 )      DeVorss Publishing Company  

The copy I found was the tenth reprint, in 1895 by the Sun Publishing Company. The 'Devorss'  Co. has the copyright now. But they  had no knowledge of the Sun company when I wrote to inquire about when the booklet was published

.  The first words were: "To you who read, I AM come. To you who read, I  AM speaking." The words affected me so that I closed the book, feeling strangely that a person had spoken!        

The Weaver Of Dreams              (1982)                 Myrtle Reed  (fiction)     

    Three paragraphs on page 175/176, about two kinds of people seemed electrified when I read them. The paragraph  is one that I did  not relate to myself, my life or anyone's life, at that point. As I learned more and experienced more over the next 2 decades I recognized they were details that were specifically about my life, describing an actual situation that I knew nothing about, the condition that in psychiatric terms has several names, but it's a basic condition folie aux duex was the first one I became aware of.  

The Body’s Rapture                        (1982)                 Jules Romain                          1911 (Fiction)  The idea of being  out of body' and a depth level of mind between lovers where they communicate over space and Time. 

Reality Therapy                               (1983)                William Glasser                       I 'd begun to see a psychiatrist, Dr. Phillip Rehngren, the book was his.

Mental Health Or Mental Illness      (1983)                William Glasser     

Psychology For The Layman            (1983)               Eric Berne            

Mr. God, This Is Anna                 (1984)                Fynn                                  Mr. God was 'in her middle'. She said: "I am a viewing point for Mr. God."

The Obsessive Personality               ( 1984)              Saltzmann                           This book was one in which I began to recognize a 'detail' about my life in it.

Steppenwolfe                                                            Herman Hesse                    A man whose mind was divided, he was a wolf and a man, strange experiences.

The Presence Of Other Worlds                                 Wilson Van Dusen            Description of 'strange experiences'!! It 'described' the mind of the 'insane', or psychosis like  the mindset of Steppenwolfe,  who thought he was both a wild animal and a man        

Stations Of The Mind                         (1987)            William Glasser                "There is a controller for comfort in the mind." This was a new idea to me.

God, Man, Communication               1988            Wilson Van Dusen/ George Dole          The first mention of 'double thought'. It was an incredible, but unidentified coincidence to read it  at just that point, when a kind of 'doubleness' was beginning to affect me.

Other Worlds                                      1987             Paul Davies                    "The importance of an observer." which had been a 'thought' in my mind since about 1982 

Men Who Have Walked With God       1986           Sheldon Cheney             "The god within that tells us about our universe." Socrates

Psychology of The Unconscious            1986           Robert Ornstein               New ideas and new information to me, all of it.

The Phenomenon Of Man                  1987         Teilhard de Chardin          Generated a landslide of thought condensed to: "There have been no categories, species,  type, order, genus, family in 'man'."

Pathways Through To Space                1986           Franklin Merrill Wolfe       This book and the next one were incomprehensible, but I HAD to

Consciousness Without An Object       1986        Franklin Merrill  Wolfe        read them. What was this man writing about? "high indifference"? What is THAT?

Cosmic Consciousness                         1985               Richard M. Bucke             A new idea about ...what?

People Of The Lie                               1985              M. Scott Peck                    I had begun to notice a strange relationship between a couple in our       

                                                                                                                           life, a man that I couldn't talk to, and his wife who seemed to have  an                                                                                                                         unusual effect on him AND ON ME and other people in the group. .

An Imagined World                         1986            June Goodfield                  This was a critical book, the jacket contained exact words that I'd noticed in my thought, before I read them on that jacket. The sense of recognition was 'remote', barely there, not articulateable, just barely noticable.

The Abusing Family                            1987/8?                Justice and Justice            I had not read this kind of book, but I realized it was 'about' my family and the problems I was trying to address. It was a  real world situation at that point in Time.

The Bond Of Power                          1986                                                              Joseph Chilton Pearce     A truly new kind of information, as well as a very personal  relationship was formed to  what he wrote about  Arthur C. Clarke's Childhood's End; 'folie aux duex', William Blake and autism and the 'postulate arrived full blown in the mind'.

Journeys Out of Body                      1987                                                New information (to me)  about a real man, one who was alive at the time. His 'trips' out of body,  prepared a necessary foundation                                                                                                                 for understanding  Swedenborg's writings when I read them, later so that I understood what the mind can  do.

The Symbolic And The Real                 1986                  Ira Progoff                        Could not  understand what the 'symbolic' and the 'real' meant.  I'd not known about symbolism, etc.

The Will To Create                               1986                  Rollo May

Far Journeys                                        1988                  Robert Monroe                 Further information, a new 'sense' emerged in my thought, when I read   about Monroe's dawning awareness of not being alone in his new level of  experiences. I read Jonathon Livingston Seagull and felt a 'presence' like he described at one point when he flew away from his 'kin'. .

The End of Our Exploring                      1986                  Monica Furlong              A critical book, remarkable to me who knew nothing about 'paths'  that were so distinct to such a young woman as the author of this book. I felt a sense of 'recognizing', a sense of familiarity in the 'Coming Journey', which seemed to be. referencing certain events  that had happened in my past: those memories that were the 'remains', the 'recurring memories'.         

William Blake And The Tree Of Life      1986                Laura De Witt James         A truly monumental book because I recognized the relationship between Albion and Vala;  and the Los/Jerusalem relationship that I'd lived in my real life. There were many words I'd heard from my husband, CHAOS for instance.  The  last page brought up into my mind my  grandmother's 'ball of rose colored crochet twine' event. It was related  automatically by my mind/brain, not by me, to the poem on the last page of  the book.                                                    

Wholeness And The Implicate Order      1987                 David Bohm                     An amazingly 'familiar idea' seemed to be what he was attempting to  convey: "what you see is what you get'. It was a remark I'd made many times to someone, the Albion/Los in my life. I had said that many, many  times.

The Psychotherapy and Cure Of Satan, J.S.P.S         ???? (Fiction)                             A strange new idea that the 'satan'  might not be real evil. J.S. P. S means Just Some Poor Schluck.

The Devil                                              1985                        Molnar, ??  (Fiction 1911)    

Jonathan Livingston Seagull                     1985                Richard Bach                        The book I'd avoided reading when it was popular contained a reference to a 'presence' that Jonathan encountered, to help him in his  isolation and despair. It morphed into my life, I felt a bit of a presence begin to 'dawn'.

Listening With The Third Ear                  1986                    Theodore Reik                   The first book in which a sense of recognition occurred, "He writes like I think." I had been 'tangential, digressive' when I tried to set a context for  what I said. The way he described mental processes was extremely new  information to me.

Powers Of Mind                                  1986                  Adam Smith                          New information about different 'states of mind', experiences with drugs.

Hidden Communion                            1988                  Joost Meerloo                       About  non verbal communication!

Incredible Coincidence                       1984                  Alan Vaughn                               There was a mention about playing a starring role in someone else's life and becoming a bit player in your own life. I wondered how such a situation could happen, It was already the situation in my life.

Theory Of Eternal Life                         1986                  Rodney Collin                        It's really about the 'worlds of cells, electrons, molecules'. There was a mention in the book: "You have in-adverently discovered a very great secret..." Reading the words was the first incident in which I recognized words on a page that had already 'grown' from a sense of words to real words.

The Fourth Way                                 1985                    P. D. Ouspensky

The Doors Of Perception; The Art Of Seeing    1986     Aldus Huxley

The Double Helix                               1986                    James Watson

The Search For The Double Helix     1986                      John Gribbon

Super Learning                                   1987                     Ostrander and Ostrander

The Scapegoat Complex                      1987                   Sylvia Perrera Brinton

Narcissism, Character Disorders & Transformation          Nathan Salant Schwartz

Tertium Organun                         1986                             P. D. Ouspensky

The Moebius Seed                     1988                             Steven Rosen

Replay                                        1988                             Ken Grimwood

Heaven And Hell                          1988                           Emanuel Swedenborg

Synchronicity, The Bridge Between Mind and Matter   1988   F. David Peat

In Search Of The Miraculous          1988                          P. D. Ouspensky

Tremulations                                  1988                          Emanuel Swedenborg                  "Fire is little mathematical points."

Sympathetic Vibrations                 1987                            K.C. Cole

The Road Less Travelled               1986                           M. Scott Peck

The Edges Of Science                   1987                           Eugene Mallowe

Crack In The Cosmic Egg              1988                          Joseph Chilton Pearce

I’m Ok, You’re Ok                       1986                          Eric Berne

The Hidden Dimension                   1987                         Edward T. Hall                                 The effect that added  'literal sense', a sense of being talked to,  became more distinct when I read this book and the next one by Edward T. Hall, and Reik's The Hidden Self

The Silent Language                        1987                        Edward T. Hall

The Hidden Self                                                               Theodore Reik

Atoms, Matter, Physics      (! ! ! !)       1989                   Alan Nourse   This was an amazing experience, because it contained the answer to what I'd wondered to myself about  e = mc2, and the exact words of 'thought' that had occurred to me one day when I paused over e = m c 2 2  wondering "Does that mean what it looks like it means?" Other books were not explicit enough about man, his thought, his material world being enclosed in the equation. The exact words and other memories from my past had come into my thought that day, but I was seeing backwards then, so seeing e=mc2 turn into and anagram:  equals 2 see me  was a result of that phase. Everything 're-peated', a 'reflection' or 'echo' is the best way I can think of it. There was a 'second sight', a re-play, literally and this phase was very, very, very confusing. Headlights and lights at night seemed like eyes, until I recognized a 'paired-ness' was being generated by the 'reflection' of content that was in front of me at the moment AND was where my attention was placed.

Ritual, Psychological Studies                                           Theodore Reik

A New Model Of The Universe                                      P. D. Ouspensky

The Arrow Of Time                                                        Roger Highsmith, Peter Coveney

The Future Of Man                                                        Teilhard de Chardin

The Divine Milleu                                                           Teilhard de Chardin

The Psychology Of Man's Possible Evolution                  P. D. Ouspensky

The Cosmic Code                                                          Heinz Pagels

The Strange Life Of Ivan Osokin                                    P. D. Ouspensky

Blake, Jung And The Collective Unconscious                 Elaine Pagels

The New Man                                                               Maurice Nicoll

The Mark                                                                      Maurice Nicoll

Synchronicity And Human Destiny                                 Ira Progoff

Divine Providence    (2)                                                 Emanuel Swedenborg

Arcana Coelestia ( several volumes)                              Emanuel Swedenborg

The Interpretation of Schizophrenia                               Silvano Arieti    

The Parnas                                                                   Silvano Arieti

The Act of Creation                                                      Arthur Koestler

Creativity                                                                      Silvano Arieti

The Greeks And The Irrational                                      E. Dodds

The Republic,                                                               Plato

The Oedipus Trilogy                                                     Sophocles

The Euminedes                                                             Euripedes

Living Time And Integration Of The Life                       Maurice Nicoll

The Commentaries                                                       Maurice Nicoll

(Mathematical History) (about 20 various enlightening books that overturned my understanding of mathematics. Not one real world event can be reversed, the way a formula can be reversed.

Sacred Geometry                                                       Robert  Lawler

Infinity And The Mind                                                 Rudy Rucker

The Bridges Of Infinity                                                Michael Guillen

The End Of Certainty                                                  Ilya Prigogine     See this link: http://cremesti.com/portfolio/technical_writing/Academic_Research_Papers/End_of_Certainty.htm

Flat Land                                                                               E. Abbott

Sphereland                                                                   Dionysys Burgher

A New Era Of Thought                                               Charles Hinton

Scientific Romances       (The Persian King allegory)      Charles Hinton

Mind and Nature                                                         Gregory Bateson

Steps to an Ecology of Mind                                        Gregory Bateson

Angel Fear                                                                   Gregory Bateson

The Reenchantment Of The World                           Morris Berman

Coming To Our Senses                                              Morris Berman

The Creation Of Woman                                              Theodore Reik

The Cassandra Complex                                               Laurie Layton Shapira

(The advent of the 737X paperwork YA001) 1995 (this coincided with Life Against Death, repetition of a pattern, the entire phase repeated at work, when the 'new generation' airplane arrived.)

Life Against Death (1995)                                         Norman O. Brown

The Egyptian Hermes         (A MUST to read)             Garth Fowden

Hesiod, Theogony, Works And Days                          Normon O. Brown

Hermes, The Trickster                                             Norman O. Brown

The Celestine Prophecy                                               James Redfield

Ultimate Journey      (! ! ! !) Incredible book!!      Robert Monroe (He died soon after authoring this book.) After reading this book, I read the first Swedenborg book, Heaven and Hell. The inner world of Robert Monroe and the way his 3 books described it, prepared me to understand much of Swedenborg's writings, about 'correspondences, the literal sense and symbolically presented information', all of which were new, completely new ideas to me. I had read the booklet God, Man, and Communication by George Dole and Wilson Van Dusen in which I experienced without awareness at the time,  one of the most amazingly timed 'coincidences', in the paragraph that contained the term, 'double thought' in a quotation from Swedenborg! It's not a term one can understand without experiencing it, consciously and in many 'events'.                                                                                    

Science And Sanity (1999)                                         Alfred Korzybski

Morals & Dogma (1999)                                            Arthur Pike (I went to the local theosophical library to find a copy of this book. In it's place was Science and Sanity by Korzybski. The title somehow 'clicked' immediately and I read much of the book, finding in it a direct validation of many ideas I'd had about Aristotlean logic, and logic in general, unframed in my thought, but distinctly there in my mind. This was a  kind of coincidence, an amazing one, because I'd had a sense of 'disdain' for logic as a complete form of reasoning. Mr. Korzybski wrote what I felt.

The Philosophy Of Symbolic Forms  (II) (2001)          Ernst Cassirer

Theogony, Work and Days                                         Hesiod

The Self And Psychotic Process                                 John Weir Perry

The Lord of Four Quarters                                         John Weir Perry

Essays On Schizophrenia                                            Harold Searles

The Dynamics Of Hope                                              Ira Progoff  

The most recent books I've read:  Red print means:  Everyone should have a copy of this book to read, re-read until you understand  what it's about, from your own experience.

Imagination Is Reality (Western Nirvana in Jung, Hillman, Barfield & Cassirer)     Roberts  Avens; Spring Publications

Apocalypse and/or Metamorphosis                                                                    Norman Brown; University of California Press

The Greater Trumps                                                                                          Charles Williams; Noonday PressThe Prince                                                                                                         Niccolo Machiavelli; Bantom Books, New York

God Is My Adventure                                                                                       Rom Landau: Alfred A Knopf

The Discovery of the Unconscious                                                                     Henri F. Ellenberger

The Dynamics of Hope**                                                                              Ira Progoff

Francis Bacon and The Rhetoric of Nature                                                        John Briggs

The Plural Psyche, Personality, Morality & The Father                                      Andrew Samuels

Journey Through This World***                                                                      C. S. Nott

Hidden Communion, Studies in the Communication Theory of Telepathy**        Joost A. M. Meerloo

The Herald of Coming Good***                                                                   G. I. Gurdjieff

Serendipity, Accidental Discoveries in Science                                                Royston M. Roberts

Oedipus, Antigione, Electra                                                                             Sophocles

The Creation of Woman****                                                                      Theodore Reik

Understanding Mysticism                                                                                Richard Woods

The Biology of Transcendence                                                                   Joseph Chilton Pearce

The Twilight of American Culture                                                                    Morris Berman

A Life Of Carl G. Jung                                                                                   Ronald Hayman

Cosmos and Psyche                                                                                        Richard Tarnas

Decoding the Universe                                                                                      Charles Siefe                                   

At a certain point in Time, my habit of reading only fictions  changed into it's exact opposite: A kind of 'force', it was a real force, (the 'force of a deeply entrenched habit'?)  caused me to be unable to choose to read fictions, other than a few very specific fictions, usually old ones. I felt a real compulsion, I think of it now as a 'drive', a 'force' to read books that were not fiction. They came to my attention without any effort from me to find them and they were of a kind that  I had rarely  attempted to read in the past.  I had a different relationship to my body also, although I could not name it for several years. I heard and saw in a different way when I noticed that my hand reached for books that meant nothing to me.  I didn't seem to choose them for any reason, yet I could not NOT choose them. Eventually I felt a great curiosity about why I could not choose NOT to read books that were uninteresting to me. I did not understand what the words were intended to convey, yet I HAD to read them, without understanding what I read.  I had noticed this lack of 'understanding' in myself when I was much younger, but  in a particular way  much earlier in of my life.

At a certain point, it was about 1985 as best I can date it, I became aware of words of thought occurring faintly, barely sensed as words in my mind: , "read the words anyway. Pay no attention to whether you understand them or not." I did not have the feeling that I 'thought them' myself. These words were at first quite distant, 'sensed as words',  somehow similar to how a  fragrance can  'waft' towards you before you see it, so its possible to identify an object before you see it. They became real words slowly, over a period of several months. It was 'thought' that evolved from being  'close to words' and moving to a location where they were distinct words of thought. "..read the words anyway. Pay no attention to whether you understand them or not." They were distinct words by the time I began to read Heaven and Hell by an author I'd never  heard of, Emanuel Swedenborg.

I would like to clarify why this list of books is more significant than it would seem to be. There's an attribute of timing, Every book was linked to an 'event' in my life eventually. That is they came at points when their content had a specific relationship to what was going on in my real life. This was not easy to notice, it required many events to happen, over a period of about 7 years (1982-1989)  in which 'synchronization' between what I was reading, certain 'thought' that was in my mind, and events that were happening in my physical world was so distinct that finally that attribute HAD to be given full attention. It would seem impossible that such a synchronization that happened in  some of these events could happen even once in a lifetime. The Majesti Watch incident that happened in 2000  is probably the most nearly impossible to happen, but it happened.

I repeat myself: Read the titles with a special attention because a very strange fact becomes available if you consider the words of the titles,  not merely what their inner content is: . The words literally describe some particular detail of what was happening at the time I read the book!

That's a fact I became aware of  quite slowly, it was a complete surprise to me, I had never once in my life noticed that kind of relationship. (Now I can recognize it was happening even when I was a teenager, and later in life.) It 'dawned' very slowly, when a few specific incidents (which  I've included in this site) caused me to notice this attribute, of 'describing what was happening in my life at the time it happened'.  Let me emphasize that recognition of that relationship dawned very slowly.  It was impossible to detect the precise timing in an ongoing flow until several events accumulated and I noticed them and they occurred over a period of years.  The first incident happened in the fall of 1981, it was an event where timing was so precise a but I barely thought of it after it happened!  Two very convincing events happened  in 1987. Then  by 1988 it was obvious that these books had specific information in them that related to a flow of experiences I was having. The books were even describing them for me, or contributing words that helped me to understand what this 'flow' was trying to accomplish: it was building a conversation.

 The 'conversation' was related to an event that had happened in my mind, although  I had to discover it as though it had occurred on a different planet!  It was a package of information about my life, it contained a message, which I typed one day without any curiosity about it, a year after the event happened, without recognizing it even in 1985!

A most unusual situation, but I was not even curious about what my own hands had typed! I printed it out, saved it and thought nothing more about it until  several weeks after I'd read Carl Sagan's book Contact. Then a thought occurred, I 'read it', I believe rather than created it, as though someone else said it to me:  "It was a message. I got a message."

 I had to discover every 'bit of information' in this same form, which was such a drastic change in relating to what was going on in my head. The 'package' which I later named a 'mindquake'  had come into my mind during the 10 days between July 31August 1984. The first 'mindquake' happened in the 10 days that the Los Angeles Olympic Games were being played, the second one happened in 1989 followed by a third one.

It, the 'flow' and it's content, was purposeful, intending to get my attention in a  new form of  'addressing' me and was in fact talking to me. I repeat this because it's essential to keep in mind: I became aware over a period of several years that often the title of the book 'described to me' a detail about what was happening in my actual real world life at the time I read the book!  The timing could not have been chosen by me, nor arranged by me, it was always a real 'shock' when this precision became evident.  It was not a simple thing to grasp this attribute, in fact it would have been impossible to establish this as a fact except that  incidents happened in which the timing was so impeccable that attribute could not be ignored. I began to realize long strings of situations in my past were aimed towards future events. And it was obvious there was nothing random or purposeless generating this 'flow' within my life although other people seemed to know more about it than I did! 

This list is not  meant to be a  bibliography; it’s an example of the attribute of the literal sense.  In this 'sense' words, varying from a single word to  an entire book,  are highlighted in the mind, by some special kind of attention, the words are understood with an added effect,  sense of self reference turns the 'direction' of thought around, so that it seems to be a person speaking, within! This attribute is applicable to words  irregardless of their original context and source, a new context is generated. This is really a process of 'regeneration' in that an original context is replaced, i.e a new context is generated. A sense of familiarity may be the experienced, or a sense of 'resonation', which is a currently popular word that one hears frequently. The word 'echo' is a good word to use although what is in the 'reflection', or what is 'reheard' is a completely different context. I named this 'effect' a 'second underlying/under lying context'. A Jungian analyst that I went to for a time told me this was an accurate term to use to describe what Carl G. Jung named, meaningful coincidence. Emanuel Swedenborg named the same kind of event, as 'double thought', and that is also perfectly accurate, literally. It's as though one knew already and that some 'inner content' is being matched up with something 'out there, outside of the body'  but this is not obvious nor easily distinct.  The term deja vu, very likely arose from this kind of 'event'.

What this means is that there was an attribute of literalness, but that I mean  the title of the book meant exactly what it says as a 'description of a detail about my life at the moment'. That's an idea that is difficult to keep in mind. I experienced a variety of feelings in my body when I read certain material that seemed 'familiar' to me when I read it, and that probably explains many aspects of 'meaningful coincidence'. The sense of familiarity was because the information whatever it was, was already in my body in some form. A kind of 'chemistry' probably is at work.

 There was a specific part in the book that seemed 'electric' although I could not have used that word to describe it that affected me strongly. In some circumstances, the entire book seemed 'familiar' as though the words had been already known to me.   It's  a partial list. I feel like I must have been reading all the time but I wasn't really!